I opened the door to the dorm carefully. I prayed to god that they all had schedules. I couldn’t go on with my plan if anyone was home. My plan to leave as fast as possible without informing anyone. I hated to say good bye and this was for the best. To just cut off the contact, no teary good bye was needed. When I stepped in I was met by silence. I let out a sigh in relief. But just as I thought that I was safe and that my plan was going to get fulfilled a tired looking Donghae showed up in the hallway. He smiled at me weakly when our eyes met and then he went up to me and wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly

“I am going to miss you Lia” he told me sadly and kissed my hair

“I’ll miss you too Donghae oppa, I really will” I said and started to cry “How was it yesterday by the way? You know when I left?” I wondered, I looked at Donghae, his face twisted, not a good sign

“Chaos” he replied simply “No one agreed with Siwon that you should leave, but he had made up his mind so he didn’t listen to our pleads whatsoever” he told me and I nodded, I had guessed that to happen

“But Donghae, if Lili wants to go with me then force her to stay. She belongs here in Korea with you; don’t let her go after me. I beg you.  Tell Minnie he’s an angel and Hyuk that I’ll miss him, god I’ll even miss Kyuhyun” I started but Donghae cut me off before I could continue

“Why don’t you tell them that yourself?” he wondered

“I’m leaving now, the faster I leave the better and I hate good bye’s, I’m gonna pack my stuff quickly and just go to the airport and get me a ticket to the first available plane” I informed Donghae

“Are you sure?”

“Yes” I replied “I’m sure”

Twenty minutes later I had managed to pack all my bags and written a letter to Lili. Donghae didn’t look pleased but he let me go. Maybe he knew himself that it was for the best.

“Take care of Lili for me” I hugged Donghae one last time

“I will, and you take care” he told me and kissed my cheek, he was crying, we both were

“Bye Donghae we’ll see each other soon again” I assured him before going out to the cab that was waiting for me to take me to the airport.

“Good bye Seoul.... Good bye Heechul”

Liliana’s POV

“Donghae? Are you home?” I called out as me, Minnie, Hyuk, Kyu and Kangin arrived home after a long day at their dance studio

“Yeah, I’m in the living room” I went to where his voice sounded; he was sitting on the sofa. The TV was on but he didn’t watch it, he just stared out in space. I sat down next to him and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek before any of the guys would see us. He turned around and smiled at me weakly. I didn’t like it. What had happened to my happy prince? Then he reached to the table and picked up a piece of paper and handed it to me. I looked at him confused.

“It’s a letter” he started sadly “from Lia” he continued, that just made me even more confused “She has left already, I was here alone when she came back, she’d spent the night at NU’EST’s dorm, and she thought that it was for the best that she left straight ahead and she didn’t want to say good bye” I stared at him, he couldn’t be telling me the truth, had she left already? She couldn’t have! I got up on my feet quickly and ran around the whole dorms and searched for her. I looked through every single room even the bathrooms but she was nowhere to be found. Then I started crying loudly. How could she do that to me!? I was supposed to go with her! I think I love Donghae but she is my sister! I’d do anything for her. Heechul didn’t know a thing about what he was talking about! I would seriously do anything for my sister! And now she just left!!! I started kicking everything that was in my way and screamed when I hit them! I was just so damn angry! Everything was Siwon’s fault, Heechul’s fault, Kyuhyun’s fault! Said men then actually entered into the living room along with the rest of the members. I heard the door open so I walked there, furious. When I saw Siwon I snapped big times

“I HATE YOU! I ING HATE YOU!!!” I yelled and went up to Siwon and started hitting his chest “She has left already! You made my sister leave me!! Just because of you she left me!!!!” I cried out, he tried to calm me down by wrapping his arms around me but I just shook him off furiously  “Don’t you dare touch me! I hate you! I’m going after her!” I yelled, just as I was about to hit him again I felt another pair of arms wrap around me firmly from behind. It was Donghae.

“Don’t he’s not worth it” he whispered to me, I let out a loud sob. Why did this have to be so damn complicated? Why is love so damn complicated?

“What do you mean with that she has left? Wherever she is she will come back cuz she had a plane to catch tomorrow” Siwon then said

“When she came back here she packed all of her stuff and went to the airport” Donghae informed calmly him before I could yell at him anymore, Siwon looked a bit surprised to be honest

“Drama queen” Heechul muttered I turned to him immediately and snapped

“THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT HEECHUL!!! YOU AND YOUR ING INABILITY TO TELL THE GIRL YOU LOVE HOW YOU HONSETLY FEEL ABOUT HER!!!!” I yelled and tried to throw myself at him but Donghae held me tightly, everybody’s eyes widened

“Lili what do you mean?” it was Sungmin that asked that, confusion was written all over his face

“I mean exactly what I just said!” I told them a little bit calmer “Heechul is in love with my sister and doesn’t know how to tell her so instead he mess with her and act like a ing ” I continued

“Is that true?” Siwon looked at Heechul shocked

“Yes” he replied and nodded, he looked down so that he wouldn’t need to face everybody that was staring at him intensely “I’m in love with Lia” he continued

“Then why have you been treating her like you have these past weeks?” Ryeowook wondered, Heechul sighed

“I just told you that” I cut in “He doesn’t know how to handle it” I continued and looked at Heechul angrily

“Well it doesn’t matter anyways” Siwon then said “Heechul,  you’re staying away from my sister, I don’t want you near her, it’s good that she went back and you can’t under any circumstances get in touch with her” he continued and then he went to his room before I could react, I just wanted to yell at him all night

“I hate him, I really hate him, I wish he wasn’t my brother” I told Donghae, he shook his head and kissed my forehead

“No you don’t you’re just upset” he said calmly “You should read the letter though” he continued and handed the letter to me again, in my fury I had lost it. I opened it carefully and started to read

To my dearest sister Lili....

I left one day earlier.... it was for the best and you know how much I hate to say good bye’s! And Lili I beg you an my bare knees DON’T come after me to England! I want you to stay in Korea with Donghae. Don’t sacrifice true love for me. I don’t want you to do that for anything in the world. I mean it’s not like we’re never going to see each other again. So stay, I beg you. You and Donghae are made for each other; it won’t make anyone happy if you leave. I will be fine! I’m 19 for god’s sake! I called mom and dad... they’re in Portugal now but I’m not going back home to the apartment, I’ll be staying with Danny so you don’t need to worry. I promise. I’ll call you as fast as I get time.

Tell Siwon I’m sorry for causing so much trouble... Hug and kiss Donghae on the cheek from me, and also hug and kiss the rest of the members... with one exception though but, yeah you know who.  Tell them I love them a lot and I’ll come visit someday in the future. That’s a promise

And remember my dearest sister, this was for the best. I don’t know if I could’ve endured one more day. I’ll be better off in England. Trust me on this one I’ve kinda missed London to be honest. I don’t know whether to start studying or start working; it’ll come to me in time I guess.

I’ll miss you a lot but as I said: DON’T YOU DARE COME AFTER ME! I wouldn’t forgive myself if you did. I would only blame myself if that affected your relationship with Donghae and you don’t want that! You need to stay in Korea. Please do it for me. And please go official! Act as lovey dovey as you can act towards each other!

I love you forever my dearest sister<3

Liandra

How could she ask me to stay? She is always so sacrificing. She cares so much more about my happiness than about her own. My sister is an angel. I just wish she was here with me. But then I thought about something that she had mentioned in the letter. She was staying with Danny? Her ex boyfriend? The reason for her constant tears in like a year? Great... but I guess she knows what she’s doing... Or I hope she knows what she’s doing

“Lili don’t cry” Donghae’s pleading voice brought me back to reality and made me realize that I had started crying, he hugged me tighter and kissed my neck “She will come back one day, I just now it, trust me” he then tried to assure me, I wasn’t convinced but there was always a possibility “We should sleep” with that he picked me up bridal style and carried me to now my room, not our anymore. He laid me down on the bed and was fast by my side with his arms tight around me

“Are you sure she will come back?” I asked him sadly, he pulled me closer to his body and nodded

“Yes and if not we’re going to London” he said

“We?” I wondered and again he nodded

“Yes, I’m not leaving you, where you go I go” he said and kissed my nose

“I love you Lee Donghae” the words came out of my mouth before I had the time to think and when I realized what I just had said it was too late. I looked at Donghae shocked, how would he react??

He smiled at me. Then he unwrapped his arms around me but only to carefully take my tiny face in his soft and big hands. He leant in with his face and before I knew it he gently pressed his soft lips to mine. It was like time stopped when he started kissing me, nothing else mattered, only me and Donghae. His lips to mine were like heaven. I had never felt anything else like it before. It was the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. When he pulled away he kept his face close to mine, he let his forehead lean to mine. I was speechless.

“I love you too Choi Liliana” he then said and I pulled away my face to look straight at him, did he just say that he loved me too? I had to be dreaming “I know that it’s crazy to say after this short time but I honestly don’t care. Since the first time I saw you I knew that you were the one. You make me crazy. This is so cliché but honestly I have never felt like this for any other girl. Ever. You are one of a kind Lili, an angel sent down to earth to me. Lili from now on you are mine and mine only! Mine to hold, mine to kiss, mine to love, simply mine” I started to cry again but he kissed away the tears and pulled me even closer to him if possible. Then he started to sing an A day, slowly making me fall asleep in his arms. In the arms of Donghae, the man who love me. The man who I love.

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