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For eighteen years, Noeul's been on her best behavior—from staying away from drugs and alcohol to the boys her mother warned her against. Byun Baekhyun's the epitome of a girl's heartbreak. So, she stayed in her lane, and he stayed in his. But the news of her time running out shatters the lifelong peace, and she's suddenly not interested in being the wallflower for a second longer.
 
 
 
 
 
 
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Noeul knew Dr. Stevens since she was eight, which was approximately ten years ago. Ten years ago when she lost her mom to Parkinson’s. So when he told her that she had it too, Noeul lost it. Though, probably not in the way you’d imagined. She laughed and laughed and told him to cut it out.

His wrinkles stayed locked in and he didn’t crack his comforting smile like he used to. Not like those days when her mom had the Grim Reaper behind her and so, the only thing she could offer Noeul was a sad, resigned smile. Dr. Stevens wasn’t having any of that. No. He snuck her numerous candy bars to her mom’s nightmare—her ADHD ridden daughter who would only grow worse after a milligram of sugar.

He proceeds to ask if Noeul had a guardian with her, and she told him, “maybe if my father remembered that he had a daughter.”

Dr. Stevens didn’t find her sense of humor funny this time around. “Noeul…” Everything is the same. The way he says her name, more like Noel than the way it’s supposed to be said—the soft Noeul that came from her mom. The soft rustling of footsteps outside the door echoes the same way in the four sterile walls encapsulating them. The smell of antiseptic and his minty aftershave is also the same.

But it’s not the same. She could feel it. She could hear it too. The sound of her time being shortened considerably.

It takes Noeul about a week to go through the five stages of grief—faster than it took her to get over seeing her mom drown.

Noeul is just glad that her mom couldn’t see what she was up to. Why you ask? Well, maybe because she’s standing in front of Byun Baekhyun, caging him in between her arms and watching him stare at her through narrowed eyes after uttering four sinful words unapologetically.

“Have with me.”

 

[a/n] don't mind me. i'm just putting this here so i don't forget this exists. also ive never done a tragedyau. lmao im excited to get you guys bawling in tears. xoxo muah <3 also peep my new user //pedoface

tw: mentioned drug and alcohol use, profanity

 

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byunbaek_hyun34
#1
Chapter 30: One of the amazing fics i have ever read. It was so much gun and so realistic. ✨❤
Baembi
#2
Chapter 30: wow, i love your writing so much. you depicted all the scenes beautifully and i love how you portrayed all the characters. the way baekhyun and noeul resolved things in the end, they got to be together, and they’re having a baby too! it’s so wholesome. and the way they truly care about being the best they can for the baby and knowing what not to do based on their previous experiences. im crying
Bellalula
#3
Chapter 29: i love this so much i hope you come back for more because I've been binge reading from ephemere straight to this :(( your writing are so good and special in a way it's just IT for me. hope you're doing great
xiuminbaek
#4
Chapter 30: This is so beautiful 🤩. I just know both of them will be a good parents
xiuminbaek
#5
Chapter 29: Hello authornim. I just wanted to thank you for giving us a chance to read this. It's so generous of you. This beautiful story is really teaching me a lot of things. The way you worded them are really beautiful. It took me half of day for me to finish this story. It's never bored me. I just love how noeoul finally come to her sense and start making herself feel important. She finally stop avoiding people who loves her. The build up to her character is really beautiful. Just how she just want to give up at the first place and now she finally accept her life with him. Baekhyun is such a blessing to her. It's the same just like how she's a blessing to him. And then they met junmyeon, sehun and luhan who also changed their whole life. I'm glad she finally want happiness in her life too. I cried a lot when I'm reading this 😂😂. Thank you for giving noeoul and baekhyun the ending they deserve. I love you hahaha. I'm gonna anticipate more of your work too. I love reading it. Thank you so much
xiuminbaek
#6
Chapter 28: This is so unfair to baekhyun. Pleaseeee. I hope both of them will be happy again.
xiuminbaek
#7
Chapter 27: And her best friend gone 😭😭😭😭😭
xiuminbaek
#8
Chapter 24: I hope luhan will be fineee
xiuminbaek
#9
Chapter 23: Oh god. Im so tired of crying 😭😭😭😭😭😭 hELPP
xiuminbaek
#10
Chapter 22: The way she just want to give baek happiness but she's absolutely hurting herself