So dark, this place is too dark, Where am i?

 

"This is so dark, right?"

 

Who is that?

 

"Hei..i'm asking you!"

 

Yes, but who are you?

 

"You know me so well"

 

Where are you?

 

"I am here...with you"

 

Where..

 

"You are looking for me right? I always on your mind"

 

Do you..

 

"Yes, it was me.."

 

You are the one who has killed ...

 

"No, it wasn't me, it was you!"

 

No, i am not...

 

"You kill him with the gun, by your own hands, i remember that"

 

Stop it, it wasn't me, it was you!

 

"You took the gun, and killed him who stood by your side.."

 

No! Stop blaming me! You were the one who did that!

 

"Waah, how could i forget about that, it was so nice right? What did you feel after that?"

 

No..Stop that!

 

"I know how that feel, you were free and happy, right?"

 

Please, stop..

 

"You are a murderer.."

 

No, i am not..

 

Ahahaha, murderer!"

 

No!

 

"Murderer! Murderer! Murderer!"

 

I..

 

"Murderer! Murderer! Murderer! Murderer! Murderer! Murderer! Murderer!"

 

I am not! Stop!

 

 

 

 

 

I open my eyes instantly and i reach the blanket to cover my whole body..

Thanks, 

It was a dream, bad dream and i hate it

 

 

 

 

 

 

Is it coming again? Why? After so long,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 I hate it..

 

 

 

 

 

 

I can't sleep after that, no matter how much i am trying to close my eyes and sleep, i just cant! So i decide to keep staring up to the ceiling,

If i close my eyes..what if the dream come back again?

I look at my right side, and Yanggaeng was there, still sleeping so quietly..glad that i am not alone

      'You are a murderer'       I don't want it, i am not a murderer, i am not, junhyungie said that i am not a murderer, i believe him, but...             Another side of me tells me otherwise..               The Soloist Chapter 13   Restrained       Jeong Eunji Point Of View   Deleting, and typing another sentence, i did this for almost 2 hours, i can't keep my mind straight. I can't really focus to my netbook.  I should write an article, which i actually did several minutes ago, but i change it right after my unstable mind isn't really sure about that, so i ended up delete it over and over.   Can i find something?   I look up to the ceiling, and wandering if i could find a special story for my article. I am thinking over it but i couldn't find anything. Ah, why?   So i decide to walk out over this room, i will sit at the terrace or walking around to find an idea for my article, since it was raining since this evening, i couldn't go too far from my room. Beside, my ankle is still hurt when i walked, but i think it will getting better.    I take my phone and look at it,  It's 23.25    So, everyone has already slept i guess. I open the door knob and surprisingly, he is there, Yoseop oppa is there at the livingroom. Looking at me who just out from my room. Does he want to go somewhere?   "Can't bring yourself to sleep?" I asked "How about you?" He asks me back "Um..." i can't finish my words, i don't know what should i say to answer him. But he doesn't ask me any further, he is nodding, so it's enough. "Do you want to go somewhere?" "I think...i will go to check the kids." "They've slept and have a nice dream i guess." "Do you think so?" "Um, probably.." "So, i will not try to make them awake, will you go with me?" I have nothing else to do, so may be following him is the best. "Okay."   We walked side to side, and i think that he has a rule or a procedure to "visit" the kids, because he ask me to stop when i tried to open one of the door earlier. He said that it wasn't the right thing to do, we will visit the kids in that room later. He said that we should look at the younger first then we will "visit" the older.   "Seems like you have a procedure to do this." I ask him, but it almost like a whisper to him.  "Hm? I don't know but.. i do it like usually i did, it will be more comfortable to me." He said while opened a door knob. "Be quiet." He whispered The kids were sleeping, i don't find anything wrong with them, just several cute snore from them. But when i looked to Yoseop oppa's face, he looked so uneasy. "Did something bothered you?" "Usually, They don't make any sounds like this when they were sleeping." "They might be so tired after went to the fair." "No..it wasn't like this..something was..something was wrong"  So, he make himself closer to one of the kids, and look at the child closely.  "Is he okay?" He asks me who stand right behind him. I am not sure, so i put my palm on the kid's forehead and i was shocked by it. It is so hot like crazy! The kid has fever, high fever.  "He has a fever oppa" "What?!" And he walk to another bed, he examined their forehead so worriedly. "All of them...all of them...!" He said, and i know that he is panic right now. "All of them? do they got a fever too?" He is nodding and he runs to leave the room. I followed him who goes to another room. We do the same, checking the other kids condition right after we arrived.    'All of them got fever, it's bad' i thought.  "Jeong Eun!" Yoseop oppa said it while running to other room. Jeong Eun, that girl. I don't know why Yoseop oppa seems more closer with her than the other kids.  "Jeong Eun-ah!" He almost shriek when he called her name since we open the door.  He put his palm on her forehead, and i know that he is worrying her condition so much. His eyes tells me everything. Jeong Eun is so important for him.  "E..eunji...she is.." "I know, calm down, i will wake the others up, okay?" He is nodding, so that i decide to leave him and go to Gayoon eonnie's room to wake her up, but before i leave him, the principal arrived and i almost bumped to him.  "Calm down, what did you do here? And where will you go?" He asked me "Principal..The kids, they got fever..all of them..so that i want to wake Gayoon eonnie up, " "All of them? i just want to check the kids, since Hayoung told me that Sang Hyuk got fever too. I am afraid that the other kids may have the same symptomps too, and i was right...Anyway, You can stay, Gayoon and the others have already woke up to help." So that we entered the room again where Yoseop oppa was stayed. He looked so uneasy, his hand is holding Jeong Eun's hand so tightly.      Normal POV   "Junhyung-ah..Jeong Eun and the others..." "I know, they will be fine, trust me." "How could they got fever at the same time?"  "It must be something, we will find out about it soon." "Hyung!" It was Yoon Ddan Ddan, he entered the room hurriedly. "I...I've called the doctor... but...but he can't come, since he asked to handle so much patients at the hospital who have the similar symptomps like the kids."  "Calm down and take a deep breath, have you called another doctor then?" "I did, but several number can't be reached." "Where is Gayoon and the others?" "Hayoung and Seungyoon were going to dispensary, since we need more medicine. Gayoon noona and Eomoni were in the other kids room to take care of them, they will be here soon." "So...it might be food poisoned." Yong Junhyung said it blurtly, "i am not sure, but..it makes sense. It is the most reasonable. " "Junhyung-ah" Eomoni and Gayoon are entering the room. And the rest are look at the entrance. The woman is checking the kids condition immediately while Gayoon has several things to tell the others. "The other kids have already well handled, don't worry, they should be fine, soon. But..as we know that we don't have medicine enough for all, so we should wait Hayoung and Seungyoon who were going to dispensary."  "It's okay, You did well, for now..." Junhyung can't finish his word, because he felt so dizzy suddenly. "Are you okay?" Yoseop asks "all of you went to the fair right? are you okay? All of you? Gayoon? Ddan ddan?" He asked while looked to the rest. "I...i am okay, Yoseob-ah" Junhyung said it, but he can't even stand properly. "All of you need to sleep and rest." The eomoni said "But.."  "Eonnie, you can't even walk with your condition right now. Please, counting on me, eomoni and Yoseop oppa, okay? Come on, i will take you to your room." "Both of you too Junhyung-ah, Ddan ddan!" Yoseop said "At least, let..let me sleep here, with the kids at that sofa." "What?! You can't .." "If Junhyung hyung..will be here, so..i will do the same." "Ddan ddan? You too? Sofa isn't the right place for the sick..." "Or, i will never listen to all of your suggestion, Yoseop" "Junhyung-ah.." He want to dispute it, but Eomoni stop him to do so "It's okay, Yoseob-ah let them be, at least they will sleep and rest, right?" Eomoni said "Ah! Do as you wish! I can't stand with your stubborness!" Yoseop was sulking   So that was how Junhyung and ddan ddan sleep at the same room with the kids. Yoseop is still in the room while Eunji was helping Eomoni to make very huge amount of porridge at the kitchen.  He is looking to the outside by the window. It is still raining, and he is wondering why Hayoung and Seungyoon haven't back yet?   "They are too long, How far is that? The dispensary?"    He worriedly looking to the kids who were sleeping and their fever seems haven't being better. He feel so uneasy, he want to replacing the kids place, let him be the one who laying down on that bed and feel the pain. If only he could do that.  Only him, Eunji and Eomoni who could take care of the kids and the rest right now. Just three of them who didn't go to the fair.   'Wait! If all of them went to the fair and they are sick now,..so..... AAH!'   He almost run, leave the room and quickly go to the outside, he run even though he know that it was raining so heavily, but he keep running.    'HOW COULD I CAN'T EVEN REALIZE ABOUT THEM?!'   He is still running through the orphanage gate,    "Seungyoon...Hayoung, they should have the same symptomps too, are they really okay?"   He murmured, while keep increased his speed, he is running while the rain poured him.    "I am sorry."   He is blaming himself   "I should realize it sooner.."   Running in the rain isn't easy, the wet clothes make his pace slower, although he force himself to keep running while he know that he can't do that as much as his want. After several minutes, he found a car, a familliar car. It was the orphanage car. And he couldn't make himself to be calm. He worriedly run to the car, he want to make sure that his friends are okay. "Hayoung-ah! Seungyoon-ah!" He loudly calls them while knocked the window, but the window doesn't even opened.  He is looking around, and he just found that the right side of the car was hit the tree, he checked it closely and fortunately, it isn't too serious. But still..   "I should open the door and make them out of the car, but how?"   He is trying to open the door by forcely pry it, but it doesn't work. He almost try to broke the window by hit it with the stone, but he abandone it, because he afraid that he will hurt Seungyoon and Hayoung inside.  And then, he do the same thing, pry the door, wishing that it will be worked for another try.  He desperately trying, and he stops when a light comes from a far. It was from a car, another car and the car suddenly stops in front of him.  He stepped back when he saw someone was out from the car.    'Who is that?'   "Do you need help?" It was a man, he asked louder, since the rain refracting their voice. Yoseop can't clearly see it, but he could tell that the man is taller than him.  "Is that your car?" He asks Yoseop again, but Yoseop can't even said anything, he is not sure about the stranger.  "Are you okay?" The stranger is coming closer and Yoseop couldn't hide his uneasiness. He stepped back until his back leaned on the car. "Ah, don't worry..it's okay, i... i will help you!" Yoseop didn't give an answer, so the stranger is looking around and he found out that something was wrong there. "Do you want to open it? I think i have something for that, wait!" With that he is back to his car and come back with something that Yoseop never seen before. The thing is so long and thin, Yoseop can't ever figure it out. He thought