Chapter 14

Journal Of Ardency
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"Nielie... let's have a date today", Byunghun leaned his head on Daniel's shoulder hesitantly.
"Hm..", Daniel frowned and round his arm around Byunghun's shoulder to touch his forehead.
"My fever was gone. The doctor said if I have no fever anymore then I could go with you~!", Byunghun pleaded.
"You just recover", Daniel sighed.
"It's been three days... three days that I don't have the fever", Byunghun insisted.
"Hyung...", Daniel begged.

"Tsk", Byunghun frowned and sat straight, lifted up his head from Daniel's shoulder.
He took the milk from the windowsill and watched the building outside. They've been like this since two hours ago, lazying around their bed that facing the big window to the cityscape beyond. Daniel watched his hyung through the flowing thin white curtain, tried to finish all his milk. Daniel dyed Byunghun's hair to black again yesterday, since they don't have anything to do at night, and Byunghun still couldn't go outside. Daniel never dyed anyone's hair before but thankfully the result was quite good. His hyung looked fresher in his natural color.

Daniel reached Byunghun's hair, ran his fingers through it, partly showed his affection and admired his own work at the same time.
"There's this one film I really want to see", Byunghun said, still pouted down with his upset face.
"What's that?", Daniel chuckled.
"The Fault In Our Stars", replied Byunghun short.
"Seriously?! that's a girl film", Daniel refused in disgust.
"Yah! it has great reviews~!", Byunghun exclaimed.
"Nah... it must be boring", Daniel stretched his arms and yawned.
"It won't!", Byunghun kept pushing.
"It will... you always say a boring movie fun and a fun movie boring", said Daniel.
"You just don't get my movie!", Byunghun said in disbelieve.
"Well... isn't The Fault In Our Stars quite different from your usual weird movies?", Daniel chuckled.

"Humm... I just think it would be great for a date", Byunghun curled his lips and looked to the street below.
Daniel held his laugh when he saw slight blushes emerged from Byunghun's little cheeks.
"How do you feel right now?", Daniel sighed heavily.
"I'm healthy! totally healthy!", Byunghun cheerfully answered.
"Isn't that film talking about two sick people who fall in love and stuffs?", asked Daniel.
"Y-yeah...", Byunghun replied unsurely.
"Someone dies?", asked Daniel further.
"I don't know... I don't like spoilers", said Byunghun.
"I don't like it when someone dies...", Daniel moved forward to looked into Byunghun's eyes.

Byunghun just looked back at his dongsaeng, loss for words. The white curtain witnessed their uncomfortable silence as Byunghun folded up his legs and took them into his embrace. Byunghun just back from the hospital three days ago, for almost two weeks he was in the hospital for the treatment. Not that his hatred towards hospital was gone, it was Daniel who forced him to do so. Byunghun was angry at first but Daniel convinced him that it was the best for him. To ease his hate towards hospital, Daniel visited Byunghun twice a day, in the morning and stay for the night without fail. In the afternoon when Daniel went out to do some rehearsals and classes Byunghun couldn't help his thoughts to wonder about death. That's the main reason why he hates the hospital so much, how the IV lines, blood supplies, heart rate monitor and oxygen tank remind him about how frail he was.

"Let's watch Transformers instead", Daniel broke their silence.
"That's an awful choice!", Byunghun whined.
"That's what we watch in the first date, there will be a lot more to talk about when we both hate the film!", Daniel stated.
"Ah... is that so? B-but Transformers will hit the theater next week...", Byunghun's eyes wonder to the ceilings. He knew all the film schedules like the back of his hand.
"Of course, that's exactly why...", Daniel chuckled.
"Yah! you trapped me!", Byunghun hit Daniel's upper arm.
"Tsk... you still need more rest", Daniel laughed.

Byunghun pouted once again, and played with the white curtain.
"We'll be on a date, it would be awesome, just wait a little longer", Daniel ruffled Byunghun's hair.
Byunghun nodded weakly.
"Alright then, hyung... I have another rehearsal today", Daniel sighed and put on his coat.
"Come back before dinner will you?", asked Byunghun.
"Sure. I will", Daniel smiled and headed to National Theater for Weekend rehearsal.

There was Jonghyun welcomed Daniel. He got a minor role after Daniel recommended him to his professor. Jonghyun wasn't really interested in the play's topic, but he thought he need an experience to play in National Theater.
"Sup", Jonghyun handed Daniel a can of beer.
"Hey", Daniel sighed and sat beside him, on a crate full with production's cables.
"I heard you're late a lot these days", said Jonghyun.
"Yeah, gotta take care of Byunghun-hyung in the hospital", Daniel took a sip of his beer.
"Oh... is that so...", Jonghyun took a glance on Daniel.

"Did I tell you already?", Daniel turned his head on Jonghyun.
"What?", Jonghyun asked short.
"Byunghun-hyung is gay", said Daniel casually. Jonghyun just looked at his friend for a moment and finally chuckled; "That's why he gave you flowers, isn't it?", he said.
"Those hydrangeas... he's your secret admirer", Jonghyun continued.
"How did you know? Well... he hasn't tell me himself...", Daniel smiled as the production crews unveiled the curtain beside them, exposed them with dim sunlight outside.

"There's something different when he looked at you", Jonghyun eyes' wondered to the sky,
"Tsch... you just meet him, what, twice?", Daniel giggled.
"Yeah, but I know. I thought you both are childhood bestfriends or something, that's why he always look at you affectionately, but turned out you both are senior and junior in high school...", said Jonghyun.
"Really...?", Daniel amazed at Jonghyun's attention to detail.
"Of course. I could see it clearly, yah, how did you not even realize it? aren't you an actor? you still remember our basic lesson, right? pay attention to people around you, how they look at something, how they drink their drinks, how they put a pause in every word, how they breathe and even the tiniest detail like how they blink~!", Jonghyun blurted out.

"I know I know~!", Daniel rolled his eyes. He felt like Jonghyun belittled him.
"So what, you both are dating now?", asked Jonghyun.
"Kind of?", said Daniel.
"Ha... you found your second Changhyun...", said Jonghyun.
"Yah... I didn't date Changhyun~! how many times should I repeat that, really!", Daniel exploded. Jonghyun just went quiet and elbowed him.

"That's right... he didn't date me", said one voice and Daniel turned

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Angel_Ahn
#1
I re-read this again T_T
This is my first ever Teen Top fanfic .. and you made me fall for NielJoe .. thank you author nim ^^
decemberdaisy
#2
Chapter 33: Author-nim

I dropped by here again just want to say that I still love this story so much. Like muuuuuuucchhhhh. This story is indeed beautiful and heart clenching.

Last time I read this fic, it was one year ago and I re-read this fic again. This story still makes me want to cry so much. It still makes my heart ache on the last chapter.

And I still like Dani and Honey's story even now. That fairytale is really good one. You should make it as published book I think. Hehehe.


Anyway, thank you for writing this beautiful story. I will always like to read this story again and again. You are a good writer. Really.
SungrinBF
#3
Chapter 33: Gosh...I can't ㅠㅠ I finished this story while reading it on a rainy day and a sad piano instrumental ...too much tears on my pillowcase ㅠㅠ Especially the end part where he died....My family looked at me as if I was insane O.o I love this story, it is so realistic! (Lol, I even thought that Honey's disease is a real disease but when you said on Chapter 21 that it is'nt, I was mindblown) You're creativity is just...in the maximum level! To be honest, I find this story better than those cliche ones on bookstores kekeke~
Yunkaisoo #4
Chapter 33: Uwahhh...... T_T
Really really good story...
I'm crying so hard. I was having a hard time sobbing,,
I want to let out my voice but i don't want my sister call me crazy..
The end was so sad..
I don't know what to say anymore...
Love this story But not the die part.. :D
panda203 #5
Chapter 33: This was soo sad ㅠ.ㅠ
How can you write something as amazing and beautiful as this? *~*
I cried so hard when I read the last chapter cuz I really thought that byunghun would survive and finally go to the beach with niel..
But I was deeply touched about all the things that happened to those two ^~^
I hope I can read other fanfics of yours authornim cuz you're really good at writing
Thank you so much for this story~
Hwaiting♡ love you♡♡♡
Sugar11 #6
Chapter 33: All 

Chapter 32: I didnt even notice that I cried so hard once finished ur story, it's beyond awesome, it's beautiful. Thanks for such an incredible story
SaraYun #7
Nice . . !
19twentyone
#8
Chapter 32: OTL, I kind of expected byungie to die because I "accidentally" read one of the comments but I cried so much TT.TT
I just found out about the story and read it in just hours.
I don't know what to do with my NielJoe feels anymore ~
Great ending author nim :)
chunjixbyungie
#9
I finished this yesterday and i was stunned..i guess no matter what , i wanted to believe byunghun would make it alive somehow.
I was having a hard time sobbing until midnight xD.
But i still have a question
How come..he was in coma when niel was in paris but was there with niel as well ..it cant be a dream bec the violin is a proof..besides he told niel that 7th bday thing .
Ugh anyways i gotta admire your creativity ..how u planned it ALL beforehand !!!
It was perfect, so detailed n realistic.Niel's last words eased me a bit.
Are u punishing for those five years..
eE will see ..i have all of my life to love u and when we meet im gonna say i won !!!
chunjixbyungie
#10
Chapter 30: I Hope am not bothering u xD.
But srsly !!!! This ch is beautful in everyway.
Niel 's thoughts and how he missed byunghun was too sweet.
How he wanted to call him again.
How he wished he could ruffle his hair .
The wedding part when Noel teared up with people .