Sitting here with the letter in my hand at the fountain made me nervous; she’s almost half way with writing her letters, picking places that hold a lot of good memories for me to pick the letter up at. Finally tearing the letter open and pulling it out with m hand shaking, please let me find you soon…

Dear Onew,

                I hope you’re enjoying life still; the fountain is nice, I haven’t been in a long time, but sometimes I still go to the other places that hold so much for us when I feel like I can’t go on. Our relationship was strained in an odd way, not one most couples had to deal with…your fans can be quite vicious, some could be nice but generally they never approved of us dating, not that either of us cared. But even with all of the hate, rumors and what not they flung at us, it was worth it all, each kiss, embrace, and even fight…

Do you remember the first time we were fighting? It was pretty serious, I wanted to move for a job offer, and you wanted me to stay at the job I wanted. We’d stopped talking for days; I’d gone so far as to start sleeping in the guest room, letting you have our room to yourself. After a couple weeks of us arguing about it you just walked over to me, sighing, and apologized and told me if I want us to move you’d follow me to America if that’s what it took to get us to start talking again without fighting.

Reason Forty One: The way you walk over to me

Our time together wasn’t always happy as I’m sure you remember we fought a lot to get to where we are…were. There was this one fight, it wasn’t that bad we’d just finally stopped talking for an hour or so, I was tired of fighting about whatever it had been, and so  had you, sitting next to me you told me a joke after apologizing, and it made me smile, you then started to tickle causing me to laugh.

Reason Forty Two: Making me smile and laugh around you

One time we’d been talking and I told you that my parents wanted me to move back home with them, because they didn’t believe I could be a translator. They thought I was wasting my time and I was starting to believe them, you then told me not to. I thought it was so you wouldn’t be left alone, and I am regretful for that. Your reason, however, was that you knew I could it, you didn’t think my parents were right, and neither should I.

Reason Forty Three: You always believe in me

I’m sure you remember all the nights I stayed up late studying or working, you’d always told me I needed to relax a little and I told you later. After a few days of me working straight through the nights, and sleeping during the day you took me out on a date. The amazing night we spent together showed me a lot. We’d gone on a walk and you talked to me like I was your reason for life, it was touching. We’d walked by a couple’s wedding, something that made us smile, and they told us how ‘This is an amazing thing and you two will defiantly end up together,’ it was magic.

Reason Forty Four: The magic you showed me

Even while you’re not here, and thinking about all the times we’ve had together, and memories we have I still get butterflies in my stomach. This effect you have over me is uneasy sentiment…

Reason Forty Five: You still give me butterflies

And we come to another end, Onew, I miss and love you, but the more time I’m given to think about it and I hate myself for even thinking it, but I’m starting to doubt you love me…

The next letter will be at the swing set in four days around noon.

Soon-Kyu

That line ‘I’m starting to doubt you love me…’ it broke my heart.

Reason Forty One: You’re completely honest with me

Reason Forty Two: You’ve stayed by my side all this time

Reason Forty Three: Even if I don’t admit it, you still make me nervous

Reason Forty Four: You’re a dedicated person and I admire that about you

Reason Forty Five:  All the time you’ve been in my life has been the best years of my life

Make no mistake, I love you Soon-Kyu.

Sorry for the delay, I couldn't figure out a way for these reasons @W@;; But I think this chapter turned out well, and that this is actually turning out a lot better than I thought, I had my doubts because I have to write it in Onew's POV to tell the story. Thank-you for everyone that's commented and subscribed! I'm going to try to update again today. (:

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