I got home and Granny asked me if i already ate. I said yes when i actually didn't. But, does it matter? I'm just a frixion anyway. I can live as long as the temperature doesn't drop that bad or worse, summer comes. I can go on my entire existence without food. I can eat them but unlike the humans, they need it. If not, they'll get sick, or if not, die. Such thing doesn't happen to a frixion. I don't get sick or wanted a certain food.

However, being a frixion is hard too. You don't know when you'll be back and when you'll be gone. Unlike the humans, they know that they'll be around once they successfully got out of their mom's womb and sometimes they could know when it's time for them to be gone in their world/this world. Once you come near something hot, that part of you gets erased while humans call it burns. Humans like coffee or something hot when it's cold while i prefer to go out and play when it's cold. A frixion can't take hot food and beverage too. The moment it lands in the lips, tongue, down to the stomach, it would be erased. But human finds that refreshing and warming up their body.

Fortunately or not, even a frixion has a heart too. I have a heart that thumps when i do what i like the most and  hurts when i feel it breaking. Fortunately because even at that part, that made me realize that i'm part of this world. Animals have hearts so why can't i? And unfortunately because i oftenly feel it breaking. When i lost Soyeon, when i found out Taeyeon's dirty little secret, and whenever it's time to part ways.

Sometimes the pain goes away. But sometimes it feels like a cactus hammered inside my heart. I can't take away the pain even if i want to. It's unbearable and i could only cry at one place.

As a frixion, in my existence, the hardest part is keeping in touch with friends. One day you're laughing your hearts out and then be completely gone the next day. And when winter comes again, the place where you we're left is so different to the place where you'll be found. It's harder because i still haven't found a fellow frixion. It only get's tougher yearly because i get to interact to humans like i'm one too.

"Sica, Are you still up?" Yoona. The one i have to avoid at all cost. Reason why? I can't be attached that much to her.I don't see her as a friend. And it's trouble for me. I want to hate her ... but i can't seem to have a reason to. So i can only choose to cowardly run away before i fall in deeper. When she asked me to move out, i find it as my chance to do so. But i told her to give me a week because i want to give granny my present i have for her bithday.

I want to ignore. I want her to think that i'm sleeping already. I really really want to. But my body is saying otherwise. I went to the door and opened it for her. "Why?"

"Milk?" She asked holding two glasses of it."I was just wondering if you would like some .."

"Okay, thanks" I took one from her and was about to close the door when she's still staring at me "What is it?"

"Oh, nothing." She smiled and i closed the door. I headed to the balcony with that glass of milk. I like it because it's cold.

"If i'm new to this neighborhood, i would think that i have a psychotic neighbor" I said before i take a sip from my milk. I saw her in the balcony of her room laughing like a crazy person 

"I'm the prettiest psycho then" True. Have i ever said this before that she looks cute when she laughs? She winks her eyes and that is damn adorable for me

"What made you laugh like that?"

"Because i'm happy"

"Hmm" I nodded and then she took a sip from her own milk "So humans are really weird when they're happy" I remarked after thinking about it. That seems to be the case. Some, hits their friend, shouts, run around, fist pump in the air or jump in joy and now her case too, laughing alone like a crazy person.

"You still haven't been happy before?"

"I did" The first time was when i met Soyeon. All of my memories of her were happy ones until winter ended and we didn't see each other the next one.

"Then you're weird too" But i'm not a human. Though i'm weird to begin with. I don't really know who i am, i don't know where i came from and maybe i don't know myself much either

"Maybe"

"It's not maybe. It's a yes."

"But hey, this milk is unexpectedly sweeter. What did you put?" I asked curiously.  The milk has a different taste at a different feel

"Oh that? Love and Hope"

"What's that?"

"I put my heart in preparing it and hoping that you'll take it. Maybe it worked"

"You're happy because of that?

"Why not?"

"It makes you like a weird person"

"Whatever ~ give me your glass, i'll wash it" She said pointing at my now empty glass

"It's okay, i'll do it"

"Really? You don't even wash before" True. I don't because the water is lukewarm. I don't know if it'll erase my hand but it's better to be safe. "Cat got your tongue?""

"Fine" I turned my back to go inside then down the stairs. I suddenly want to go out and just walk. One more thing, a frixion can go on without sleep. But since it's me, i like sleeping so ...

"Where are you going?" She asked when i only placed the glass in the sink then not heading for the stairs

"Out for a walk"

"You can't. Granny would be mad at you"

"Granny is asleep already, so .. ?"