SoYeon's POV

DISMISSAL

Going home.. homeworks are starting to flood my notebook again.. sigh*..

I was about to leave the school gate and I saw JinYoung with his friends.. >.< he always appear in every sight >.<..

His friends were like teasing him.. o.O?.. his friends were also singing a love song to him.. I think something good happen to Jinyoung with his crush >.<...

=__=.. I wonder how it would feel if Jinyoung actually had a crush on me... ngyaaaa~ that's not gonna happen.. I mean I'm almost invisible in his sight.. anyways... kya~! he's actually bringing my marker to his home! >.<..

I arrived at home... =__=.. "I'm home.." saying to myself.. haiyzz.. nobody's home yet.. my parents are super busy with their work.. but I can't blame them to be busy.. that's why I need to do better at school! sigh*.. I have a little sister, she's with mom at work.. and.... my family is not rich or poor, we are just an average family living an average life.. 

I went up to my room and placed my bag on my bed.. and lazily lied down on my bed.. sigh*

life.. =_=..hate the fact that it has to be this hard.. O_O.. oh yeah I have to do my homeworks!

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Morning

I fell asleep while making my homeworks.. O_O my dream was wierd.. Jinyoung was helping me with my homeworks? and then he suddenly smiled at me o.O? but I didn't felt awkward.. my dream is that crazy xD..

I went downstairs and I saw my father eating as well as my sister

"Unnie~! let's eat unnie~!" my sister said, >.< she's so cute~

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I finished my morning routine and went to school..

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I arrived at school.. it seems like it's still early.. I went to my classroom.. no sign of my classmates.. 

I saw our notebooks on the teacher's table, the notebooks we passed yesterday to our homeroom teacher, I was searching for mine.. 

tap* tap* "oh~ SoYeon-ssi, good morning, here is your marker by the way, thanks for letting be borrow it" O_O Jinyoung! "oh, hehehe..g..g.. goodmorning.." >.< awkward.. "oh this is our notebooks right?" he asked and I just nodded.. He was also searching for his notebook.. it's actually only me and Jinyoung in this room.. >.< I can see his hand so so so close to mine.. he found his notebook.. but I wasn't able to find mine.. I can't concentrate on searching for my notebook because Jinyoung is infront of me... "Jinyoung come! hurry up! you'll love this!" his friends called him from the door.. "ok! I'm coming!" Jinyoung said.

ok.. now alone in the classroom again.. still haven't found mine....after 5 minutes.. yes! at last.. =_= what took this notebook to show up so long.. T_T

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class started, Math class started 1st.. =_= 

the teacher was discussing our first lesson while everyone was always yawning.. I looked at Jinyoung.. it seems like he understood what the teacher was saying =_=.. he's so perfect.. 

the teacher gaved us activities AND two girls went near Jinyoung and asked for his help T_T help? hmmp.. they just went near him to flirt.. well.. I think only Jinyoung understood the lesson.. "Yah~ SoYeon-ah! let's ask Jinyoung how to do this.." HyoRi said, "what?! no way.. I'd rather ask the teacher... I'll die if I'll go near him again.." I said, "but the teacher is scary..anyways..Suit yourself.. but I'll ask him, or else we will get 0 in our quiz today" Quiz?! we'll have a quiz?! =__=.. I'll not go near Jinyoung.. never!.. so I just read my book.. and had my self study.. T_T.. 

study... T_T this is so hard!... study... study.. I think I finally understood it.. ha! beat that Jinyoung.. I'll not ask you! xD...>.< but I actually want to go near him.. but I'll just hate myslef for doing so..

the quiz started....

after 15 minutes.. "ok stop answering!.. exchange your papers to you seatmate" the teacher said, we exchanged papers with HyoRi...

checking... wa~.. I got perfect bwahahahaha >.< I'm starting to be evil xD... 

"who got perfect?" the teacher asked, then HyoRi held my hand up.. "oh Ms. Jang very good" the teacher said, "anyone else?" the teacher asked.. none... 

"How about your Mr. Jung? almost everyone was asking for your help." the teacher called Jinyoung.. "ani.. I got 5 wrongs.." O_O 5 wrongs?.. why?.. T_T.. I thought he understood the lesson..

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Lunch time started..

I was walking with HyoRi to the library.. then I saw Jinyoung and his friends and.... Minyoung... 

..... they look good together... sigh* I wish I could be that girl.. Jinyoung really likes her huh?.. I passed by Jinyoung.. this is so sad.. for him that event this morning was nothing... he really thinks I'm just his classmate.. when I actually treat him differently..

it hurts a lot.. I'm secretly crushing on him for 3 years already.. oh! I forgot to tell you how I came to like him...

3 years ago I was a new student in my school...but it started in a Sunday morning.. a day before school starts... it was the last day of summer.. I first saw him in a restaurant.. he was working something on his laptop...

At first I didn't mind him.. so I just passed by..

At school... 1st say of school.. I was entering the school gate.. everyone was searching for their homerooms.. I was just looking at them.. waiting for them to get finished.. then it started here.. "oh hi~ your a new student right?" it's Jinyoung "ne.." I replied, I thought.. "I think I saw him before.."  I was feeling nervous, a guy talked to me even though I look weird.. my hair was short back then but I still have my bangs.. "what's your name?" he asked "Jang SoYeon.." I replied, "Oh~ wait here" .....

wait...wait... "your from class C" O_O he searched for my name.. >.< he's so nice.. my eyes went round and looked at him "Oh.. kamsahabnida.." I said.. with my awkward voice.. and that all started.. =D

3 years.. since I started to school here.. I had a crush on Jinyoung without him knowing.. and I think he forgot my name back then, but I hope he knows my name right now.. since we are classmates..

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back to reality.. I went to my classroom.. I was looking at him laughing with his friends.. and his seatmate.. a girl =_=.. I'll never get a chance on him.. plus, how will he like me when he doesn't even know me?.. I don't have any pretty looks.. the only thing I'm proud of is my hair =D.. I'm practically invisible to some people.. including Jinyoung.. and I think the only 2 persons who thinks I'm not is HyoRi and JinHo.. JinHo is HyoRi's cousin.. he is like a big brother to me..

I'm sitting in my seat.. quiet.. thinking of random stuffs.. while everyone is so noisy..

Dismissal

bored.. sitting in one of the benches at school.. waiting for HyoRi to return, she went to buy food. I saw JinHo waving at me as he was walking through my direction..

"SoYeon-ah~ how's your 1st 2 days of school?" he asked me, "It's fine.. I think.." I replied,

"Is Jinyoung bothering your mind again?" he asked, yup, he knows I like Jinyoung.. "ne.. why does he have to be my classmate?.." I said as JinHo sat beside me.. "You should be happy about that"

"I am.. but I don't like it.., It hurts a lot that he doesn't like me nor he notices me.." I said,

"SoYeon-ah.. how about you'll help him with just simple stuffs, who knows he'll like you about that.." >.< JinHo is giving me advices =__= "Ani~ I'll just keep distance from him.. I know I can't have him.." I said, "He's so handsome while, I'm pretty DULL... I mean his like on top while I'm just below him trying to reach him.." I added, "it's your decision.." JinHo replied.

then Jinyoung passed by with Minyoung again.. "see? he suits better with pretty girls.." I said, JinHo didn't reply.. T_T he agrees with me.. Jinyoung and Minyoung looks good together.. they can be the  YOUNG couple.. 

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SoYeon's Diary =D

"I'm keeping a distance from you because I know I can't have you"