Author's note: I'm sorry I took so long to write this chapter! I don't know how this chapter turned out to be just about Taeyeon but I still hope you will enjoy reading it. Cheers :)

[Taeyeon’s point of view]

{Date: 5, March 2018, 6 March 2018}

{Time: 9:11 PST, 2:29 KST}

I lay on my bed, my right arm supporting my head. My hand was getting a little tired scrolling through the photos in my phone. I couldn’t help but to smile bitterly as those photos looked right back at me. Here was one, May 2017, Sunny’s 29th birthday (Korean age), the 3 of us with our dogs. Me and Ginger, Fany with Prince, Sunny with Bunny. And then another one, December 2016, Christmas, Fany and I gave each other the same present, for the 4th time. And this, April 2016, us with the toy mouse she bought to scare me but instead scared the hell out of Ginger instead. Ah and then there was this too, April 2015, Sica’s 27th birthday, me, Sica, Sunny and Fany with the cucumber birthday cake we made for her.

My phone was scorching hot. And I finally put it down. This whole year without this best friend of mine hasn’t been easy. In fact, it has been really difficult. Things were always better with her around. Even if something rotten happened, she would make it better, or at least, she would make it look as if it was better. There were countless times when I felt that I couldn’t continue any more, but every single time, she was there to hold my hand, to pick me up, to push me on. It was difficult to hope for her comfort, when we had quarreled so badly, and when she had to be in America while I was here in Korea. I did try to move on without her, but it never worked. Memories haunted me every night for the first 3 months after we really separated. It was only after that that it stopped hurting that badly, not to say that it didn’t hurt any more though. I slowly acknowledged the fact that with or without her, my life had to go on. With or without her, I still had to be present for my schedules in my best condition. With or without her, I still had to sleep. With or without her, I still had to eat. Fans wouldn’t let us off though. I still had thousands of comments, or was it tens of thousands, coming in on Instagram everyday asking me what happened to TaeNy. Even Yuri would ask me once in a while if something did happened between us because our fans started to ask her on her Instagram too. And each and every time, I only merely managed to brush off her question.

So time flew and it has been more than a year since we separated. 1 year may not be long to some people, but it seemed like a century for me. My best friend had been with me since our trainee days. How long was that? 13…or 14 years? And then all of a sudden, I had to live life without her for one long year. Not that I didn’t contribute to this. To be honest, this fight with her reminded me frequently of what happened between me and Sica years back. Every time I get reminded, I couldn’t help but to laugh about it yet again. My friendship with that woman was in a bad state for more than a year too. And fans were always asking about TaengSic too. I had no idea how to explain to them what happened, but neither could I bring myself to just act like nothing happened. But time always makes things better. And for us, two years was probably finally enough for us to mend our friendship. But still, this one year fight with Fany hurt me much more since I was the closest with her. We were finally going to face this. And honestly, I wasn’t quite ready for this.

*Dee doh* Line’s ringtone sounded.

*Line – 원진이오빠 :) (Wonjin-ee Oppa :))*

Terrence: Sleeping? (자니?) {2:51 KST}

Taeyeon: No. Why aren’t you sleeping? (아니. 왜아직안자?) {2:52 KST}

Terrence: I had a lot of work (일이 많아) {2:52 KST}

Terrence: Don’t you have a schedule later? (나중에 스케줄이 없어?) {2:52 KST}

Taeyeon: Certainly I do. You have work too isn’t it. (있지. 너도 일해야되잖아.) {2:52 KST}

Terrence: Eo. You’re a little weird. (어. 너 좀 이상해.) {2:53 KST}

Taeyeon: Eh? (에?) {2:53 KST}

Taeyeon: No…? (아닌데…?) {2:53 KST}

Taeyeon: Why? (왜?) {2:53 KST}

Terrence: What’s on your mind now? (무슨 생각하니 지금?) {2:53 KST}

Taeyeon: Why… (왜…) {2:56 KST}

Terrence: Just say it (그냥 말해) {2:57 KST}

Taeyeon: Nothing (없어) {2:58 KST}

Terrence: Forget it. I’m going to sleep. (됐어. 잘거야.) {3:10 KST}

Shucks. I just didn’t want to worry him over the same issue again but I probably made him upset.

*Line – 원진이오빠 :) (Wonjin-ee Oppa :))*

Taeyeon: Ya… (야…) {3:11 KST} [Read-3:12 KST]

Taeyeon: Why are you being like this… (왜그래…) {3:14 KST} [Read-3:14 KST]

Taeyeon: Oppa (오빠) {3:15 KST} [Read-3:15 KST]

Taeyeon: Are you going to be keep being like this (자꾸 이럴거야) {3:16 KST} [Read-3:16 KST]

Forget it. He just wasn’t going to reply. I called him directly and it was connected within 2 seconds.

*Phone call -원진이오빠 :) (Wonjin-ee Oppa :))*

Taeyeon: Oh Wonjin stop it. (오원진 그만해.)

Terrence: Stop what? You didn’t want to talk. (뭘? 너 얘기하기 싫잖아.)

Taeyeon: I just didn’t want to worry you over the same issue.

Terrence: Every single time Taeyeon. Every single time it’s like that. You never want me to worry about anything or be there for you when that’s the only thing I can do for you.

Taeyeon: No… It’s not like that… (아냐… 그게 아니라…)

Terrence: I just really need you to trust me that I will always be there for you no matter is it always the same issue that bothers you.

Taeyeon: I know… I’m sorry… (알아… 미안…)

Terrence: No don’t say sorry… Okay can you just…tell me what’s bothering you? I know you’re not fine. (아냐 미안하지마… 그냥…무슨 일인지 나한테 얘기해. 네가 괜찮지 않잖아.)