Had my heart broken by someone who used me. It became the turning point of my life, all my plans, my future seemed bleak. Recently my parents died, although 1 year apart, it didnt struck me enough because i had her. My future has a sure path, im going to be with her, we will do whatever it takes. Money is not a problem.

K: i want a car

K: i wanna go to Canada

K: i wanna go to US

K: i want this... i want that

Krystal at first is not as materialistic as it sounds, we had our good times together. We live together, we eat together, we wash our clothes together, we do everything together. Im willing to leave everything behind for her. But being with a person who dont know what she wants, can be a very dangerous path to take, But I love her...

Then she fell in love, she tried to ignore me, not answer my calls, not message me but she didnt explain anything. She broke up with me for her. I tried begging her to have me back, but lucky for me i guess coz Amber told her she hasnt moved on from her ex. Krystal can be cruel, even though she hurt me, she comes back to me, telling me all the things she and Amber did. Me realizing things that she did without me knowing is that she and Amber went out of town to have secret dates. Her inviting Amber in our place while im at work doing god knows what. But i still listened.

She went to Canada to live with her relatives, although we are not in a relationship anymore, we managed to be friends. While she was there i tried to have a life. I travelled different countries and went out with friends. That didnt sit well with Krystal, she became jealous with my friends, but i thought she doesnt have a right so i still went out.

K: where did you go again?

B: i went out with my friends

K: i dont like you going out with them

B: but i dont have anything to do

K: then just talk to me

B: we are talking now but later ill be alone again and it to be alone

K: then lets be together again

Those words, it hit me, even though she's away, the communication never stops. I can live just by talking to her, thats how in love i was. Im so loyal to her that i didnt hang out with my friends again.

She returned from abroad and stayed with me, we travelled the country, went abroad together, its like what we were before. For 2 years im living in my fantasy again. Then she became materialistic, she wants things, she wants to do things that rich people do. Though i have something but its the money that my parents left me for my future. But thinking about it... she is my future. So i didnt hesitate to spend it for her.

K: byul, my best friend asked me if i can visit her in the US

B: sure, what do you need?

K: well i need fare to go there

B: sure ill take care of it

K: you're the best!

A week before she left, i ask her to stay with me so we could spend time together.

B: hey where are you

K: byul im busy, im taking care of stuff that i need to bring

B: ok, ill just call you later

K: you know what! yeah ill go there right now

Im so excited to see her, its like for me, i need to spend this time to have a moment with her, that i need to cherish this before she left

B: baby come to bed

She walked towards me, i immediately showered her with kisses and we cuddled a lot, we talked about our plans.

K: what if i can find work there, will you follow me

B: of course babe

K: i'd like to live there if possible

For me it doesnt matter where we are as long as im with her.

B: hey where are you

K: byul i cant go there, im having fainting spells, they said im anemic

B: oh okay, where are you, ill take care of you

K: its fine, mom is with me 

B: okay, i hope we see each other before you leave the day after tomorrow

K: yeah okay

the next day...

B: i thought you're coming here

K: im coming

When she arrived she look so pale and i felt bad for being so demanding

B: you dont look good

K: i fainted earlier thats why im late

B: is it ok for you to leave if you are like that

K: yes, my doctor said im ok to go

We spent time together, till its time she needs to go. She is already in the US for a month when an unfortunate thing happened.

K: byul, they diagnosed me with cancer

B: what!

K: i need to go under chemo

B: ok what do you need

K: they said i need $1000 per session, byul i dont have that money, my parents doesnt have that kind of money

B: dont worry ill take care of it

Without hesitation i sent money for her first session and her next session, but having limited funds can be a burden. It is also emotionally tiring because i cant do anything, if i go there we cant support ourselves and she cant go back for now because of her situation. So i hang out with my friend to pour out my worries. 

Hwasa is a fierce person, she can be very blunt but also soft on the inside. A lot cant vibe to her because of her attitude but i like her and we get along well

H: hey how are you

B: Krystal is sick

H: what?

B: she has ovarian cancer

H: im sorry, how are you holding up

I told her everything, after that she is kinda skeptical

H: are you sure she is sick?

B: yeah she is not well when she left

H: did you see her medical records?

B: nope

H: then how would you know its true? im sorry, you spending all your money for her is not right. she is not your family, its not your responsibility

B: i know but what if she is and then she died, what am i gonna do then? i cant bare it in my conscience because i know i can do something

H: i know but remember, you dont have family anymore, no one is supporting you, leave something for yourself before its too late

That night i became doubtful of Krystals condition, she didnt show me her records because i didnt ask. So i started messaging her.

B: babe how are you?

K: im fine for now

B: you are there for 3 months now, how are you holding up? does your doctor said you cant go home yet?

I waited for her answer but it didnt come. So i thought she might be tired or something. But after that she didnt contact me at all. Then one day...

V: hey byul, this is Victoria, Krystals best friend, i was wondering if you can send some money for her next chemo?

Looking at the message hurts me a lot, i dont have enough money to send her, all i have is the house my parents left me, and its not easy to sell to help her immediately

B: Victoria please dont tell Krystal that im planning to sell my house so i can send her money, please wait. and please delete this message later.

After that i never heard from Krystal again.