She smiles as she grab the pink pen with a strawberry design on top. ’Her favorite…’ she thought

“This is it…” she muttered “The last letter that I will send to you.”

She started to write on the pink paper with the scent of strawberry perfume.

Hey. How are you? Ops. Please don’t answer that. I think I’ll get hurt more if you do. Ofcourse you’re happy, happy to be with her and happy that you’ll get married to her. Before you react, I just want to say that I’m not writing this so you’ll come back to me. I’m writing this to give you the only wedding present I could give…the comfort. I don’t want you to get married while still thinking about me, your first love who let you go because she was such a coward. Is it weird that I’m doing this? Oh god, I hope not. Well…the first thing that I want to say is…I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being a coward. I shouldn’t have proposed to you if I haven’t asked our parents yet. So…we got scolded for being engaged at a young age. I do not blame our parents that this is the outcome of our relationship but…it was true that we were still young back then. We were still studying yet I knew…you were the one person that I would love till the die, the one person that I would love to get married to. But…their lectures hit me. What ifs…were running in my head, making me call off our engagement. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Chaeyoung. The wedding that we planned. You walking towards the aisle while I wait. The piano cover of ‘Thousand Years’ playing in the background. The red, pink and white church theme. That was supposed to be our wedding. But…all of the sudden, it faded. Chaeyoung…I hope you’re happy with Mina unnie. I really do…You might not do the wedding that we always planned since it will remind you of me but…I hope that you’re going to have a wedding that you wouldn’t regret for the rest of your life. Anyways…the second thing I want to say is…thank you. Thank you for the love, for the memories, for everything. More importantly, thank you for being my first love. Even though we weren’t meant to be together, I still thanked the God for giving you in my life. I thank him every day that we managed to get to know each other. Remember? The café…

Flashback

She entered the café and went to the counter.

“Excuse me…I would like some strawberry latte.” she said as she was getting money from her wallet

“Here you go.” the cashier said as she hand the hot choco “That would be $3.75, Ms.”

“Here…” she answered as she handed the money

“Thank you. Here’s your change…” the cashier said and gave the change to her but she just put it in the tip jar

She turned around and accidentally bumped into someone. The hot choco was poured but luckily, the girl was wearing a jacket so I didn’t wet her inside shirt.

“Oh my, I’m sorry.”

“No, no. It’s fine.” the girl said “I wasn’t looking on where I was going.”

“No…I’m sorry. I should have been careful. Please took off your jacket and wear mine.”

“No, it’s fine. I’m just going to wear my t-shirt.”

“It’s cold outside. You should wear my jacket.” she answered and took off her jacket then handed it to the girl “Please…I insist.”

“Alright.” the girl said and took off her jacket, that’s when she saw that the girl was a fan…her fan

“Excuse me…but…are you a fan?”

“Hmm?” the girl asked then she looked at her shirt and started to blush “W-Well…yeah. Her concert just ended.”

“I see…”

“Come to think of it…this was the jacket that she wore earlier. Are you a fan too? For you to have the same jacket to the famous rapper.”

“Actually…” she trailed as she took off her sunglass “I am that famous rapper.”

The girl’s eyes widened when she saw her idol in front of her.

“Oh. My. God…Kim Dahyun?”

“Yes.”

“Oh my god, really?”

Dahyun chuckled and nodded “It’s me. I’m sorry and if you want, you can have my jacket. You don’t need to return it. Unless…you want to meet me.”

Dahyun laughed when she saw the girl’s face turned red.

“I’m kidding…what’s your name?”

“Chaeyoung. Son Chaeyoung”

“Nice to meet you, Chaeng.”

End of Flashback

The first meeting leads to a second, third, fourth and so on. Until our love story started. When an idol confessed of being inlove to a fan. Luckily, the fan accepted the idol and they officially became a couple. Maybe not in the public but atleast they love each other enough to risk everything. Isn’t it sad that the idol is now writing to her almost-getting-married fan? Isn’t it sad that their relationship ended just to one simple mistake? It’s the same with my career, one mistake can destroy it. But…if you were the mistake, I wouldn’t mind if you destroy my whole world. Though…I destroyed yours. Chaeyoung…thank you for making me feel the feeling of loving and be loved. The feeling of fighting and being fought for. It was me and you against the world yet the world beat me up. Haha…too bad. Okay, moving on. The last thing I want to say is…Goodbye. It’s been 5 years since we broke up and it’s also been 5 years since the famous rapper went hiatus. I think it’s about time that I go back to where I started. Yes, what you’re thinking is right. I am going back to Washington D.C. where my career started. I’ll try to stand up back again to being a rapper but not as a lover. You…are the last person I would love. Promise. Cross my heart. Hope to die. Padlock. Throw the key. By the time you’ll read this, I’m probably boarding the plane since I think that this letter would took one week before it reaches you. Yes, you’ll receive this on the day of your wedding since that is what it’s purpose, right? The comfort on your wedding day. I’m sorry that I couldn’t come to your wedding, I’m afraid that I’ll stood up when the priest said ‘Any objection?’ or I’m afraid that I would ruin your wedding by crying my heart out…so, no thanks. I’ll pass. I’ve ruined your planned wedding before, I’m not going to ruin the real wedding now. Nayeon unnie, Jeongyeon unnie, Jihyo unnie, Sana unnie, Tzuyu, and even Mina unnie’s ex and our friend, Momo unnie is coming. Our whole gang and friends are coming to your wedding except me. They all tried to persuade me into coming but I respectfully decline. I didn’t told them why because I want you to be the first one to know. At this part that you’re reading now, I’m probably boarding the plane. The same time that the door of the church will open is the same time the plane I’m riding on will depart. So do not try to escape your wedding just to stop me from going. Sure, you could make me stay bec