Chapter 4

Journal Of Ardency
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"Are you sure you don't want to go somewhere else?", Soojoo held up her knee-length dress so it wouldn't blown by the wind.
"I'm bit lethargic by now", Byunghun chuckled, pulled a chair in front of Soojoo.
Here they are on their apartment rooftop. A cozy interview it should be, but it seemed like summer storm was about to come.
"Alright, before this wind swept us all, let's chat", Soojoo leaned forward and put on a big smile.
"Where's Niel?", asked Byunghun innocently.
"He has rehearsal with his group as usual", answered Soojoo.
"Oh I see", Byunghun unknowingly wondered to the entrance door. Secretly hoping for Niel's presence. Soojoo smiled about how obvious Byunghun was.

"I think this interview is about me?", asked Soojoo, brought back Byunghun's attention.
"Uh, yeah of course, but you two had been together for quite a long time", said Byunghun.
"Yeah, even now that we're not lovers again", said Soojoo.
"What?", Byunghun squealed. A weird mixture of surprise and a slight of hope caught in his throat.
"We broke up a year ago", Soojoo narrowed her eyes mischievously. "But every time I went back to Korea, I'm still looking for his presence. Not in deeper sense though, if you know what I mean", Soojoo continued in her usual carefree attitude.
"So it's all platonic and such?", asked Byunghun further.
Soojoo chuckled; "Will you put this in your article? I don't really like the idea of having my personal details printed somewhere"

Byunghun smiled to the ground.
"No, Soojoo-ya... I just want this interview went smooth and natural", said Byunghun.
"We're the most natural when we talked about our hobbies though, it's a pretty decent topic for an article, huh", said Soojoo.
"Um, yeah. But what we would talk about probably too hard to understand for common people. It's Elle after all, not Dazed And Confused", said Byunghun.
"Well then, I don't see how this interview will be interesting", Soojoo jokingly said.

"Boring question; 'How did you get scouted?'", asked Byunghun.
"This is so awkward~!. Okay, it was when I went to shopping in a vintage store one day... I already answered this questions many times before...", Soojoo laughed.
Then the half of interview went on with them two talking about fashion world, about Chanel exclusive, talking with Karl Lagerfeld, sharing room with other girls, favorite piece of clothing in her wardrobe, and other superficial stuffs.

"What fashion world did to you that you think you won't get anywhere else?", asked Byunghun.
"What fashion world did to me... oh... it's bit", Soojoo drank her beer and looked up to the sky.
She then sighed. "They me", she bitterly smiled. Maybe it was the alcohol.

" you?", Byunghun chuckled at her oblivious answer.
"Quite literally. Well, not quite, they indeed me", Soojoo put back the empty beer bottle to the ground.
"What do you mean?", a smile in Byunghun's face was all disappeared.
"There was this famous photographer... yah, oppa, promise me you won't put this to an article or tell it to anyone...", said Soojoo, opened yet another bottle.
"I won't", replied Byunghun.
"My agent sent me on a shoot with this photographer, I knew it would be a , wild, careless attitude shot whatsoever. Then this photographer, let's called him Mr. R, he said 'lay down, I'll be on your top, taking pictures of you' this photographer has a bad, bad, reputation so I said no to him. But he forced me down you know, and it... happened... while everyone else just watching us", Soojoo held back all her tears while Byunghun just looked at her didn't quite know what to do.
"I told this to my agent and she just sighed and told me 'Of course we would help you to sue him, but it's down to your choice, whether you want an opportunity or a dignity. Dignity didn't buy you a career, though', she said. I was so angry, I went up to all clubs in NY that night. Get all wasted and . I arrived in that ing city to be a great model, and I should just take all the piss like any other girl does. So yeah, next time I knew I was in Vogue's main fashion spread. And woosh... my career just took off like that, I felt like I'm winning the world that time, I decided to forget that the r

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Angel_Ahn
#1
I re-read this again T_T
This is my first ever Teen Top fanfic .. and you made me fall for NielJoe .. thank you author nim ^^
decemberdaisy
#2
Chapter 33: Author-nim

I dropped by here again just want to say that I still love this story so much. Like muuuuuuucchhhhh. This story is indeed beautiful and heart clenching.

Last time I read this fic, it was one year ago and I re-read this fic again. This story still makes me want to cry so much. It still makes my heart ache on the last chapter.

And I still like Dani and Honey's story even now. That fairytale is really good one. You should make it as published book I think. Hehehe.


Anyway, thank you for writing this beautiful story. I will always like to read this story again and again. You are a good writer. Really.
SungrinBF
#3
Chapter 33: Gosh...I can't ㅠㅠ I finished this story while reading it on a rainy day and a sad piano instrumental ...too much tears on my pillowcase ㅠㅠ Especially the end part where he died....My family looked at me as if I was insane O.o I love this story, it is so realistic! (Lol, I even thought that Honey's disease is a real disease but when you said on Chapter 21 that it is'nt, I was mindblown) You're creativity is just...in the maximum level! To be honest, I find this story better than those cliche ones on bookstores kekeke~
Yunkaisoo #4
Chapter 33: Uwahhh...... T_T
Really really good story...
I'm crying so hard. I was having a hard time sobbing,,
I want to let out my voice but i don't want my sister call me crazy..
The end was so sad..
I don't know what to say anymore...
Love this story But not the die part.. :D
panda203 #5
Chapter 33: This was soo sad ㅠ.ㅠ
How can you write something as amazing and beautiful as this? *~*
I cried so hard when I read the last chapter cuz I really thought that byunghun would survive and finally go to the beach with niel..
But I was deeply touched about all the things that happened to those two ^~^
I hope I can read other fanfics of yours authornim cuz you're really good at writing
Thank you so much for this story~
Hwaiting♡ love you♡♡♡
Sugar11 #6
Chapter 33: All 

Chapter 32: I didnt even notice that I cried so hard once finished ur story, it's beyond awesome, it's beautiful. Thanks for such an incredible story
SaraYun #7
Nice . . !
19twentyone
#8
Chapter 32: OTL, I kind of expected byungie to die because I "accidentally" read one of the comments but I cried so much TT.TT
I just found out about the story and read it in just hours.
I don't know what to do with my NielJoe feels anymore ~
Great ending author nim :)
chunjixbyungie
#9
I finished this yesterday and i was stunned..i guess no matter what , i wanted to believe byunghun would make it alive somehow.
I was having a hard time sobbing until midnight xD.
But i still have a question
How come..he was in coma when niel was in paris but was there with niel as well ..it cant be a dream bec the violin is a proof..besides he told niel that 7th bday thing .
Ugh anyways i gotta admire your creativity ..how u planned it ALL beforehand !!!
It was perfect, so detailed n realistic.Niel's last words eased me a bit.
Are u punishing for those five years..
eE will see ..i have all of my life to love u and when we meet im gonna say i won !!!
chunjixbyungie
#10
Chapter 30: I Hope am not bothering u xD.
But srsly !!!! This ch is beautful in everyway.
Niel 's thoughts and how he missed byunghun was too sweet.
How he wanted to call him again.
How he wished he could ruffle his hair .
The wedding part when Noel teared up with people .