My first kiss was in my second year of school. I had been crushing on a girl in my class; she had heavy rimmed glasses and rosy cheeks and my childish mind fell for her pretty black eyes. Being the shy and reserved kid I was, I would always sit comfortably, alone on a bench during lunchtime and break, but one snowy Thursday morning the girl with the heavy rimmed glasses approached me. After lifting her tiny feet off the ground and perching softly next to me on the eroded wooden bench she leant over and pressed her cherry red lips against mine without warning. I was expecting a wonderful erruption of emotion to fill my senses when we kissed; instead I felt blank- no giddy smile, no stomach butterflies, no nothing. It could have just been my childish immaturity that resulted in me feeling so unphased but a miniature part of me thought that maybe it just wasn't meant to be, maybe her apple red cheeks and pebble eyes weren't for me. Either way, several days afterwards I found out that the kiss was a prank. Her friends had noticed me swooning over her and staring at her from across the room during lessons and thought it would've been funny to play with me. I hadn't kissed anyone since that day in fear of not feeling the emotions I was supposed to. I didn't want to experience another blank kiss so decided to avoid physical relationships at all costs, but Chanyeol changed it all.

As his chapped lips collided into mine a whirlwind of stars twinkled in my chest. I smiled as the most wonderful feeling overcame me; pure happiness. I felt at home with our hands intertwined and his heart beating quickly against mine. Of course I was an awful kisser, but he didn't seem to mind as he let go of both my hands and wrapped his warm arms round my shoulders, pulling me closer. With heated cheeks and shaking hands I hugged his skinny waist.

Our kiss seemed to last for hours, and if I had a choice I would've wanted it to last forever but fate was obviously against us when Kyungsoo appeared in the doorway. I didn't realise he had arrived until he knocked against the open door causing me to jump suddenly. I quickly shoved Chanyeol away from me and looked at the floor with a face the colour of a strawberry. Chanyeol let out an embarrassed chuckle as he ruffled the back of his hair trying to avoid eye contact with anyone in the room.

"C-can I help you?" he asked Kyungsoo awkwardly.

"Yeah, when the other members arrive we are going to sort rooms and roommates out. The manager wanted you to come into the living room" he replied with an emotionless expression.

"Sure, we'll be right there." Chanyeol replied as Kyungsoo turned and walked out of the room.

Once we were alone again I looked up to see Chanyeol's wide eyes and pink ears.

"I can't believe that just happened." I breathed.

"What? The kiss or the Kyungsoo?"

"Both."

The atmosphere in the living room was incredibly uncomfortable. Although Kyungsoo didn't seem the slightest bit phased or surprised I couldn't help feeling like I wanted to ground to swallow me whole. I was sitting in my new special spot on the sofa, next to Chanyeol silently praying the other members would arrive as fast as possible so we could quickly get this over and done with and I could go and bury my red face into my pillow.

Suho was next to show up, an adorable smile hugging his face. He sat down in the middle of the sofa where the walls joined to form a corner. Then Luhan and Sehun, the two boys who seemed utterly inseparable, strolled in. Sehun sat comfortably next to me with him arm round Luhan. Kris, Tao, Lay and Kai walked into the room afterwards followed by Xuimin and Chen. Eventually we were all happily gathered on the sofa and the manager began talking.

"Alright, there are six bedrooms in total so about two members per room will do. I'm happy to let you choose where you would like to sleep but there are a few suggestions I would like to make." The room was deadly silent as the manager spoke. No one dared to interrupt.

"Chanyeol and Baekhyun" We both perked up at the sound of our names. "I think it would be best if you two didn't share a room." I panicked. Did he know that me and Chanyeol kissed earlier? Had Kyungsoo told him? My heart beat quickened and so did my breathing, I hoped with every inch of my being that he wasn't going to tell the other members and embarrass me infront of the whole group.

"You're way too childish together. You'll never sleep if you're up having pillow fights or whatever." I sighed in relief as the rest of the members chuckled. Thank god he didn't know. I caught Kyungsoo's eye as I relaxed, he had a mischevious smirk on his face which filled me with anxiety.

'If you tell anyone, Do Kyungsoo, I will smack you as hard as I can.' I thought to myself.

"Let's do this systematically." continued the manager. "Who wants to be roommates with Luhan?"

Sehun's hand shot up and Luhan smiled.

"Ok, Who wants to be with Xuimin?"

Chen yelled "Me!"

"Suho?"

Kris nodded.

Eventually it was confirmed that Luhan and Sehun, Xuimin and Chen, Suho and Kris, and Tao and Lay where all partnered up as roomates. Only me, Kyungsoo, Kai and Chanyeol remained.

I crossed my fingers behind my back in hopes that the manager would let us off and me and Chanyeol could share a room but the odds seemed against us.

"Chanyeol?" The manager called out.

My hand shot up without a second to spare. Surely if I was the only person who wanted to I was guarenteed Chanyeol as my roommate. My hopeful grin faded as I saw Kyungsoo slyly raise his hand from the corner of my eye. . I begged that my peripheral vision had failed me.

"Ok, Kyungsoo and Chanyeol share and Kai and Baekhyun share" The managers words confirmed my fears. Kai seemed slightly disapointed with Kyungsoo's decision but grinned at me nevertherless.

I sighed noticeably and Chanyeol nudged my arm. "Don't worry, Bbaek. I'll make sure you get the best room" he whispered.

I didn't get the best room. Despite having the window that matched my one at home, to me the best room was the one Chanyeol was in, and although Kai was a great friend I couldn't help but wish I was buried in the arms of my curly haired boyfriend.

As I unpacked my clothes from my little red suitcase I fortunately came to realise half of my belongings were sandwhiched between Chanyeol's in his bag. The valid excuse to visit his room made me grin as I walked down the hallway.

"Yeol can I have the rest of my clothes?" I asked whilst pushing open his door. Kyungsoo was filling the wardrobe when I noticed that Chanyeol wasn't present.

"He's gone to the toilet." He continued to hang up his clothes as he spoke.

"Oh ok, I'll come back in a bit." I turned to leave but Kyungsoo cleared his throat and I froze.

"What's going on between you too?" Now he had stopped unpacking and was leaning against the wall cooly. His short body and slightly hunched back seemed somewhat quirky and awkward though I couldn't help but feel massively intimidated by his burning eyes. "Are you dating?"

A miniature flame of anxiety sparked in my heart. Should I tell him the truth? What would Chanyeol want? Even though I was no longer in denial of my feelings, saying it all out loud was a massive step to take and I didn't think my legs were long enough.

I opened my mouth to answer.

"Yes." A low rumblimg voice interrupted my progress as Chanyeol entered the room. I sighed in relief; Kyungsoo became tense and seemed somewhat awkward yet he still managed to keep his cool pose against the wall.

"Cute." He smirked.

I collected my belongings from Chanyeol's suitcase and left the room hesitantly. I didn't like how Kyungsoo was acting- his successful attempt at splitting us apart and his sudden interest in our relationship made me suspicious and I was no longer comfortable that they were sharing a room. I continuously reassured myself that I was being too overprotective and sensitive yet a burrowing worry still dug it's way into my stomach.