@handsomebby777

Happy 4th monthsary ^_^ 

 

my heart flutters in a early morning. i don't know but she make me feel like this, like always. yes we're 4 months, 4 months since we met at this app. I know that she has this special feelings for me.it's obvious actually. but i think she's too shy to say it properly. of course we didn't met at person, never. I can't understand my feelings for her, if it's love or what, because I can't just trust her, like I said we didn't met at person. That's why I wanted to know her more but she's in a different country, she's living in Venice 

 

@hwangbibabe

Happy 4th monthsary too! :) 

 

I stood up and do my morning routines. I greeted Yewon a good morning and I leave the house, I want to visit Sojung today, I dreamt about her last night. I have this thing like hallucinations, I'm hallucinating about her, I'm seeing her sometimes maybe because of my depression because of her,  it's worse before but now it seems like I'm seeing her in my dream only. 

 

@handsomebby777

Hey, I need to tell you something

 

@hwangbibabe

What it is? 

 

I put back my phone to my pocket and I stare at Sojung's jar. All of our memories flashbacks in my mind, I smiled from the thought. Even if it's short, it been a good memories that I can't never forget

 

I trace her photo using my thumb, tracing how beautiful she is. Her eyes, didn't fail to lure me, it attracts me and stare at it. Her nose that I can't forget how smooth she rubbed it with my nose together, her lips, that taste like cherry, soft like cotton and makes me turn on even just looking at it. It makes my hormones goes wild when she those and do the lip bite, I can't help myself and kiss her. And so I did, I kiss her from her photo. Photo beside her ashes' jar. It feels like she's still here. 

 

I smiled, and a tear came out from my left eye, it's so hot, full of emotions. Happiness, sadness, excitement, anger. I felt it at the same time. I wipe out my tears with my back of my hand and leave there, I want to get some fresh air

 

"I shouldn't have let you go that time" I whispered to the wind, it feels like my feelings are growing more. It's really hard, I'm not saying that I'm just using people specially my chatmate to cover up the pain, I'm not. I'm really trying to open it again. I hope Sojung will allow it. I hope she's not mad on what I'm trying to do. I know she will understand. There's a special space for everyone in my heart. Even Yuju

 

I wish that if I meet my chat mate, I hope that I can open my heart to her. I hope she can prove to me that I can trust her and love me, I hope she's not the other person who's just chatting and fooling or for short, scamming. Because it would really hurt my feelings 

 

 

My phone vibrated again... I took it out from my pocket and check it

 

@handsomebby777

I really really really like you <3

 

@hwangbibabe

You're always saying that every month >.<

 

@handsomebby777

Because I really do, my one and only princess <3 I mean it really :)

 

@hwangbibabe 

You said it too last month :P

 

@handsomebby777

Then can I say something else? 

 

@hwangbibabe 

Of course, I would love that instead of saying the same words all over again every month :P

 

@handsomebby777

Then....can I court you? *nervous*

 

@hwangbibabe

I thought you're already doing that, since you're calling me babe and your princess :P

 

@handsomebby777

Since you didn't answer my question, is it a no? :((( *heart breaks*

 

@hwangbibabe

But I really thought that you're doing it a long time ago. And yeah you didn't ask me properly so maybe I'm just assuming that you are.

 

@handsomebby777

Now that I finally ask you, what's your answer?

 

@hwangbibabe 

I can't tell, how can I be sure that I'm the only one that you're courting? 

 

@handsomebby777

Aaw, my princess can't trust me, you're the only one that I'm courting. Promise. I love you from the start.

 

@hwangbibabe

Sure? Then prove it

 

@handsomebby777

Do you want me to come there now? 

 

@hwangbibabe 

It's impossible,  even if you leave there now, you can't come here at the same day :P

 

@handsomebby777

True, but I wanted to say that I still love you no matter what happened

 

@hwangbibabe

Sweet :) but how can I sure that you will love me no matter what? Prove to me that you really love me and only me

 

@handsomebby777

Aaaw, it feels like I'm going to be friendzone :( 

 

@hwangbibabe 

Answer my question, so that I can answer your question 

 

@handsomebby777

Wait, I have a question too, answer mine first. do you still have someone else in your life? I hope that you're single, maybe you're not. Because you can't answer my question :(

 

@hwangbibabe 

I don't have. I already answer your recent question so answer mine now :)) 

 

@handsomebby777

I love you :'( 

 

@hwangbibabe

You didn't answer my question :'(

 

@handsomebby777

Baby :'( 

 

@hwangbibabe

Answer my question please :'( 

 

@handsomebby777

How can I prove it, if you didn't let me court you? :'(

 

@hwangbibabe 

True....mmmmmh

 

@handsomebby777

So, answer my question please :'( 

 

@hwangbibabe

Can I think for it first? I'm sorry :( 

 

 

@handsomebby777

Of course. I will always wait for your answer, my princess :) 

 

I put down my phone in my lap, I look and appreciate how beauty the nature is. I sighed, should I let her? Should I let her come in in my heart and life? Should I take the risk? I wouldn't know if I didn't try. Should I say yes? It's just courting, we're not going to be a couple yet. But what if she's just fooling me and if I fall for her completely she's going to break my heart? Or what if she's serious?  I don't know, but....right. I wouldn't know if I didn't try. So maybe I can give it a try. So I'll give it a try? 

 

@hwangbibabe

Ummm. Hey :) 

 

@handsomebby777

What it is princess? 

 

@hwangbibabe 

My answer is a yes :) 

 

@handsomebby777

Really?! Omg 

 

@hwangbibabe

Yes! :)

 

@handsomebby777

Yesssss!? Omg, I'm so happy! 

 

@hwangbibabe 

Don't be happy to much, it's not like I agreed to be your girlfriend 

 

@handsomebby777

I'm just happy because you gave me a chance :))))

 

@hwangbibabe

I have a question?

 

@handsomebby777 

What it is? 

 

@hwangbibabe 

We've been chatting for months and...you're going to court me, you're special for me now but yet I didn't know your real name. Ummm, you didn't know mine too haha. Why we didn't ask this at the first time we chatted? We're too excited to talk our life's story. My real name is Hwang Eunbi. So can I ask your real name? 

 

@handsomebby777

Hwang Eunbi, the most beautiful name that I know, and I love <3

 

@hwangbibabe 

Sure? Haha, you can call me Sinb. I have a friend same name with mine 

 

@handsomebby777

Sinb, still most beautiful and I love

 

@hwangbibabe

Your name? 

 

@handsomebby777

Oh yeah, didn't get some clue from my username? 

 

@hwangbibabe

Nope, your name is handsome? Hahaha

 

@handsomebby777

Noooooo, hahaha I'm goddess you know ;) 

 

@hwangbibabe 

Too much confidence. But Yah, YOUR NAME?!

 

@handsomebby777

You won't believe my name

 

@hwangbibabe

Of course, who would believe a 'goddes' is a name!? Tell me your name now!! 

 

@handsomebby777

I'm Sojung, Kim Sojung

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I just want to say thank you who supported this story :) I'm really happy because it's my first time writing and I got a lot of support.  I love you all.