TOP's POV

It's been 5 days since it happened. And it has also been 5 days since I last saw Jiyong. He locked himself up in his own house and never went out. He never even bother to visit Dara or ask if she's alright. I'm just standing here outside of his house, looking at his door. And damn, he does not even respond to my calls and messages.

Should I leave him then? Just for now?

He's all alone. He's fighting this battle all by himself. Let me rephrase that --- He's battling with himself because he felt responsible for what happened. I can't help but worry about him. Though I trust him that he won't do anything stupid to himself, but (hello?) with this situation, he's currently not in the right state of mind. Ji's obviously shocked, confused, frustrated, broken and lost.

He's completely lost.

No matter how much all of us wanted to come and help him, it's useless if he doesn't help himself. With his attitude right now, he is obviously trying to push us away and let him be alone. All we could do right now is to wait for him to clear his mind.

It just...it pains me to see him in this state -- being like this. It hurts that I can't reach out to him, that we are only watching him from a distance. Just like right now. I hear no noise from the inside of his house. He's still alive, right?

*knocks on the door*

"Ji? Are you there?" I called out.

No one answered.

*knocks one more time* /louder

"Ji? Ji?" Let me come inside,"

"Just...go. Go away," he said in a weak tone.

Though I can't see him, I can hear from his voice that he's still sulking. Right then his image from that day came flashing back inside my mind, it was still clear. It never left my mind for it was already painted in my head. His eyes hold so much emotion that you can already see right through him. Slowly breaking. It's as if his life is being out of his body little by little. The strong barriers I have for my emotions were being ripped apart as I watch him cry, break down in the middle of the streets. I'm trying to be strong with the way how Ji looks. It is so damn painful . So I just told him not to worry because Dara's strong. At the back of my mind, what I said was more like,

Be strong, Ji. Be strong for her.

What did actually happen? Well, no one really knows what happened. The police says they know nothing for now. Tch. Useless brats. No one knows except for one.

Of course. Except for Jiyong.

That's why I told you he's all alone. The group, I, Daesung, Seungri, and Taeyang decided to wait and be patient. But I'm already standing outside Ji's house.

patience.

I'm gonna barge in his freaking house and know what the hell happened.

I can't stand seeing my friend in this condition. This is not the Jiyong that we know -- that I know since we were little. Jiyong is strong no matter what. He shouldn't be taking this all in by himself.

Whatever. I'm coming in.

HERE. I. COME.

I kicked his front door and shouted, "Yah, Jiyong!"

What the hell happened back there, Jiyong? What the hell did actually happen?