Chapter 18: Breaking point

Stuck In A K-Pop World: Hitting With A Big Bang (A Black Kitty Series, Book 1)
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Mr Teddy in a suit was treated like a celebrity and became a trending topic on social media. Last night, we had posted pics of it and sent them on Instagram to our darling fans who loved the stuffed bear instantly. I had to admit, it was so much fun taking cute selfies and videos with the little teddy. Even Lee joined in the fun after we told her the whole story. The only person who wasn't enjoying all this, was Zoey.

Back at the studio the next day, the BigBang members couldn't help but ask us what had gone on with the teddy bear. With the looks on their faces, it's like they already knew who sent it.

"Don't tell me the guy in the suit sent it?" Daesung asked.

"Yep. He's the one," I replied, nodding my head.

"I can't believe it," said Seungri. "When I saw that teddy bear in the suit, I knew it had to do with that guy. I thought I was being paranoid."

"Well, whoever it is, really sent us laughing yesterday," said Christine, giggling a little. "We all thought he sent us a bomb or some threatening letter."

"Ya, we could see you guys were having fun on Instagram," said Taeyang.

"And Zoey is still pissed," said Mike. "This is the longest I've ever seen her upset in my life."

"Until all of this cools down, we have to keep a cool head around her from now on and not say anything stupid," said G-Dragon.

"Where is she anyway?" TOP asked.

"She went to use the ladies' room," said Christine. "Must be she doesn't want to hear us talking about the teddy bear."

A moment later, Zoey came in the room and we all turned to look at her. She seemed a little absent minded and hadn't noticed the silence that fell amongst us as soon as she walked in.

As she came further into the room towards us on the couch, I got a little worried. Somebody had to snap her out of her mind.

"Zoey?" G-Dragon stood up and walked over to her. "Are you okay?"

"Huh?" Zoey blinked for a moment as though she had woken up from a dream. "What did you say?"

"You seem so preoccupied."

"I'm fine," said Zoey. "I just didn't sleep well last night."

"Why? Did you dream about the teddy bear haunting you?" Mike asked with a grin. Taeyang and TOP who sat on either side of him hit him on the shoulders.

"Very funny, Mike," said Zoey, giving him a frown. "I didn't have any nightmares."

"Then why didn't you get enough sleep?" I asked. "Was it about the guy in the suit?"

Zoey looked at me and nodded. Looks like she wasn't the only one who was worried about him. The others might think he was nothing but an ordinary fan who meant no harm. But to me, he was someone I had to look out for.

"Come on, Zoey," said Christine. "I doubt if he would show up again. I bet after sending us that teddy, he is pretty harmless."

"Ya, you don't have to worry about him anymore," I said as I played along to see Zoey's reaction. "I mean, you did say he is a very nice guy. We just got carried away yesterday thinking he was bad. But when he sent the teddy, he doesn't seem that way anymore."

"I don't trust him though," said Zoey.

"Why?" G-Dragon asked.

"What if he shows up again?"

"Then we will take him out for lunch and get to know him, right?" Seungri suggested.

A lot of us nodded our heads in agreement saying it was a good idea. I took a glance at Zoey and I saw her shaking her head a little. She looked even more nervous than before. Her reaction confirmed everything. Something did happen between Zoey and the stranger that she wasn't telling us about. And I was determined to find out no matter what.

"Anyway, enough of that," said TOP. "Aren't we supposed to finish up on the song?"

"I wonder where the music producer is," said Daniel.

"He must be around," I said. "Someone should go and check on him."

"I'll go," said G-Dragon.

"Let me go with you," said Zoey.

G-Dragon nodded and the two left the room. Looked like Zoey still didn't want to hang around us, thinking we might go back to talking about the teddy bear and the mysterious stranger again.

"I wonder what's up with Zoey," said Taeyang.

"She's just being paranoid," said Mike. "She shouldn't worry too much."

"That's the thing, Mike," said Daniel. "Zoey never worries too much. She's one who doesn't stress herself out."

"It will pass in no time," I said. "We ourselves shouldn't be too worried."

Lee soon came in the studio and surprisingly, she had Mr Teddy with her.

"Mr Teddy!" Christine and I exclaimed happily at the same time.

"Hey, guys. Weren't you supposed to be finishing up with the song?" Lee asked.

"We're waiting for the music producer to show up," said Daesung.

"And why did you bring Mr Teddy along?" I asked as I went over to Lee and took the little teddy. "You know Zoey doesn't even want to look at it. Like, never ever."

"Come on, it's harmless and I carried it around for personal reasons. By the way, where is Zoey?"

"Went looking for the music producer with G-Dragon," said Mike.

"Aren't you supposed to be with Collins and Yang Hyun-suk? You seemed very busy yesterday," I said.

"Oh, no," said Lee, backing away and shaking her index finger at me. "I see what you're getting at."

"What?" I asked, shrugging.

"You want me to tell you what's going on, don't you?"

I raised an eyebrow at Lee and the others also found all of this odd.

"I wasn't going to ask," I said innocently. "Seriously."

"Is there something coming up we should know about?" Christine asked.

"I'm not the one whose supposed to tell you. Your managers are," said Lee.

"It's fine by me," I said. "We will find out from them."

"Good," said Lee, straightening herself and grabbing Mr Teddy from me. "I think I'll leave now or else you, Sam, might make me tell you everything. Given that eye of yours."

The others snickered behind me and I sighed. Looks like the others weren't joking yesterday about the eye.

Just as Lee was about to leave the room, the door flew open and the music producer came in.

"Sorry, I'm late," said the music producer. "Let's get started."

"Ummm, Zoey and G-Dragon just went out looking for you," said Taeyang.

"Well, call them," said the music producer.

"Looks like G-Dragon left his phone behind." Taeyang held up G-Dragon's phone.

"And Zoey gave me hers to hold on to for a while," said Christine.

"Well, someone better go and look for them," said the music producer.

"I'll go," I volunteered.

"I'll come with you," said Daesung.

"Find them quick, will you?" Daniel asked.

"We'll try," said Daesung.

Daesung and I both left the studio with Lee who went upstairs. Daesung and I first went around the other studio rooms to check, but no luck. We decided to go and check the dance studios.

"Do you think they might have gone out again?" Daesung asked.

"I doubt it," I said as I opened the door to one of the studio rooms and found it completely empty. "They know they can't leave until we are done with the song."

"Ya," said Daesung as he also checked another empty studio room. "Those two really are something."

"Tell me about it." I smiled as I rolled my eyes.

"Won't Collins freak out if he ever found out that they have a thing going on?"

"You already know Collins. He won't just freak out, he will be furious. I know we are just here to collaborate with you guys, but if those two like each other, I would rather let them be."

"Too bad," said Daesung behind me as I checked another studio room. "I wish it wasn't that way."

As I backed away from the door, I bumped into Daesung who stood right behind me. I paused. I didn't want to turn around and look at him. I was leaning on his chest and immediately we had contact with each other, I felt a certain warmth spread throughout my body.

"Huh," I stepped to the side feeling a little uncomfortable and I was blushing. I was staring at the floor to avoid him noticing. I cleared my throat as I asked, "why do you say that?"

"Well, I..." I noticed Daesung scratch the back of his head as he hesitated.

Was he trying to bring out what happened between us at the park last week? It looked that way. I myself wasn't ready to talk about it. To be honest, I was terrified.

I looked up at Daesung and he looked back at me. I couldn't stop blushing for some reason and I looked away again. I was afraid to look at him because if I did, I might just bring my guard down and start talking about our little incident at the park.

"We better get going and find those two lovebirds," I said, still not looking at Daesung.

Daesung said nothing and just nodded. I smiled at him and soon turned away walking down the hall and checking the other dance studios for any sign of Zoey and G-Dragon.

We were looking in one the last rooms down the hall when the door to the last studio room flew open and a group of trainees were coming out of the room.

They were happily chattering amongst themselves. They were seven of them and I recognised.two of the trainees I had met earlier on when we first came here to YG, Soo Mi and Young Jin.

The trainees soon noticed Daesung and I in the hall and they stopped with each of their jaws dropping. Uh-oh. I knew that look. That was "oh my gosh my favourite idols is standing right in front of me" kind of look.

I was ready for the screams and excitement coming my way. And when they did, I closed my eyes and I knew any second now, they would have Daesung and I surrounded. Which they did.

"BK, what are you doing here?" Soo Mi asked as she looked excitedly at me.

"Daesung and I came here looking for Zoey and G-Dragon," I said. "Have you seen them anywhere by any chance?"

"We saw them here a while ago," said Young Min. "They must have gone upstairs."

"Oh, BK! Can we please take a selfie with you and Daesung?" one of the trainees asked as he gave me a pleading look willing for me to give in. Which I always did.

"Ummm, okay, sure," I said with a smile. "We don't mind, do we?" I looked over at Daesung.

He gave me the brightest smile and said, "no. With you, I don't mind anything."

The trainees around us started to snicker and if it came to the three girls, they giggled. They obviously noticed how I blushed so quickly after what Daesung said. Sometimes I wished cute guys would stop making me blush like a fool.

We all huddled up together to take a selfie. One of the trainees held up her phone to take it and we smiled at the camera. I felt Daesung's hand on my back, down to my waist. That sent shivers down my spine. As though making me blush earlier wasn't enough. I tried to keep my smile intact as we took a few pics with the trainees.

"Thank you so much," one of the male trainees said to me afterwards.

"You're welcome," I said, returning the smile and feeling a little relieved after Daesung removed his hand around my waist.

"We better get going now," said Daesung.

The trainees said their goodbyes and ran down the hall like excited little kids. I couldn't help but smile as I watched them go.

"Awww! So cute," I said when they disappeared round a corner.

"I know," said Daesung. "As though I was never like them once."

"I know that feeling. Reminds you of the old days, doesn't it?"

"It does."

I looked at Daesung and I could see in his eyes that he was lost in thought. He soon turned to look at me and I quickly looked away.

"Let's go upstairs, shall we?" I suggested.

I turned and before I could take a step further, I felt a grip on my hand. I turned to look at Daesung and he stood so close to me.

"Wait, Sam," said Daesung. "We need to talk."

This time he sounded serious and there was no way I was going to get away from him. Maybe it was time to talk about things. Who knows? Maybe it would do me some good and help clear things up.

"What is it?" I asked.

"It's about us, Sam."

I knew it. This was bound to happen. I tried to keep myself calm and in control.

"Are you trying to talk about what happened at the park last week?"

"Well, ya," Daesung nodded his head as he looked me in the eye.

"Okay." I looked down to avoid his gaze. Looking him in the eye made me uncomfortable. I didn't want to get lost in them. I leaned my back against the wall.

"To be honest, I never stopped thinking about what happened to us that day."

"Or what almost happened." I corrected him. "I haven't been able to forget about it either."

We didn't say anything after that. The silence between us became so long and the empty hall added on to the effect dramatically.

A strand of my hair fell on my face and just before I could tuck it behind my ear, Daesung's hand reached out and put it behind my ear. His fingers brushed across my skin as he did so.

I gasped as I closed my eyes. His touch sent shock waves through my body and for a moment, I felt a little light headed. His hand was warm against my skin and he cupped my cheek with his hand.

I felt him drawing closer to me. I wasn't ready to open my eyes yet. I felt him lean his forehead against mine and I slowly opened my eyes. I was looking directly in his eyes and again, I was so drawn to him like I had before.

I continued to look at him and I got lost. With him so close, I had never felt so alive and so safe. I had never felt like this before. With G-Dragon, I felt comfort, with Daesung, it was something else all together.

But this had to stop. I wasn't doing anyone any good. Not even for myself. As much as I wanted Daesung, I had an ultimatum. Well, it felt more like it. We weren't meant to be together. And even though it felt right, I had to let it go.

I knew what I was about to do will make me regret later on. Call me bad, but I couldn't keep up with this charade any longer.

I continued to look at him and I held his hand that held my cheek. Daesung looked at me with a questioning look in his eyes. It looked like he knew something was wrong.

"Hey? What's wrong?" he asked, gently.

"I..." I paused before I could think of what to say next. "I can't do this, Daesung."

Daesung backed away a little but his hand never left my cheek.

"What are you saying?"

"I don't want to keep hurting you anymore," I continued. "You know you and I can't be together."

"But don't you like me?"

"I do." I really meant what I said and saying those words made my heart break. "I really like you, Daesung."

"Then why are you saying all of this to me?"

"I don't want to raise your hopes in a relationship that isn't going to last. I'm not going to stay here for long and as much as this is going to sound silly, I don't think all of this is going to work out."

"I know all that. But if G-Dragon and Zoey could be in a relationship, then why not us?"

I shook my head. "They are different. Maybe it will work out for them. But you just agreed with me just now that this might not work out for you and I."

Daesung sighed and with his hand still on my cheek, I couldn't help but regret all of this. Here I was, with a chance of being happy with such a wonderful guy like him but I couldn't due to so many things. Sometimes I wished I was never in this awful situation.

"I understand, Sam," said Daesung. "And if that's what you want, then I'll respect your wishes."

I smiled at Daesung and out of the blue, Daesung came so close and quickly planted his lips on mine. That was so unexpected and he quickly pulled away.

I was shocked for a moment and I couldn't think straight. Stars and sparks flew in front of my eyes like I had just got knocked out. That kiss was a total knockout all right. For a moment, I felt like I was dancing in the stars and I didn't want to come crushing back down.

I looked at Daesung again and I realised that he had been looking at me the whole time. My lips were still fuming hot and I wanted him to plant more kisses onto my lips.

"Hey, guys," came Zoey's voice.

Daesung stepped further away from me and I straightened myself from the wall. Down the hall stood Zoey and G-Dragon looking at Daesung and I.

"Were we interrupting something?" Zoey asked as she raised her eyebrow at me and smiled mischievously.

I blushed. This was so not happening. Had they seen us kiss? I hope not. I crossed my fingers hoping for the best.

"We came here looking for you," I said.

"Oh, really?" G-Dragon asked. He had a look on his face that I couldn't even describe.

"The music producer showed up and is waiting for us in the studio," said Daesung.

"I figured he was back," said Zoey as she came over to us with G-Dragon.

"We better get going then," I said as I looked down towards the floor.

"Mmmm," said Zoey. "Are you sure we didn't interrupt you two? Something was going on here before we came, right?"

"No," I said turning to Zoey with a frown. "We were just talking."

"Talking or looking for us?" G-Dragon asked.

"Does that even matter?" Daesung asked. "Can we please just go back and finish the song?"

I turned around and started to walk down the hall and the others followed. Zoey caught up with me and nudged me on the shoulder.

"You'll tell me later what happened, right?" Zoey whispered.

I hissed at her and rolled my eyes. She giggled and didn't say anything else. Looks like she and G-Dragon hadn't seen Daesung and I kiss. But they had seen us close together.

We found ourselves back at the studio and soon, we got to work on the back up vocals. I did my best to avoid Zoey and G-Dragon's gaze towards me. And I also made sure not to stay so close to Daesung.

As soon as we were done with the song and added a few modifications, we listened to the track and it was so good.

"Wow, amazing!" I said, after the track was done.

Zoey was still humming to the tune, even after the track was done playing and she was snapping her fingers.

"You're right, this tune is catchy," said Zoey.

"I can't wait for the managers to hear this," said Taeyang. "They would be mind blown."

"I'll take it up to them in the office and make them listen to it," said the music producer as he stood up with his laptop and USB in hand.

"We will be right here then," said Mike. "Unless we have better things to do."

I knew that was more of a suggestion and I couldn't blame him. We were done with the song and the least we could do is have fun before we could make plans for a music video. 

"Like chilling and having fun?" Christine asked.

"Well, ya," said Mike giving Christine a wink.

"Not so fast, guys," said Taeyang. "We can't just leave before the managers get here."

"He's right," I said. "Remember what happened when we left without them knowing last time?"

"I'll talk to them," said the music producer. "Who knows? They might just make plans for a music video."

"Ahh. So soon?" Zoey whined.

"I think it will be great," said TOP. "Won't our fans be expecting a music video?"

"I also agree," said Daniel. "It's a single and the fans are expecting a lot coming out from this collaboration."

The music producer soon left as we continued discussing over the music video.

"So, where do you think we should shoot it from?" Seungri asked.

"This is difficult," said Zoey as she scratched her head.

"Why do you say that?" G-Dragon asked.

"Because it's a music video and it's always so hard to figure out what to portray for the viewers out there."

"Ya, Zoey is right," I said. "I don't hate making music videos, but it's tougher than it looks."

"And not only that, we have to work on the choreography too," said Mike.

"You and I were supposed to work on that, you know?" said Taeyang, addressing Mike.

"We can start working on it right now, if you so like. I already have some ideas running in my head right now."

"Nooo!" Zoey exclaimed as she sat upright on the chair.

We all turned to look at her. I wondered if she had hit her head or something today.

"What's wrong now?" Daesung asked rolling his eyes at her.

"Look guys, I know it's a good thing to talk about the music video and all, but can we do all that later and just go out and have fun?" Zoey suggested.

"We all want to go and have fun, Zoey," said Taeyang. "But I see no harm in talking about this first."

"You and Mike were just talking about working on the choreography just now."

"So?" Taeyang, Mike and I asked at the same time.

"Can we just do all of that later? Like tomorrow?"

I rolled my eyes. "You can be so annoying sometimes, Zoey."

"So, I see you guys are already planning on your music video," came Lee's voice as she came into the room.

"Is that a good thing?" TOP asked.

"Pretty much, yes," said Lee, nodding her head. "Because your managers are also planning on it."

"That's 'not' a good thing," said Zoey as her hand held her cheek.

Every one turned to Zoey. I wondered why she was acting so negative today. Oh, wait. Now I remember.

"You're so cranky today," said Christine. "That teddy still has you worked up."

"You mean, this Mr Teddy?" Lee as she held up the little teddy in her hand.

"Ah!" Zoey covered her eyes and she jumped up from her seat. "Take that thing out of my sight!"

"Oh my goodness, the drama queen is at it again," said Mike.

"All I need is a day off," said Zoey as she rubbed her temples. "That is all I'm asking."

"Ya, you're right," I said. "You really need to go and relax yourself and get this teddy bear shenanigans out of your head."

"Teddy bear shenanigans," said G-Dragon as he chuckled. Zoey gave him an angry stare and G-Dragon stopped and pulled himself together.

"Does that mean we have to get rid of the teddy bear then?" Lee asked as she looked at Mr Teddy.

"No, it's fine, we can keep him," I said.

"I don't want that teddy bear," said Zoey.

"All in favour of keeping the teddy?" Daniel asked.

Everyone in the room raised their hands, except Zoey.

"You guys are doing this just to taunt me," Zoey folded her arms and frowned.

"Let me see if I can talk to the managers so that you can go out or else you would blow up this place," said Lee.

"Please do," Zoey pleaded as she put her hands together.

"That won't be necessary, Lee," said Collins as she came in the room with Yang Hyun-suk.

"Can we please go?" Zoey asked, looking at Collins with hopeful eyes.

"You can go," said Yang Hyun-suk. "You guys deserve it."

Zoey sighed happily in relief and hugged G-Dragon who sat next to her. A lot of us were excited about it. Even me.

"So, are there any plans of making a music video?" I asked as I turned to look at the managers.

"Well, yes," said Collins. "We will make a music video."

"The single is too good for there not to be one," said Yang Hyun-suk.

"You're right," said G-Drag

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