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“I wonder, Luhan…”

Kai murmured as Luhan and him went to shop together in the mega market near their neighborhood.

 “About what?” Luhan asked softly.

Kai took a glance at his wife, “actually, how was your family look alike?” he said carefully, cause his heart marched nervously. He’s not afraid, he just felt anxious since Luhan’s cousin brother, Park Chanyeol called him and said, he was practically angered someone in Luhan’s family.

Luhan stared back into his eyes. The beauty opened his pouty lips, but said nothing. Kai watched how the expression of his wife turned cloudy and it didn’t lessen his worry. He imagined something bad must happen to Luhan, because they were married without bless.

“Can we talk about it later?” Just when Kai thought Luhan was about to tell him the truth, the boy smiled bitterly, “I know you deserved the truth but right now, I’m not be able to do so.” Probably because it was too hurt to explain, Kai mentally noted. “But I promise, someday I will tell you everything about me.”

Kai bit his bottom lips, held an urge to just let out the clenching pain in his heart, “you don’t trust me, Luhan?” He was sorry to ask something so pathetic like that.

“No, I trust you.”

Luhan raised his skinny hand and let his warm fingers caressed Kai’s face, “Can you trust me and wait for a little while?”

Kai was taken aback with his words but somehow he felt at ease over Luhan’s gentle touch on his face. He can’t help but smile, a bit embarrassed for having this feeling of insecurity. “Fine.” He said, while taking the fingers on his skin and entwined them with his. “I’ll wait until you were ready.”

He was rewarded by a beautiful smile plastered on Luhan, along with a small peck of affection on the end of his chin, “that’s my gorgeous husband.”

Kai leaned down and kissed him chastely, “but don’t be long, ok? I’ll die in curiosity.”

“Awww,” Luhan squealed in return, “How could you die so ridiculously like that!” he said in protest.

Kai didn’t answer only laughed along with his precious wife. He wanted to kiss Luhan again, but then he realized where they were and so he dragged Luhan to continue their shopping, with their fingers still tightly wrapped together in between their close bodies.

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Busy was a very disturbing word.

And his husband having a ‘busy’ time wasn’t very appealing for their marriage life. Somehow it kinda unfair too, that Kai could manage to distract him so easily everytime he was doing his homework, but when he wanted to return the favor, he simply didn’t dare to. Oh, he wished he could shape-shifted into a cat so he won’t feel guilty to jump onto Kai’s lap, purring and whining for the man’s attention. Probably Kai will understand his need of touch and the man will stop staring at the computer screen just to smile at him. Probably Kai will touch him back, giving him hug and kissed him all over his face. Probably they will made love, until Luhan couldn’t feel his own body and… AAARGH! Why he had to hide behind their bedroom door, anyway, and thinking dirty by himself.

I’m so pathetic, Luhan sighed.

He left the door and went to sit on the bed. He eyed the pink blanket under him, remembered again this new bed sheet they bought two weeks ago. His hand unconsciously ran through the soft fabric as his memory recalled their small talk in the store. My family, huh? He smiled upon their bed. He hoped he could buy a longer time and prepared himself to tell Kai about his mother. It’s not easy to just say, ‘Kai, my family was under the control of my mother and whatever she said, that’s the rule, so, if she say I’m not his son anymore then so am I.’ and Luhan could imagine how shocked Kai was to hear that, knowing that Kai’s family wasn’t as strict as Luhan’s.

For Luhan it didn’t matter if they were from different culture or having different rules, only if Kai blaming himself for their unblessed marriage, it pained him. Kai probably an adult and very mature but as he knew his husband for a month and a week now, Luhan realized Kai was gentle and sensitive too. Not weak, ok? He’s pretty strong and brave, also the most gorgeous man on earth (in Lu’s version). Kai tended to disgrace himself as faulty if something bad happen to Luhan. That’s very sweet, but also annoying. Like in the last week, he kept apologizing for not be able to call Luhan he’s staying late at office and made the younger overslept on the floor until midnight. It’s not even Kai’s fault summer night was humid and made Luhan decide to lie on the floor, but since that night, his husband always home by 5 p.m.

In exchange for that, Kai started bringing his work home.

“What is he doing for living, anyway?” Luhan muttered under his breath. He saw his husband doing the work, before, but he couldn’t understand it at all. It seemed Kai worked with list of numbers, like an accountant, but the man also using engineering program (he forgot the name) for calculating the volume of the 3D object. A few times Luhan wanted to ask what that was and why Kai had to feel so depressed seeing them, but the words locked behind his lips.  

 To make his life more miserable, his own exam started in next week.

Luhan dropped his weight on the bed and start crying something like, ‘God why I’m going to college.’ Or ‘why Art Student had theory exams?’ and probably a bit like, ‘I’m pregnant and my hormones said cow-girl tonight but my husband was glued to his chair…’

“KAAAAAAAAAI!” Luhan couldn’t stand it anymore he screamed, “I want green tea ice creaaaaam!”

There’s no answer, and Luhan sobbed loudly hugging his pillow. God, green tea was disgusting choice but he couldn’t help it. That’s his favorite ice cream since the first he experience craving, three days ago. He prayed all the time, his cravings will be something cute like Popsicle or caramel popcorn or fried chicken, but no, he loves green tea ice cream. And to add to his embarrassment, he’s always –not that became a problem with his husband – but he could turned hard just by counting how many hours left until Kai was back from work.   

“Hey.”

Luhan shot up a gaze in caution, when the door opened and his husband called him in a short, warning tone. His heart raced and his tears almost dropped again, wondering if Kai will get angry at him for being nonsense. He was angry to himself too for not be able to control his emotion, like now. He was supposed to say sorry, not titling his head cutely and muttered an aegyo, “Appa, can we buy ice cream?” in baby tone.

Kai took a deep sigh.

Luhan wondered if his husband get annoyed with him acting spoiled, but he guessed it’s in between Kai loved him so much, or Kai just a ert in heart, cause the man walked at Luhan and wiped away his tears. Then, Kai leaned down and flashing him a too dazzling smile while muttering, “Fine, Appa will buy Umma ice cream, but only if Umma behave and stop crying.” Huskily, the words seeped into Luhan and hammering his heart with no mercy. He cleared his throat, as he could hear the stream of desire under his skin, tried to crawl their way out of his heating body. Since when the prefix ‘Appa’ and ‘Umma’ could be sound so dirty?!

He could only bit his bottom lips, nodding and whispered a low, “kay,” in return.

 “Great.” Kai pecked the trail of tears on his face, “promise Appa, then, Umma will be good and going to bed after having his ice cream.”

“But Appa,” Luhan pouted in displease, “lately you’re so busy I want to be cuddled to sleep.”

The older brunette stared at Luhan so intensely, he thought he was probably crossed the line and being too needy. But then, a nasty smirk appeared on Kai’s lips, again it make Luhan wondering if he married to a man, not to a beast, “is that what the baby want?” his husband asked in a low, teasing tone.

The question brought shame to redden the surface of Luhan face, “of course not!” he grunted. He’s just very and Kai wasn’t helping him reduce his lust by being all cocky and y like this.

“Then you had to decide, Umma.” Kai said, his eyes still had amusing gaze on but his voice was firm, “ Ice cream or cuddling cause I won’t do both.”

“Okay, cuddling.” Without even care if he will be salivated over ice cream all night, Luhan started ing his pajama shirt, gaining another dark chuckle from Kai, as the man started kissing and his face.

“I love you, Umma.” Kai whispered into his ear, “I’m sorry for neglecting you lately.”

If a heart was made by water inside a pot, his husband words just turned the pot on fire and made the water boiled and keep boiling until the hot water spilled and streamed down through his eyes. He blamed his hormones for making him hundred times more sensitive than he used to. He blamed his hormones for his tears, but he indeed felt hurt at the empty space he had to stare almost every night, knowing that his husband was out there, struggling by himself to make a better life for both of them and their unborn child.

“I’m sorry for being a burden.”

Luhan always wanted to say that, cause he couldn’t help Kai with finance, he didn’t have money and his family thrown him away. He didn’t know how to work and Kai definitely against him working with his condition, and to make it worse, he kept nagging Kai with this stupid craving.

“No you’re not, love.” Kai smiled as they settled under the blanket, Luhan laid helplessly on his back, both his palm covering his eyes, while Kai lowered his weight on him, smiling at the crying mother, “I always want to have someone to hold.” The man said while touching his small shoulder with a hand and let the other hand mapped the flat stomach where their baby resided,

“And I always want something to protect with all my life.”      
 

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This is supposed to be fluffy, not hehehe how was it?