Only A Dream
True Feelings
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I needed to be in a quiet place where no one could be able to see me after all, the worst punishment was given to me and I couldn't even guarantee what was coming from that day on. Dahee was devastated by my words, I could sense it, that she and the boys hated me now, but I wouldn't judge them, in fact, I wondered why they weren't more harsh with me.
I made my way to my new classroom, at least there, I could get peace. Once I got inside, the view of that Minho guy sleeping was the first thing I noticed, he wasn't snoring or drooling, but he took very deep breaths in his sleep, I could tell that he was a heavy sleeper. Across the classroom, there was a large window which I could see the backyard made for botanical matters, perhaps a school club. There were plants here and there with their scientifical names in white tags, there weren't a lot of flowers, but I could spot a few species from where I was sitting. I took my notebook and a pencil quickly as I sense my inspiration coming, with a few traces and dots, I started to combine them to draw one particular part of the backyard - a single willow tree because I liked those trees a lot, they were so elegant in their own way. While I was drawing, I spotted a few steps from the willow tree a small group of people settled on the grass. Dahee's head was resting on Kookie's shoulder and the other boys seemed like they were trying to comfort her. Jimin was with his back leant on the tree's branch looking blankly the distance. The sadness I was trying to push away came upwards again, I stopped drawing in the same instant I laid my eyes on them.
How could I say those things? They are my REAL friends, not like the others I had before... but even knowing that I pushed them away... because I'm scared of fighting those girls inside the school.
"Who are you?" A deep and sleepy voice made me turn back to reality. I turned around and that Minho guy was right in front of me, facing me with confused eyes.
"I-I'm the new student," I answered and bowed to him. "My name is Eunsoo."
I sat down again and looked my draw, daubed with my sudden tears, I only realised that moment that I cried, that some of my sadness came out from my eyes without noticing.
"Were you crying?" Minho asked out of the blue.
"W-What?" I asked dumbfounded. "I wasn't crying."
"Why were you crying?" He ignored my lasts words but, of course, it was obvious that I cried.
"Nothing serious." I looked again to the group, the boys were trying to make Dahee smile, however, she was as sad as she was that morning.
I'm sure that I could make her smile if I tell her the truth... but I have no proofs against those girls... no, she probably hates me now... it's impossible.
"If she's your friend, she won't hate you no matter what." Minho said.
"I-I was just thinking loud." I immediately shut up my big mouth.
"I see, you talk alone." He looked at me with a smirk on his lips. "Let me warn you, that's not good for your mental health."
"Hey!" I shouted. "I'm not crazy!"
"But talking to the walls... that doesn't help."
"Fine." I chuckled.
"Good, I made you chuckle." He ruffled my hair. "That's a big step for healing your sanity."
"You're friendly after all." I smirked.
"Have you just said that I'm not friendly??"
"No, I'm sorry!" I ran towards the entrance of the room.
"Comeback here!" I heard him shout from the classroom. "You smurf girl!"
I laughed silently.
I guess that my day is not that dark after all...
**
At lunch time, the other Elite and I went to the canteen. My new classes aren't that different from the ones I was attending in A class, the only thing that made it unique was the fact that we chose the subjects that we wanted to review, it was very interesting and my classmates weren't loud, in fact, they didn't make any sounds - especially Minho that, of course, was sleeping. At the canteen, some old classmates of mine looked at me and greeted me, I thought that the only time I was able to mix with regular students was the lunch time because the Elite didn't have a private canteen for them although we could use the teachers' room to eat.
"Eunsoo, can you come with me, please?" Jahyoon, a girl from A class asked me.
"Sure." I nodded.
I followed her steps, we passed by the games field, where I had my first lunch with Dahee and the boys and Jimin played basketball with me.
There, I was with them there... my second day of school... oh such sweet memories...
"Are you okay, Eunsoo?" Jahyoon asked me.
"Yes, I'm fine." I smiled sadly.
"You don't look like your usual self, you look... concerned." She said.
"It's nothing, really." I assured her.
"The classes don't seem the same without you, even Dahee doesn't cheer us up anymore." She averted her eyes. "Anyways, we're here."
We stopped right in front of the willow tree that I saw from the classroom, at that distance, I found it even more elegant and gracious, with its slim branches softly dancing with the breeze of the evening. I saw Dahee and the boys next to the tree in the very same spot they were one hour ago, she had the same sad and gloomy expression on her face, it was almost unbearable to see her in that state, but I couldn't tell her anything, I was scared to show other pe
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