Inspired by the song entitled Don't Wanna Live Forever

[Verse 1: ZAYN]
Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls, hoping you'd call
It's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at all

[Pre-Chorus 1: ZAYN]
Baby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
What is happening to me?

[Chorus: ZAYN]
I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna feel more ever
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home

[Verse 2: Taylor Swift]
I'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing my mind
Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life

[Pre-Chorus 2: Taylor Swift]
Baby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
I gave you something, but you gave me nothing
What is happening to me?

[Chorus: ZAYN & (Taylor Swift)]
I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna feel (feel, babe) more ever (more ever)
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home

[Bridge: Taylor Swift, ZAYN & Both]
I've been looking sad in all the nicest places
Baby, baby, I feel crazy
I see you around in all these empty faces
Up all night, all night and every day
I've been looking sad in all the nicest places
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
Now I'm in a cab, I tell 'em where your place is
What is happening to me?

[Chorus: ZAYN]
I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna feel more ever
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home

[Outro: Taylor Swift & ZAYN]
I just wanna keep calling your name do you come back home
So you come back home

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Jiyong's POV 

It's been two days and she's still lying here asleep. 

The doctor came in and updated me, " I don't understand what went wrong and why she's still unconscious. All her vitals seem to be fine...I'm afraid that if she doesn't wake up in the next 24 hours, the babies will be distressed ...I'm sorry Mr Kwon but we might lose them in the process."

I cried I cannot see myself living without her and my babies. 

My mom and mommy Park started crying as soon as they heard, the room became quiet except from sobbing that I can hear from the back I guess my friends don't want to bother me - they know how bad I must be feeling right now. In hushed tones they started leaving the room one by one. I feel so alone.

I do not know what to do anymore...never thought that it would feel this empty without her. 

I have no one to blame but myself. I should have chosen her over my music. Now I know that I cannot live without her. 

I have not slept a wink ... so afraid that something might happen to her if I fall asleep. 

"Ji sleep for a while I will sit with her," nunna Dami offered but I cannot seem to hear her I cannot leave my famil