It hurts that I saw it all right in front of my eyes.

Everything.

And what hurts me most is the fact that I could've done something for her..but my feet betrayed me and remained locked to where I was standing.

I watched and did nothing.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks and I didn't even know it until I felt a warm hand tapped my shoulder. It was TOP hyung, smiling at me so weakly.

I faced him and said,

"I could've done something for her, hyung," then I started breaking down. I couldn't find it in me to hold this pain any longer. It was painful, very painful. It hurts more than the feeling of being stabbed, or being shot by a gun. 

"Yet...I..did..nothing..nothing, hyung," I continued between my sobs.

TOP gripped both of my shoulders tightly, looking down. I know he was trying his best to comfort me, but is obviously failing to do so. With the look in his eyes, he too, was about to break down and cry.

He took a deep breath and looked at me directly.

"She's strong," he reassured me.

Though those words seemed impossible right now, I know somehow that what he said is true.

Dara, don't leave me, arasso?