At practice with the guys completely focused, “Alright guys that’s it.” Our manager says smiling. “Let’s go.”

Following him out, and getting dropped off first I see the green envelope sticking on the side, quickly hopping out with a sudden burst of energy I tear it off smiling, I can read her words again. The paper smells like her, I can smell it wafting towards me, or at least I think I do.

Dear Onew,

                Sorry for the wait, I didn’t mean for so much time to go by, but I couldn’t write. It hurts not to have you here with me, but I’ll be strong just for you like I know you are being for me. I’m hoping you’re continuing on with your life, not waiting for these letters, writing down your reasons as you realize them.

                Do you remember when we went on walks and you’d walk behind me and your hands on my sides? You’d then proceed to rub my sides, causing me to melt into you incandescently. Becoming completely elated that you’re there for me and knowing you’d always be there.

Reason Twenty-One: When you run your hands up my sides

I know your know what you do next, you spin me around dancing completely and totally in love dancing around like fools until you pull me back into your arms with your waiting lips for mine. Kissing me, people stared and said ‘how cute!’

Reason Twenty-Two: Kissing me in public

Having you to sleep next to, I miss this a lot. I’d watch you sleep some nights when I couldn’t sleep or if I was upset about something. If I got lucky you were dreaming and would murmur words in your sleep, mostly incoherent, but then you’d say ‘Soon-Kyu’

Reason Twenty-Three: While you sleep, you murmur my name

All these reasons made my heart soar, it made me so happy, but this one made me ecstatic, I mean who wouldn’t be? We’d been dating a while so we were having lunch with your friends, chicken of course, and you’d said “You know what guys?” Looking at your curious you answered while smiling at me. “I love Soon-Kyu more than chicken.”

Reason Twenty-Four: When you told your friends ‘I love her more than chicken’

Later that day I’d gone home after spending the day with you guys, tired I was watching T.V. when my phone began to ring and I saw your number flash on it, answering quickly and happily.

Reason Twenty-Five: When I see your number flash on my screen, when you call to say ‘hello’

Each of these reasons made my heart skip a few beats; each one is reminding me why I love you so much. <3 The next will be on your mailbox.

Soon-Kyu <3<3

Smiling at the letter I sigh walking into our house quickly taking a shower before pulling out the bad of paper with my reasons listed, jotting down my next five.

Reason Twenty-One: The face you make when I whisper ‘Hello’ in your ear

Reason Twenty-Two: How you lean into me while we sit in bed talking

Reason Twenty-Three: You’re distracting when you come to practice, but I love it

Reason Twenty-Four: How it only took a few days with you in my life to know you’re the one for me

Reason Twenty-Five: Knowing that you love me, the same way I love you

Soon-Kyu I don’t want the letters to stop, but I want you back in my arms…