Can't wait...
A long awaited love for us....
This is it.The time he would be singing for you.The fanmeeting was
going to be over in a few minutes and Beast is about to sing the last
song for tonight and say ''Goodbye''to B2uties.Doojoon is more anxious
than ever.''Just a little more,Fighting!''he says to himself''You can
do it!!''and sighs.He has dedicated this song to you in his mind and
that made him more nervous.
He gets on stage with the others and the music starts to play...
Kikwang starts to sing and the others follow one by one.The atmosphere
is very warm and the crowd is threaled.That made Doojoon to gain power.
''Now it's your turn,don't mess it up...''he thinks nervously and
takes a deep breath.He wants to be perfect for B2uties but most of all
:he wants to be perfect for you.He closes his eyes and starts to sing.
Suddenly,all the screams stop;Doojoon looks around confused.He
starts to sing again but then he realises that he can't!His voice
won't come out!!He panicks and tries again,but even thought his
screams,there's no voice inside him...He is mute!He looks at the other
members who were also panicked and then he looks at the crowd.He
searches for you and he sees you crying.
''NOOOOO!!''screms Doojoon and opens his eyes widely and realises
that he was lying on the bed.He rubs his eyes quickly and wipes off
the sweat from his forehead.
''I was dreaming...it was a nightmare...an awful nightmare...''he
thought and tried to calm down.He looked opposite his bed to check if
Hyunseung was awake.Fortunatelly,he was sleeping.
''I didn't wake him...ouf!''he thought and closed his eyes to sleep
again. but all he can think was the nightmare.The scene where he
couldn't sing and the image of you crying for him,was repeating all
over and over in his head.He decided then to get up so that he would
forget about it and sleep again.
He went to the kitchen and drank some water.He then sat down and
thought about the dream.He tried to confort himself with positive
thoughts:
''This won't happen!It was just a dream..You are trained to sing,you
are a singer!You are just afraid that you'll dissapoint her,that's all''
As he was thinking of all these things,he heard a voice next to him:
You're sleepless too?''It was Yoseob.He was sitting at the living room
before and when he saw you,he went towards you in the kitchen.
''Yeah...why are you sleepless?''asked Doojoon.
''I saw a nightmare...''said Yoseob and sighed.
''Oh...I see...''said Doojoon with understanding.Yoseob looked at him
with curiosity and asked him:''Did you see one too?''
''Yeah,unfortunatelly...''repplied Doojoon.
''What was about?''asked again Yoseob.
''I couldn't sing...''said bitterly Doojoon''I just...didn't have any
voice...''he continued without mentioning of course the rest of the
dream.
''Awww...poor Hyung!''said Yoseob''That's the scariest thing!!''he
continued and looked away.
''What did you dream of?''asked Doojoon.
''I saw that nobody came to our fanmeeting...this dream...I dreamed
that also at our first fanmeeting...''repplied Yoseob sadly.
''You were nervous that's why!You'll see,B2uties will come!''said
Doojoon and smiled.
''Yep,I know!''said Yoseob and smiled back''So,let's do our best Hyung!''
''Let's do that!''said Doojoon.
''Now...I kind of feel better...should we go back to sleep?''asked
Yoseob and looked at the clock.It was 7:00am.
''Now we can't...we should wake up the others...''said Doojoon and
Yoseob nodded.They had to be at the company at 8am.
This was one of the rare cases when Doojoon didn't have any
difficulty to wake the members.As long as he mentioned the word ''
fanmeeting'' all of them opened their eyes wide open,even thought
they were exchausted from yesterday's schedule.They all gathered and
made breakfast.
Kikwang was blindly opening the fridge to take the milk,while Ju-
nhyung was sitting at the sofa watching them sleepily along with
Hyunseung.Dongwoon was sitting at the table and he was eating a choco bar.
Doojoon was making coffee for them with Yoseob,since they were fully
awake.When they sat to have breakfast,Kikwang asked them what they
were feeling about the fanmeeting:
''Today is the fanmeeting...!How do you feel?''he said and smiled
sleepily.The others looked at him and answered:
''Excited!''
''Happy!''
''Anxious''
''Afraid''
''Confused''
were some of the words they said all of them,but they weren't sure
about it.It was that strange feeling the got everytime a fanmeeting
was coming...it was a mixture of excitement and anxiousness and
happiness.
''I think though that is gonna be alright...we worked hard,right?''
said Kikwang.The others nodded hesitatly.
''Me too!''agreed Yoseob''Fighting!''he said and raised his cup of
coffee.The others laughed at his act,agreeded and smiled.
Then Doojoon's phone rang;it was their manager.
''Let's go!They are here!''he said.
10am,at your house
''Wake up little,it's 10o'clock!''the voice of Seung gi,woke you up.
You slowly opened your eyes and looked at him sleepily.He was still
in his pijamas and seemed to have been awake for a while.
''Siro[I don't want to!''you said and turned to the other side of the
bad.You covered up with the covers and tried to fall asleep again,
but then you remebered what day was today...the day of the fanmeeting!
You uncovered your head quickly and looked at your cousin,who was
now looking at you back,surprised with your sudden reaction.
''Change of plans?You decided finally to wake up?''he asked.
''Yeah...what time is it?''you asked him.
''I told you...it's 10am.Why?''he said.
''Nothing!''you quickly replied.
''Not nothing...you have to explain me something...remember?''he said
pointing at your love mark.
''I know...''you said and blushed''just let me have breakfast and I
will explain you evrything...''
''Ok!''he said and smirked.
While you were eating,Seung gi was watching you and smirked or
giggled from times to times.You tried to ignore him but you couldn't:
''Here comes the teasing...''you said and sighed''What will he do
when he finds out who he is?''You felt already embarassed and his
teasing was making your embarassement worse.You were staring at him
from times to times but he didn't seem to understand you signal and
didn't stop teasing.
As you finished your breakfast,you looked at him and he smirked at
you,reminding you that it was the time for you to speak.You rolled
back your eyes and smirked.
''Is m mother here?''you asked.
''No,she went to buy groceries...why you're asking?''he said.
''Because she doesn't know about it...''you said timidly.
''Oh..hiding things from your own mother?''he said and gigled.
''It's not that...''you said seriously''when you hear,you'll
understand why I haven't told her yet...''SEung gi was looking at you
puzzled.''So what do you wanna know?''
''Who is it?He must be very patient to get along with you...''he said
to tease you and smirked.
''Aish...''you cursed''stop teasing me or else...''
''Or else what?''
''I won't tell you!''
''OK,ok I stop...''he said seriously.
''So...''you started talking again''you may know him...''
''How?''he asked with curiocity.
''He...works in the entertainment area...''you repplied him.
''Really?''he asked surprised and you nodded timidly''and what is he?
Is he an actor,singer?''
''He is..''you started to speak when your phone rang;it was your mom.
she was outside and wanted hepl to bring the bags inside.Before you
both go outside,you said to him:
''Don't ask anything else now...you'll see him tonight!''
''You're gonna introduce him to me?''he asked happily.
''Kind of...''you said and smiled.
6pm,backstage of Beast
The final rehearsal was doing very well and everything was set for
tonight.THis fact was making the members less stressed but they knew
well that this situation could easily change by the slightest mistake
they could do.That's why,every member had their equipment and clothes
double-checked.At the end of the rehearshal,there was a little problem
with the sound but it was quickly resolved.
When the rehearsal was over,they all had dinner,which ate very fast
due to their exhausion and hunger.AS they were resting at the backstage
all members were talking,except doojoon who was lost in his thoughts.
In the rush of preparations,he had forgotten to text you as he used
to evry morning.He regretted that because he really wanted to hear
from you,especially now that he was double anxious:about the fanmeeting
and the fact that you would watch him on stage.
Joker realised that Doojoon was feeling down,so he sat next to him
and said:''Hyung are you ok?You are so silent today...don't worry!We
will laugh at your jokes!''he continued and smirked but Doojoon looked
at him seriously so he stopped teasing him.
''I'm kidding...just tell me,are you alright?''Doojoon looked at him.
''I'm fine...just tired and anxious as always..''doojoon said,but in
fact it was the first time that he was that anxious.He never had lost
his humoreven though the pressure but this time it was different:he
felt to pressured.He just wanted to talk to you and forget everything...
''Have you talked to your family today?''said Joker as he heard his
answer''They always give me courage!''
''No,I haven't!''Doojoon said'''You think it may work?''
''I'm sure!Haven't you tried before?''asked Junhyung.
''I don't know...I usually talk to my parents everyday so...I haven't
noticed''said Doojoon and that's when a new idea popped into his head
and smirked.''I should call her and hear her voice...it'll sure help
me relax!I just have to find a place when I won't be heard!''
''Kamsamnida Junhyung!''he said and slightly smiled.He became more and
more excited about his idea.He left the room quietly and started to
search for a quiet spot where he won't be noticed.
He wandered around the backstage area,trying to find the best place
possible;that turned out to be a very difficult task since the members
of the staff were almost everywhere,resting like them or taking care
of the final preparations.He thought that he couldn't find any place,
when suddenly he found some stairs,leading to somewhere higher,maybe
a next floor.He started to take them and he realised that they were
leading to the terrace.
''Not bad at all...''he said to himself and smiled.He sat at a bench
which was there and dialed your number impatiently.
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AS the day went by and the hours until the fanmeeting were decreasing
,you felt more and more excited and nervous!You were trying to forget
about that but you couldn't contain your feelings and the fact that
Doojoon haven't contacted you yet as he used to do every morning,was
making you more anxious about today.
Now you were hanging out with Martina at a cafe near your place.
Seung gi was busy so it was a great chance to ask her about him and
learn what happened between them the day before.It was also a good
way to forget your own worries.
''Tell me what happened...''you said to her,blinking your eye.
''What do you mean?''she asked confused.
''With you and Seung gi...''you continued and smirked.
''Nothing happened...''she said and blushed''we talked and...''
she continued but stopped.Her excitement and shyness couldn't be
hidden.
''And what?''you asked with curiosity.
''As we were leaving...''she said slowly''he my hair...''she
continued and blushed more.
''Wow!You...like him?''you asked her excited.
''Maybe,I don't know...''she said and sighed ''What if he doesn't like
me?''
''Don't be stupid!He must like you to act like that,but let me find it
out...''you said and winked.
''What will you do?''she asked.
''You'll see...''you answered and smirked once more.
(at somepoint you became the subject of conversation)
''So tell me...what about Doojoon?Have you talked since yesterday?''
she asked.You looked at her sadly and sighed.You knew of course that
Doojoon probably would be too busy to text you due to the preparations
for the fanmeeting but on the other hand,your insecurities didn't
leave you calm down.
''No,and that's what frightens me...''you answered.
''He must be busy!You'll see each other in a few hours,so it's not a
big deal,right?''
''Yeah...of course it's not a big deal!But I'm afraid he may...''
''He may what?''she asked you.
''Got used to me...''you said and lowered your head.
''What are you saying?He barely sees you and got used to you?Now,you
are being silly...''
''I-I...''you started to say something to defend yourself,when the
phone rang and interrupted you.Fortunatelly it was Doojoon;as long as
you saw his name on the screen,a huge smile formed in your face.You
picked up it quickly and stood up to talk to him.You couldn't stay
seaten,everytime you spoke to him due to the excitement.
''Yabouseyo?'''you said happily.
''Annyong my beautiful!''he repplied with a sweet voice.
''Annyong Doojoonie!''you said with an aegyo voice''How are you?''
''I'm very excited about tonight but tired also...''he repplied and
you noticed the fatigue in his voice''And you?Missing me?''he
continued and giggled.
''I'm excited too and YES I'M MISSING YOU OF COURSE BABO!!''you
repplied cheerfully and giggled too.
''I'm missing you too,that's why I called...to hear your voice...''
he said timidly.
''Jinja?''you asked him.
''Yes...''he said and then another voice was heard from inside from
where you were:
''Is it him?The boy that survived...''It was Seung gi.You stared at
him''Survived from what?''you asked him angrily.
''From you of course!''he said and smirked.
''Stop it!''you said and then turned to Doojoon ''Sorry,that was my
beloved cousin!!''you said pointing out sarcastically the word
''beloved''.
''It's ok!''said Doojoon and gigled''What are your news?''
''Hmm...actually I am waiting all day to see you...that's all...''
you whispered into the speaker so that the others won't listen you.
''Heehhe''giggled timidly Doojoon.Then Seung gi spoke again:
''No wonder he is a great guy as I mentioned before...putting up
with you...''
''Aish...!Shut up you babo!!''you said angrily to him and then
turned to Doojoon''That wasn't for you of course!My stupid cousin
keeps teasing me...''you complained to Doojoon.
''I don't know...you should get along with your family...''said
Doojoon to tease you trying not to laugh.You pouted and Seungri asked
you what Doojoon said.
''That I should get along with you...''you repplied pretending to be
angry.
''I like him already!!''said Seung gi and laughed.Doojoon laughed too
and then spoke to you:
''I'm teasing you too...sorry baby,but you are so cute when you get
angry...''he said and you melted in his words.How could you get angry
at him?
''Awwww...''you said''you are forgiven for this time!''you said and
laughed.He laughed back.
''Sorry but I have to hang up now...see you in 4hours,ok?''he said.
''It's ok!See ya Doojoonie!!''you repplied and waited for him to hung
up.''Hang up!''you said to him.
''Ok,ok I'm hanging up...hehhe''he said and laughed''In 4 hours...''
he whispered and hung up.
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