I don't know how many days I've holed up myself in my room but I've gone blank.

"You don't deserve her." B.I's words repeated on ny head like a broken vinyl record. And maybe he's right.

When we were together I only gave her pain but is it wrong that I still want her? My tears have dried, my eyes hurt.

I turned to my door when a knock came. They didn't disturb me and just let me be. Are we needed at the company? Good thing our fight wasn't publicized due to jinyoung and jisoo. I still worry for her though, she's still my friend.

"Go away." I weakly said. The door opened and I immediately fixed myself when I saw who came in.

"Appa, are you sick?" Sky and woozi scanned the mess on my room. I looked behind them to see if any of my members will come and get them but none.

"We sneaked in. They didn't let us in for days already. We wanted to see you." I went to them and squatted to be on their level.

"It's messy here, can you wait for me outside?" They both shook their head

"Shiro. You won't go out." I sighed and pat their heads.

"Appa.. is not feeling well." They looked at each other and I was suprised when they both leaned and gave me a peck on the cheek.

"Are you ok now? Eomma is also not feeling well. We did that and she's okay." I smiled

"Today is a very special day. We want to be with you today no matter what." I titled my head

"It's our birthday." I was shocked and looked at them

"What? Stay here." I quickly made my bed and let them sit there. I ran out of my room and look for my members

"Jin hyung!" Jin hyung accidently threw the knife that hit the wooden wall, just an inch above hoseok's head.

"Omygghaaaa." Hoseok's legs gave in as he sat on the floor. Hand on his heart

"Don't shock us like that!" Namjoon scolded, holding a broken chopping board?

"Hyung! You're alive!!" Taehyung dramatically cried and hugged me.

"Help me." They all stopped and turned to me

"Do you want to find jennie noona?" Jimin asked

"No... Yes... No, I mean not now. I need help to celebrate the twins birthday." They all formed an O with their mouths

"So you're going to pick them at school and take them here?" Jin had his hand on his hip

"No. They're in my room." They looked surprised

"They should've told us it's their birthday. We would've barged in your room ourselves." Namjoon

"Alright everyone! Yoongi, go take the kids somewhere. Namjoon and I will be grocery shopping. Hoseok go buy gifts. The rest clean up!" The maknaes protested but shut up when jin hyung pulled the knife from the wall and glared.

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"Does it still hurt?" Woozi asked as he held my bandaged hand.

"Ani. It's painfu