Me & Derick were behind the president.

"What do you think his gonna talk to us about?" i asked, nervous a little.

"I'm not sure." he said, then looked at me. I'm pretty sure that he knows i'm nervous. "Dont be nervous Jenny ~ I'm pretty sure we didnt do anything wrong -- right?"

i nodded, releasing a big sigh, "Yeah ~" i said, "Your probably right."

We then reached his office door. He opened it & let us in. To my suprisement, B2ST & Hyuna was there already.

"What's going on?" Derick asked, taking a seat next to Hyuna.

"Jenny ~" President looked at me while gesturing to the space between YoSeob & KiKwang. "Please sit."

"Ye ~" i said, smiling a little bit & sat nest to YoSeob & KiKwang.

The president dialed on his office phone to call the front desk. He put it on speaker.

"Ye sajangnim?" The lady said.

"Ye ~ If you see YeNa, MinHa, & SunHi ~ Tell them to come to my office jebal? Gomawo."

"Ne Sajangnim ~" The hung up then 3 minutes later MinHa, YeNa, & SunHi walked in.

"Whats going on?" MinHa asked.

"Please, sit." the president said, now with a serious face.

"Now you all know why i put you guys together right?"

We all nodded in unison as he continued, "Now this showcase will be broadcast in KBS in June 29th. Its like a special stage."

"Music Bank ?" Junhyun asked.

He nodded then said, "Ohkae, thats pretty much it. You can all go." We all stood up. & left the room.

"Wow ~ So were going to be in Music Bank." Derick said, while making our way to the practice room.

"Mhmm ~" DooJoon said, then opened the door, into the practice room. "You guys are lucky ~"

"How oppa?" SunHi asked.

"Because, when we were trainees, we didnt do that" he said, pouting, "Lucky."

"Ahhhh ~ Enough with your pouting" JunHyun said, "Lets practice." The group suddenly dispresed & went to there partners. YoSeob sat on the floor, putting his hoddie up, looking at lyrics. I made my way to him, & sat next to him.

He looked at me by suprised. I looked at him, then to the lyrics. "Mo?"

"Nothing." he said, then looking at the paper in front of him.

"So what song do you want to sing?" i asked, kind off annoyed

"Umm ~" he said, "We could sing both songs."

"Dont we have a time limit or something?"

"I dont know" he murmured then looked at DooJoon. "HYUNG ~"

DooJoon looked at us then said, "Mo?"

"Whats the performance limit?"

"Nothing less or more than 2 minutes.. Its say's there on the paper."

We looked at the paper & it did say it there. We looked up, feeling a little dumb. "I swear, you guys are blind ~" DooJoon said jokingly.

"Ani ~" we both said in unison. we then looked at eachother for a moment. I looked back at the paper then said, "Umm ~ We could sing both songs but sing only like half of each song." I looked at him, making sure he was listening but all he did was look at me.

"Ya ~ Stop looking at me like that ~" i said, angry because he wasnt paying attention to what i was saying.

"I cant --" he said.

"Wae?" i said, while looking at the lyrics, trying to fit the lyrics together.

i heard him sigh then said, "Because -- i missed seeing your face."

I then slowly looked at him. Then all of a sudden a song played. & not just any song. The song me & YoSeob were gonna sing.

"I dont think thats the right tape, Oppa ~" MinHa said. "Wait ~" i then heard KiKwang.

I looked at YoSeob, tearing alittle, not because i missed his sweet words, i teared because i remembered the pain he gave me -- & i want to make sure i dont fall for him. My heart belonged to JiYong. & only him. I looked away then said, "So we'll sing Here I Am & Yet but we'll only sing like a minute of the song, Arrasseo?"

"Miahn ~" he said. Which made me look at him again. "Jeong Mal Choesonghamnida" he said, tearing. "Jenny-ah ~ Please forgive me....." Tears then started to roll down his face. he put his head down, hiding his face from everyone. I've never seen him like this -- crying in front of people.

"Please" he whispered.

"I dont know if i can." i said quietly. "I gave you my heart, but you took it forgranted & crushed it into a million pieces. I'm almost done putting it back together -- & someone's helping me. Someone i know who wont break my heart. Someone i know who wont take me forgranted." I could tell that he started to cry even more.

"I'm so sorry Jenny" he said, wiping away his tears. "I'm so sorry."

"If i'm done fixing my heart, thats when i can forgive you." i said, as he looked at me with his eyes all red. "But i wont love you.... i cant love you. A friend maybe -- but nothing more."

"Arrasseo ~" he suddenly said, nodding he continued. "I understand."

"I'm sor--" he cut me off.

"No ~ its ohkae ~ i understand." he said, wiping away his last set of tears. "i know i hurt you so much ~ i dont expect you to love me after i did that to you. I bet you hate me now."

"I did -- before -- after i first found out. But--" he then looked at me still hiding his face.

"But?" he said, quietly.

"But now i dont hate you personally anymore. i hate & i'm mad for what you did." it was quiet for a while -- i broke the silence by saying, "So its we'll sing one minute for each song?"

"Ohkae --" YoSeob said, looking away.

"Ohkae --" i said, then stood up. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick."

I didnt wait for an answer, i just walked to the door. While walking to the door, i felt someone grab my wrist.

"Jenny, you ohkae?" KiKwang asked, looking concerned.

I looked at him then said, "Yeah ~ Everything is just fine. I'm just going to the bathroom." i said, giving him a smile.

"Ohh ~ Ohkae." he said, as his grip lossened & out i went the practice room. On the way to the bathroom, knowing i cant call JiYong or Taemin i called Natsumi.

"Ne?" she said, kinda down.

"Natsumi ~" i said, tearing alittle.

"Ohh ~ Unnie ~ Whats wrong?"

"I'm mad at myself." i said, wiping tears from my eyes.

"Wae? What happened?"

"I'm mad at myself for not hating YoSeob anymore."

"Why are you mad at yourself for that? Its good that you forgave him, right?"

"I know its good geunde i'm afraid to trust him again."

"Your falling for him again?"

"Ani ."

"Ohh ~ Well then you shouldnt be scared to trust him since your not falling for him. It'll be his fault if he messes up your friendship. Am i right?"

"Yeah i guess --"

"See so dont worry to much about him......."

"Your right ~"

YoSeob's POV:

"Ohkae -- I'm gonna use the bathroom real quick." she said, then quickly walked away.

i broke down more. Hiding my face so that people cant see the state im in right now. weak & defenceless.

I cant win her back..... i cant. i absolutely cant. & that hurts. Cant have the person you love because you either hurt them so much that they can not comeback, or they're already in love with someone else. In my case -- its both.

"Hyung ~ gwenchana?" i didnt respond -- but i knew it was KiKwang.

I then felt him hug me. "Its gonna be ohkae hyung." he said, trying to make me feel better.

"It hurts KiKwang."

"I know. I know....."

"Its all my fault ~"

"Dont blame yourself hyung."

"Who else is there to blame? She didnt cheat ~ i did ~"

"Just give it some time -- things will work put hyung ~ trust me"

All i could do was nod.

What have i done? i lost the girl i truely loved. Why did i do that? if i didnt do it -- Would we still be together now? i cant help but wonder....

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