Sungye-

It's been two months since Leeteuk died. After the burial I didn't see anybody. I didn't even go out of my room. I refuse to believe that he's gone. I can't accept it.

He's not dead.

He's not.

"Sungye, come on. It's a beautiful day outside. Let's go somewhere." Minye(L) said to me as she went in the room.

Everyone was in my house. Including the girls.

(A.N. The girls included Suju's partners in the Valentine Special. You could read it of you'd like... http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/24559/valentine-special-boyfriend-for-hire-oneshot-superjunior)

I didn't answer her. I just stared at the window completely ignoring everyone.

Gyuri was sitting at the living room together with Eunhyuk. MinMi was cooking in the kitchen with Han Kyung and Ryeowook, she had gotten better since she and Ryeowook started seeing each other. Haneul, Kibum and Yoona were watching a TV drama sitted next to Gyuri. Melanie and LeeNa were arguing while Sungmin sat in between them covering his ears and looking from one girl to the other unable to choose one. Donghae was helping Bianchi understand the Drama that they were watching. Kyuhyun and Yesung were also talking in the living room. Juna, Jinhye and Ahra sat next to me trying to convince me to go out of the house.

"Sungye... please... We know this is a difficult time for you but please... don't do this to yourself. At the very least talk to us." Jinhye said holding my hands.

I ignored her and placed the bedcovers over my head. I completely shut everyone out.

They don't understand anything.

Please just leave me alone.

"That's it! I'm sick of this!" I heard Gyuri shout.

I heard footsteps getting closer. Then Gyuri pulled the bed cover off me. She took my hand and dragged me out of the bed.

I resisted but she held on.

"You're going out and that's final." Gyuri said dragging me out of my room.

The other girls were silently watching Gyuri drag me. After a few moments Juna and Ahra also grabbed my hand and lead me to the bathroom. They pushed me inside the shower room and the shower. I shouted at them angrily as I felt the cold water on my face.

"Wake up Sungye! This isn't the way Jungso would want to see you if he was here. He'd be so sad seeing you slowly loose yourself. Do you want this Sungye? Do you think everything will just disappear if you keep ignoring us? Sungye, we lost Jungso and there was nothing we could do about it. Please... don't let us loose you too." Jinhye said to me as tears fell from her cheeks.

I looked at her and to everyone who was there. They were all concerned about me. They were all worried about me. I fell to my knees and just began to cry. I let everything out.

All the pain, all the hurt...

I finally let them all out as tears fell from my cheeks one after the other.

Ahra turned off the shower and hugged me tightly.

"We all love you Sungye. Don't ever think that you're alone in all of this. Look around you. Look at the people who love you." Minye(L) said to me.

I looked at them and most of them were crying too.

She's right. I'm not alone in all of this.

"I just need time..." I said softly burrying my face on Ahra's shoulder.

"Take as much time as you need. We'll be here. We're not going anywhere." Juna said to me while the others nodded in agreement.

Time...

I wonder how long will I be able to accept that Leeteuk is lost to me forever.