Chapter 20: Broken

Stuck In A K-Pop World: Hitting With A Big Bang (A Black Kitty Series, Book 1)
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Zoey's P.O.V:

I was still in the dance studio with my back on the floor and my face facing the ceiling. I took a deep breath and let it out, trying to relax myself. But I couldn't. I wondered how I got to this point with everything crumbling down to pieces.

G-Dragon had left me alone to think after our talk. As much as it hurt talking to him, it wasn't as intense as the one he and Sam shared when they argued down the hall earlier. I knew GD was trying to go calm and easy on me, which he did. But I was still hurting as hell.

It was now over between us. I knew I had it coming because I wasn't going to stay here in Korea for long. But I never knew it was all because G-Dragon really liked Sam. That felt like a blow to my face.

I was hurting, I was pissed and angry. I should have known better that G-Dragon never had eyes for me in the first place, but for Sam. Who I bet felt guilty and tried to tell me the truth earlier on this morning, but I never took her seriously. Come to think of it, I never do take her seriously. But she couldn't come to tell me that G-Dragon liked her because she knew G-Dragon was supposed to tell me himself. No wonder she kept quiet. Looks like her conscious took the better of her and told her not to.

I was glad that all of this was bought to light, but now, all of our group members know. And as for Daesung, I always knew he had eyes for Sam but the two of them accepted that they could never be together. That was pretty brave of them if you ask me. I wish I could be a little more like Sam on learning how to let go.

I sighed. But I couldn't let go of G-Dragon. He had something that other guys I have dated or met in my life never had that drew me close to him. But looks like he wasn't mine to keep, nor Sam's.

I don't know what to think now that I know he had always liked Sam from the very beginning. I was angry at the both of them from keeping all of this from me, but I was also pretty mad at myself for playing the fool.

What hurt me the most was the kiss G-Dragon and I shared in Paris. Everything felt so real back then, but now, it was like a faded memory. When G-Dragon told me earlier that he had always liked Sam, I had asked him what our kiss in Paris meant to him. He told me he did all that just to distract himself because Sam had pissed him off earlier. I know the two had argued a couple of times before, but I never knew it was that serious to the extent that he had to use me as a distraction just to get his mind off her. For some reason, I felt so used.

He did say he was sorry and that he didn't want to hurt me. I couldn't stay mad at him. For some reason, I just couldn't. But I was mad at Sam though. She should have told me what was going on. We were best friends for crying out loud.

She had a lot of explaining to do. That's if I get to cool down first. I still had a lot of things pending in my mind and I had to be really careful with what I was going to say to her.

As I got up from the floor, the door to the studio flew open and Christine came in with what looked like a lunch takeout in a plastic bag. I could tell by the look on her face that she was trying to figure out what words to say to me so that I couldn't get mad any further.

"Hey, Zoey," said Christine as she closed the door behind her. "I brought you your lunch."

I managed to put up a smile. "Thanks, Christine."

She walked up to me. "So, did you guys talk?"

"Ya." I nodded my head. "We did."

"We saw G-Dragon earlier," said Christine. "The others are talking to him, so I came here to check up on you."

"Thanks. I'm okay, but I just realised that I'm pretty hungry."

"Here." Christine gave me my lunch and I sat down on the floor to eat. She sat also down, facing me.

"So, how are things?" Christine asked.

"I don't know whether to say things are good or bad," I said as I bit a slice of pizza.

"Looking at you, it's pretty bad. G-Dragon said it's over between the two of you."

"Ya, it is. I was so stupid to think that we would last."

"Come on, Zoey. I think it was pretty obvious. I mean, we weren't going to stay here for long. And you know what Collins told us last time."

"I know. But I never knew it would be because of Sam." I bit another piece of pizza in my mouth.

Christine winced. "Sorry to break it to you, Zoey, but it was quite clear from the day we got here that G-Dragon had eyes for her this whole time."

I stopped chewing on my pizza and looked up at Christine.

"What? You knew about this and you never told me?"

Christine shrugged her shoulders. "You're the one with the eyes for these things, not me. Sadly, you got too attached to G-Dragon that you couldn't even realise it yourself."

I chewed slowly as I thought of what she said. "I guess you're right. Is that the reason why you said G-Dragon and Sam would have made a perfect couple during that interview?"

"Well, ya. I thought by saying that, you would open your eyes for once. But that didn't work."

"Ya. And Daniel said the same thing too and I got mad at him for it. I still wish you could have told me though."

"So you could burst into an uproar and tear everyone's heads out? No way." She shook her head.

"Look at me, Christine. I might be hurt but I'm still composed."

"And what if Sam shows up? Wouldn't you be in an uproar then?"

I had no words. Maybe Christine was right. I don't know what I would do if Sam were to come into the room. As much as I was pissed at G-Dragon, I was pretty furious at Sam.

"No, I wouldn't," I said, ignoring Christine.

"Yes, you would. A lot of us know you too well, Zoey. And you're probably wondering what G-Dragon saw in Sam that he couldn't see in you."

I got irritated now, knowing that Christine was right. "So what? That's not going to put me into a fit of a tantrum when I see her."

"It would, Zoey. And as much as it's normal to think that way because you're hurt and pretty much jealous, you also have to look at things through Sam's point of view."

"Hey! I'm not jealous."

Christine rolled her eyes at me. "Whatever. But promise me you won't shout in Sam's face when you see her. I bet she feels really bad about this and I know she couldn't tell you because she didn't want you to get hurt."

"Why are you saying that? Did she tell you that she already knew that G-Dragon liked her?"

"No. But knowing her character, she would do exactly that. You're her best friend and I know she would do nothing to hurt you. It must be pretty bad for her too."

"I know, but, I can't believe that G-Dragon fell for her and not me."

"Here we go," said Christine, throwing her hands in the air. "You really think all this is about you? That all the nice guys are supposed to fall for you wherever you go?"

"No. It's just...."

"Don't say another word, Zoey. It's clear to see that you aren't concerned about Sam at all."

That hurt. And a lot too. "That's not true. Sam is my best friend. Yes, I'm mad because she didn't tell me what was going on."

"Then you as her best friend should understand why she did that. You heard her down that hall when she argued with G-Dragon about telling you the truth. It's because she didn't want to see you hurt. She never does and she never will."

I looked down on the floor feeling a little guilty. I know Sam and her character, and she was one who wouldn't like to hurt anyone. But I still couldn't help but feel mad.

"Okay, okay. It's just that, this has never really happened to me before."

"That's because you always think guys would fall for you all the time no matter what. It's been like that since high school. You were the one whom all the boys admired and Sam was one who you never thought could ever make any guy fall for her, especially G-Dragon."

"Mmmm. Maybe. It's not my fault that I attract so many guys."

"Well, I hope what's happened will help you realise that not everything is all about you."

I sighed. I had now lost my appetite after what she had said.

"I hope Sam is alright," said Christine. "Have you seen her?"

"No, I thought she was with you guys," I said.

"She never came downstairs with us."

"She must be around here somewhere. She will show up when it's time for practise."

"I hope so. Anyway we will be starting soon. Now remember. Don't get mad, okay?"

"I'll try. I'm not promising anything."

The door flew open all of the sudden and thinking it was Sam, the guys came in the room. I felt a little relieved. But I looked away when G-Dragon came in. I still wasn't ready to look at him yet.

"Ummm, has anyone seen Sam?" Daniel asked, after looking around the room.

"No, we haven't," said Christine getting up from the floor.

"She must be around here somewhere," said Taeyang.

"I bet she hasn't eaten lunch yet," said Mike. "I think I should go and look for her."

"Why not call her?" I asked. "I bet she carried her phone."

"Zoey," Christine looked at me with a frown on her face.

"What?" I looked up at her as I shrugged my shoulders.

"Arrgh!" she growled in frustration and looked away.

"Wow, girls, what's up?" Seungri asked with a surprised look on his face. "Don't tell me you two were arguing too?"

"No, just trying to convince some people around here about doing the right thing," said Christine as she looked down at me.

I could have stuck out my tongue at her, but I didn't. I kept my cool and I continued to eat my pizza.

"Guys, we have a problem," said TOP.

We all turned to look at him and he was holding his phone in his hand. Had he been trying to call Sam?

"What is it?" G-Dragon asked.

"Sam isn't picking my call," TOP answered. "It's ringing but she isn't picking up."

"Maybe she put her phone on silent," said Mike.

"Meaning we have to look for her then," said Taeyang.

"I'll look for her," said Daniel. "I bet she is at the recording studio."

"I'm coming with you," said Daesung.

"Count me in," said Mike.

Christine came beside me and gave me a nudge on my leg with her foot. I looked up at her and she jerked her head towards the door. I knew she wanted me to go with them to look for Sam. I didn't want to snap at her so I just had to comply.

"I'm also coming with you," I said as I stood up from the floor.

"Why don't we all go?" Christine asked.

"Okay," said G-Dragon. "Let's just hope that the choreographer doesn't come here and find us missing."

"Then someone should stay behind and explain what's going on," I said. "So, I'll stay."

"No, we are all going," said Christine as she held my arm. "If we're going to get in trouble together then we all will."

I sighed as I rolled my eyes. "Fine."

"Let's go up to the recording studio," said TOP. "I'll continue to call Sam and check if she is okay."

Daesung opened the door and went out of the room first and we all followed. I seriously wasn't in the mood to go and start looking for Sam. If anything, I should be given more time to think and try to calm down. But I couldn't help but worry about her whereabouts too.

We all went upstairs and checked every recording room. There was still no sign of her. And TOP had tried calling but she still wa

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Sorry forgot to add this chapter. Silly me. Hope you enjoy it and will be able to connect with the other chapters. Once again, I'm really sorry.

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