The Heart Sheds Tears

Pure Pain, Undiluted

Since Shin Woo told Mi Nyu to get away from him, she did not insist in going near him anymore. Tae Kyung noticed his girlfriend becoming dreary as the days go by, so he insisted on talking with her.

"What's wrong with you, Pig Rabbit?" he asked in exasperation. "Why are you being like this?"

Mi Nyu shook her head sadly. She did not want to expose her secret. She was sorry that it turned this way, and she felt that she was going to hurt him sooner or later.

"I cannot make you talk. I am gonna ask everybody around here," he threatened.

"No, Hyungnim, please don't!" she pleaded.

Tae Kyung seemed to sense some secret. "And why not?"

Mi Nyu fought back tears. "They are not included in my problem. It is just me.... So please don't go asking other people..."

Tae Kyung gritted his teeth in hopelessness.

"If I could not get an answer from you, nor from anybody else, where can I get them?"

"Hyungnim...." she replied.

"Aish, never mind, Pig Rabbit. Whatever it is, I will find out very soon," he threatened.

She held his arm, but he pulled it off.

"Somehow, I had a feeling that you are hiding something from me," he sullenly told her before walking away.

"Hyungnim.... joesonghamnida...."

*******

Mi Nyu was becoming hopeless that she loitered in the veranda every night and be with Jolie. Jolie was her only consolation when she felt that she could not talk with anybody about her problem.

"Jolie, eotteokhaji....????"

The dog her face and rubbed her head on Mi Nyu's lap.

From afar, Shin Woo could only look at her. He found it totally annoying that she was occupying his favorite hangout too.

"Jolie, I have no consolation but you. And this place, this place reminds me of Shin Woo...."

She remembered the time when Shin Woo let her on his secrets about killing dogs and about the clumsy girl. He, at one time, tended her wounds in this very place. It was also here that he taught her how to make her autograph. Thinking of those made her cry.

"Those were the moments that I took for granted, Jolie. If only I could turn back time and had been more aware, I could have fallen in love with Shin Woo-hyung back then...."

Tears started falling down her face again as she stood up to go to her room.

******

She had downloaded an mp3 of "Purest Of Pain" to her cellphone, and she had handwritten the lyrics in her notebook. She clicked on her mp3 player and read the lyrics as she listened.

Sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.

She remembered the caller without a voice. And according to Mi Nam, the number belonged to Shin Woo.

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
but there's something, baby that you need to know.
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking.

"But you hate me already, hyung," she said as she shed more tears.

Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,
the air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste the purest of pain.

Feeling the heartache over again was too much.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better everyday
that it didn't hurt when you walk away,
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking...

"But I guess you have moved on...."

Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,
the air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste the purest of pain.

*******

Aunt Mi Ja was happy indeed, for Mi Nam and Mi Nyu threw a small birthday celebration for her. It was evening time, and the gang was dismissed early for Aunt Mi Ja. Shin Woo was on the go to buy some presents, and Jeremy had to start without him.

First, Jeremy boasted his MC skills and welcomed everybody to the celebration. Then he and the rest of them sang the birthday song. Aunt Mi Ja cupped her face with her hands and smiled widely.

"Ah.... gomapda...."

Then, the MC called on the twins to sing a song. Mi Nyu and Mi Nam sang "Maybe" by Sunye. Then, Tae Kyung was forced to sing "Answer The Phone" and act ala Mina. Jeremy was laughing so hard to see Tae Kyung embarrassed.

     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBxSJPypdic&feature=player_embedded#!

"Hyung, at least, it is just inside the house!" Mi Nam told him, but Tae Kyung did not know that Mi Nam was filming the entire variety show thing.

Jeremy was giggling too.

Then, after the dance, Tae Kyung and Mi Nyu sang "Someday" by IU. And lastly, Tae Kyung and Mi Nam sang "Mona Lisa" by MBLAQ.

"I am sooo happy," the ajumma said as she clapped her hands.

"Let's all go and eat," Jeremy said, rubbing his hungry belly.

All of them got ready to the dining room and arranged the remaining dishes. Shin Woo came in, looking happy.

"O, hyung, that's a miracle," Mi Nam said with a smile. "You're unusually happy today."

"Ne, I am," he answered.

Everybody save for Mi Nyu asked him. (Even Tae Kyung!).

"Ah, you are bringing Hyun Joong-hyung?" Tae Kyung asked.

Shin Woo shook his head. Then, he let someone follow him inside the house. The visitor came in, and the people gasped.

"Na.. Nana?" Mi Nyu answered in astonishment.

"Nana" came in shyly, and Shin Woo put his hand on her waist. Mi Nyu looked at it jealously.

"Guys, meet Hong Ri Ja, my girlfriend," Shin Woo introduce proudly.

*Crash*

Mi Nyu heard her heart broke. Did she just hear it right?

"Oh, hyung! She looks just like Nana of After School!" Mi Nam said happily.

"Hmm... she looks just like Nana. Nana is beautiful too," Tae Kyung remarked.

Mi Nyu looked at Tae Kyung. Strange. So strange. She did not get jealous nor angry at Tae Kyung's comment at all. She was supposed to. She's his girlfriend!

"Wow! It's not only Tae Kyung-hyung who is on the verge of marriage!" Jeremy teased.

"Ohh.... Mr. Kang is indeed a man!" Aunt Mi Ja commented. "Getting a pretty girlfriend!"

Shin Woo stepped forward with her and introduced her to everybody, and everybody to her. When he introduced her to Mi Nyu, his approach was the casual one, and Mi Nyu greeted the girl awkwardly with a polite bow.

"She's so aegyo...." Ri Ja said as she pinched Mi Nyu by the cheeks.

"Yes, she is! My sister is very cute," Mi Nam said proudly.

Aunt Mi Ja escorted everyone to the table, and had them sit down. Mi Nam let her sit on the head. After appreciating the food, all of them ate up.

"So, Shin Woo, were did you meet her?" Tae Kyung asked, trying his best to be nice.

Shin Woo was unusually in a good mood, so he told them that she is Hyun Joong's cousin. They met a month ago. He liked her a lot so he courted her.

"Wow! You got the boss's cousin!" Jeremy remarked.

Shin Woo blushed at his remarks. He held her hand, and the guys were teasing them about it. Mi Nyu only bowed her head and pretended not to listen to their conversation. It was so hard to pretend.

"You're Mi Nyu, right?" Ri Ja asked.

Mi Nyu got out of her trance and looked at her.

"Uh...ye..."

"Shin Woo-oppa said that he has an aunt, a hyung, two namdongsaeng (male younger sibling) and a yeodongsaeng (female younger sibling) living with him," she told her happily.

It was heartbreaking for Mi Nyu. Not only was Ri Ja calling Shin Woo as her oppa, Shin Woo also introduced Mi Nyu as his yeodongsaeng.

"G...geurae?" Mi Nyu asked in an uneasy manner.

"Ne," Ri Ja amiably said. "From the first time Shin Woo-oppa said your name, I saw that you are really cute. I really like to be your friend."

Ouch.

Mi Nyu could feel her heart being crumpled, but she managed to smile. Her hurt was relieved when Mi Nam interrupted and told them about the recording of the variety show.

"Neo (You)!" Tae Kyung snapped angrily at Mi Nam.

As most of them were having fun, Mi Nyu kept herself in her own brokenhearted world, listening to the sound of her rainy tears falling from her heart.

****************

After dinner, Mi Nyu thought it was best not to stay at the veranda for fear that anyone would see her cry. She lied, saying she was tired and sleepy, so she went to her room. Shin Woo did not even bother to look at her, as he was totally enjoying his time with his girlfriend. He was proud to have her in his life. Ri Ja was totally elegant and friendly and ladylike. She was 180 degrees to Yoo He Yi.

***************

Mi Nyu turned off the lights in her room and buried her face on the pillow. She just wanted to cry in the dark. She was totally hurt that Shin Woo got a girlfriend, and she sobbed much.

Then, she remembered what Mi Nam said: to check her feelings.

Yes, she needed to confront her feelings. She remembered not feeling jealous of Tae Kyung's remark on Nana, and she remembered getting jealous at Ri Ja.

"Have I really... fallen in love with Shin Woo-hyung?"

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yope0827 #1
Chapter 24: thank you miss-hitomi. i love your stories. i love reading it and you completing it. thank you
KuchikiAra
#2
Chapter 23: I loved this chapter. I wish there weere more ShinWoo/MiNyu moments.
KuchikiAra
#3
Chapter 22: I'm conflicted. Ri Ja's death is a sad ending, and I would have liked to see more of Shin Woo and Mi Nyu's relationship evolving. They haven't really been close since she went to Africa.
KuchikiAra
#4
Chapter 20: It has to be a happy ending, because just when I thought "Mi Nyu will stop crying know, she sees to be ok now..." she's crying again and I'm crying with her. Though I cannot blame Shin Woo for loving another person, really
KuchikiAra
#5
Chapter 16: ... poor Tae Kyung and poor Shin Woo. All I can think about this is "Badly done, Mi Nyu. Badly done indeed."
KuchikiAra
#6
Chapter 15: Ok, so finally a nice moment between Shin Woo and Mi Nyu (even if she's still harboring those hopeless feelings) and Tae Kyung finally is starting to see what's going on with her girlfriend. Also,Shin Woo's girlfriend is just so nice.... Uff, this whole situation is just sad and complicated.
KuchikiAra
#7
Chapter 13: I hope that, just like Basha and Popoy, Mi Nyu and Shin Woo could get one more chance. Meanwhile, I'm also praying to see a more resilient Mi Nyu... I don't like to kow she's crying and hurting in every chapter until now.
KuchikiAra
#8
Chapter 10: I'd love to see Mi Nyu and Shin Woo together, but I'm not really liking Mi Nyu now. I mean, she's still Tae Kyung's girlfriend and it's not fair to him that she's crying over his bandmate when they are together.
SapphireBlueWorld_18 #9
Chapter 23: Did Shin Woo really love Ri Ja? Or was his love for Mi Nyu just being suppressed inside him? I'm a bit bothered that he fell in love with another girl even though in the end he ended up with Mi Nyu...
Sheimen23 #10
Chapter 24: Very nice story..I was having a chest pain reading your fanfic..I was sad and thought that Shinwoo will not end up with Mi Nyu...but thank God, they got married in the end...thanks...more stories of our Dooley couple..fighting...