‘How dare you run away yo-‘

Jeonghan gasped, sitting upright, his body trying to run. Looking around the dark room, still in the midst of catching his breath, he noticed the figure moving on the other bed beside his – Haneul, probably bothered by the sudden noise. Wiping his face, noticing the wet sensation, he slowly lowered his knees before unveiling the blanket.

‘Heh.’ He scoffed, wondering why he even bothered checking. Of course he had a hard on, he never woken up from a nightmare without it. ‘ this.’

. ing ! Jeonghan really wanted to scream, angry at the situation. He didn’t mind it happening anywhere else but why here? Why now? The last few days had been less than stressful, why was he still haunted by those horrible memories? And now, should he go and let off steam in the toilet? Shared by Seungcheol’s family? Should he just swallow his pride and do this?

Of course. He never has any dignity left in the first place. Not when he is this wet.

pride.

Getting up from the bed, his mind already numb, Jeonghan made his way to the bathroom, not caring if he stumbled upon one of the family members. It was already so late; nobody would be up. Opening the tap water, he let the shower fall down his body and stared at his hard member. Sometimes he wondered why he still keep it when all it ever caused him was pain and humiliation. He considered it more than one time, he wouldn’t need it as he is a male omega after all, and he will never end up with a beta lady as he is too dependent on alphas to be able to do so. Just one simple procedure and all these annoying ordeals would end. But alas, here he stood, too afraid to get through with it. Such a pathetic coward.

Jeonghan looked at the wall clock which was barely visible in the dark. He could make up one hand on 3 and the other on 10. It shouldn’t take a genius to figure out what time it was. He considered the option to walk around the vicinity, waiting for sunrise, or get back to sleep. Honestly, he didn’t want to get back to sleep. Because there was just this bad feeling in his gut. That he would still see that nightmare. What triggered it was still unknown, as most of his other ones but as he was not in a situation where he would even think about his past, it still bothered him. Could it be something they said during the day? Or did he stumble upon somebody who looked like one of those disgusting alphas? He did, see a lot of ahjusshis during their whole stay…

Now that he thought about it, he remembered seeing something on his phone when he was awoken momentarily from the vibration…

…owh .

Jeonghan rushed back inside and grabbed his phone, trying not to wake his roommate. Inwardly praying that it was just a fragment of his imagination, he took a deep breath and unlocked it.

2 missed calls from Det. Young

5 new messages from Det. Young

2 new messages from Ahjusshi

So he was not dreaming. He did get a call from the detective, one of the officers in charge of his case. Even after it ended, the man still decided to keep watch over Jeonghan so they remained close until today. That being said, unread messages or missed calls usually does not mean anything being merely friendly updates, but 2 missed calls and a few messages at night seemed a bit worrisome. It would usually be one or the other. It also didn’t help that he just had a nightmare which still very much affected him right now. All in all, he was reluctant to read the message. Biting his lips, Jeonghan tapped on the notification.

Jeonghan-ah, how are you? – Det. Young

I tried to call but you seem busy. I’ll just let you know by text. – Det. Young

His parole plea got rejected again. – Det. Young

I know you’ve been worried since you turned 20 but he’s not going anywhere. We’ll make sure of it. So don’t worry Jeonghan-ah. – Det. Young

Come show your face when you’re free. – Det. Young

The bastard thought his would be granted parole? What a laugh. Even after all these years, he should really just learn his lesson and rot in prison for the rest of his life. Jeonghan didn’t need to open the other messages from Ahjusshi, the shelter owner, to know what was written. And so he didn’t, opting to do so in the morning when he would reply as well. Because the old man would know he had his nightmare and would start to worry if he do it now.

Letting his phone fall on the floor, the tired omega walked out of the room and looked out the window. It was really dark. Should he take a walk to clear his mind? Usually when he gets those kinds of messages or nightmares, he would go out dancing and ing to forget, but that was not possible right now. Should he be a normal person and try to lose himself in nature? How do people do that? Scare themselves while walking? That seemed possible since he wouldn’t be able to remember anything about that bastard when he is scared for his life. But, then again, that was how the man always made him feel, plus the humiliating aftermath so that option didn’t seemed better.

Gosh, he wished he was back in Seoul so he can find some good alpha to make him forget. He wondered if there was anybody on the island who would sleep with him? He could just tell the family he had to go back early and stay with whoever he met for a while.

Turning his head, Jeonghan sighed as he looked over at the sleeping figure on the sofa. Nobody would say anything if he ditches them, but he didn’t really want to. He wanted to stay until the rest of the trip. Of course, there were times he felt awkward and out of place, not to mention the mother still felt distance but she and the rest of the family always tried their best not to exclude him. Sometimes they forget he exists, but at least one of them would remember after a while, especially Seungcheol, so he was never left alone for a long time. Not that he mind being forgotten, but them taking him into consideration felt… new.

It was not annoying. They were not being overly cautious, and it was not as if nobody ever treated him that way since there was still his two friends who basically didn’t know who he was in the first place to treat him different.

But still…

He didn’t know how to explain it. This new feeling.

Unlike both his friends, the family knew about him. They obviously knew about his panic attacks since he had a breakdown in literally the first few hours after they met each other. And yet, they did not care. They didn’t treat him as Yoon Jeonghan the child abuse survivor, nor the infamous, notorious omega, but as Yoon Jeonghan, Seungcheol’s friend. No, they treat him even better. That, he knew because his alpha friend complained about it once.

The family saw him as a basic city guy who never went fishing or hiking. The guy who never bought fresh squid or the kid who didn’t know how to haggle. They called him ‘young master’ because of how clueless he was in doing a lot of things. But despite them laughing at him for his lack of experience, they laugh it in his face, then offer to teach him. There were no sympathetic apologies, or unnecessary hospitality, just them teaching him how to do things, and telling him how funny he was when he failed. Except for his two friends, nobody ever do that to him. They either treat him too preciously, afraid to break him, or too harshly, as he is already broken. They didn’t mind offending him, and Jeonghan found himself able to let it slide without getting hurt. Not once did he felt like getting his revenge, or retort back. Even after getting teased so badly.

And this was the first. He couldn’t explain why.

But he liked it.

Jeonghan liked feeling this way.

He didn’t feel inferior being the clueless, dumb kid that needs to be taught.