The last two days have been agonizing, I mean if I have to get there by a certain time, after she drops the letter off that means she’s still in the city, she knows how I’m doing, or she’s been keeping up with SHINee in some way right? Walking out into the park with The Tree, and the bridge where I gave her our promise ring, getting there at 12:15, not too early and not too late I hope.

Scanning the bridge from afar it being completely deserted, except for the basket and balloons on the ledge, walking over to it examining it I notice the letter on taped on the strings of the balloons, a light blue letter. Picking up the basket after pulling the letter off I sit it on the ground and lean against the wall of the bridge taking a few deep breaths as I tear the letter open.

Dear Onew,

                I’m sure this has been running through your mind, how exactly I’m getting everything to you, and to be fair I guess and as a measure of good faith I’ll tell you… I’m dropping everything off, or getting a couple of my friends to for the more risky drops. To be honest I’m starting to enjoy this writing you letters for you to follow them along, hopefully keeping them. Well we should press on…

In the mornings I was always thankful that the first thing I saw each and every morning was you, it didn’t matter if we had been fighting, or just didn’t feel like being around each other for whatever reason, I was always glad that you’d still fall asleep next to me, and wrap your arms around me so that I knew I wasn’t alone when I woke up.

Reason Thirty One: Waking up next to me

I always was impressed, and adored how brave you are, even if it is due to you being oblivious to some things. Your fans never really liked me, but you’d say to them just as if they were your close friends. ‘I love her, so leave it.’ Never ashamed to express how you feel about me, even if they’re rabid fans, your friends, label-mates, anyone.

Reason Thirty Two: Saying ‘I love you’ proudly

All the times when guys would walk up to me, completely ignorant of the fact we’re together, they’d be hitting on me and I’d ask them to leave me alone to flat out telling them to leave. You’d come to my rescue only having to say ‘Back the hell off, she’s with me and I’m with her.’

Reason Thirty Three: When you tell someone to leave me alone because we’re together, we’re dating, we’re in love

When we go to parties and we get separated or when you perform and I’m left alone and girls come up to me telling me off, saying how I don’t deserve you and each time me almost believing it until you appear behind me saying ‘I don’t deserve her.’ You’d then whisk me away in your arms leading me away from them telling me how wrong they are.

Reason Thirty Four: Saving me whenever I need it

Some nights I stayed up and always thought about how amazing and stunned that you’re dating me, staying with me, and love me. I’m still completely baffled as to why you chose me even after all the times you explain that to me.

Reason Thirty Five: Being with me

The next letter will be at the little café at the table where we met on in three days same time as we met. Don’t be early and don’t be late. Love you always ... <3

Soon-Kyu

Smiling I think back on Soon-Kyu her always by my side when I needed her no matter what… I miss her being in my arms at night, the way she’d cuddle closer to me. The smell of her dark brown hair, always of strawberries or vanilla depending on the month. How at night I’d always dream of her, seeing us together awake and asleep. I like to wake up from my dreams so that I can see you in my life always, in my arms protected… at least you were, and finally the way you look when sleeping, a complete and total angel.

Reason Thirty One: At night when you cuddle closer when you’re asleep

Reason Thirty Two: The way your hair smells

Reason Thirty Three: You always make me dream of you

Reason Thirty Four: You sleep in my arms, always

Reason Thirty Five: The beauty you have even when asleep

Thank god for that little café being completely crowded that day…

Sorry, I'm having a hard time thinking of reasons for Onew enjoy this chapter (:

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