Waiting is the worst thing in the world, always having to guess when she’ll leave them or the anticipation of receiving one of her letters, it’s all so stressful.

“You know it said three days.” Minho says sitting next to me on the couch, “You’ve been staying for the full three days.”

“I know, but I don’t see you guys that much anymore.” I tell them sprawled out on the floor. “It’s difficult to do all this by myself.”

Taemin grins at me. “Hyung you’re brave.” He says looking at me. “You’re sticking with Soon-Kyu even though she might give up, you’re fighting through this.”

Glancing at him I just nod my head, when I see the note slip in through the mail slot, running over to it I rip it open ignoring the fact I could have had her back in my life if I looked out the door, but I’m going to stick with the plan she’s set out.

Dear Onew,

                I hope you’re enjoying your time with your friends, maybe Key didn’t enjoy me having you stay, but the diva will get over it. I know they’re all worried about you; they’d be insane not to worry.

You used to complain to me about all the things wrong with you, your flaws. I never understood how you saw them as things wrong with you, things needing to be fixed or that were just broken, because Onew you are far from all that. Sure you may trip all over the place and you have a tendency to be a bit klutz, but I don’t see it that way at all. I find all your little antics a bit hilarious.

Reason Seventy Six: You aren’t clumsy; you’re just a bit unstable

Maybe I’m a little crazy, but when anyone made fun of your eyes I didn’t get it. They’re perfect. I love the brown color of them and that in the right time they shine from how happy you are. They reflect exactly what you’re feeling and not once have they ever lied to me, I was just too stubborn to admit to them.

Reason Seventy Seven: You don’t have funny eyes; they’re perfect they show exactly what you feel

Onew despite what you think I’m not really that angry with you anymore, I don’t hate you, I don’t want you dead, in fact I want you alive and well, I love you and that won’t change, never. What makes me angry is that it wasn’t me, I’m jealous, upset that you couldn’t trust me enough with your needs. Onew we could have talked about it instead of your going out to find it in some girl. I’m not pissed at what you said, I just wish Onew you could have talked to me.

Reason Seventy Eight: I’m not angry at what you said, I’m angry it wasn’t me

Your insecurities are nothing, they don’t mean a thing. Onew I’m dating you for you, I’m dating you because I’m attracted to you as a person, the funny, cute, chicken loving man that you are. If you couldn't sing, dance or perform that wouldn’t change my perspective on you. My relationship is with you, a beautiful and talented man, and one who makes me happy, and tries his best to be sure that I am happy.

Reason Seventy Nine: I wouldn’t leave you if your couldn’t dance or sing; I’m with you not your talent

Out of all the things you say to me none of them stick as much as ‘I love you’, but all the cheesy things you say to me come pretty close. I may roll my eyes, or pretend that you hadn’t said it, but Onew I love that you say things like that, you say what comes you your mind and let me tell you, I’m glad that you do.

Reason Eighty: Being cheesy isn’t bad, it’s actually really sweet coming from you

Jonghyun’s apartment two days sweetie.

Soon-Kyu<3

Reason Seventy Six: How you fall asleep on my lap while I’m reading

Reason Seventy Seven: When I tuck you in your grasp around my hand tells me that you love me still

Reason Seventy Eight: Your tendency to dance around when you get extremely happy

Reason Seventy Nine: You never hid things from me

Reason Eighty: The sound of your voice sending me on edge

Looking at Taemin and Minho I sit next to them a smile plastered on my face, the way she’s writing sounds like she’s starting to forgive me.

I wrote this, and I was obviously thinking about sleeping XD

Sorry for the delay but as I get close to the end the sadder I get. D;

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