[December 2011]

I the tap and washed my face, trying to get rid of this weird feeling inside my chest and then, I looked up to the mirror in front of me. Good thing I managed to snap out and control the yearning of the man inside of my chest or I would hurt Jihyun again earlier. But her fleshly figure kept appearing inside my mind, her long smooth legs…and the way her long golden hair that went down to her slim waist, it’s like they kept calling me to go towards her.

As a man, I wanted to hold her but thinking of the promise that I made to myself a few weeks ago, I held myself back but I couldn’t deny that she was so beautiful before…

Geez, Woohyun.

Again, I splashed my face with cold water inside the bathroom.

That night, I couldn’t sleep thinking about Jihyun. I remembered what she told me earlier when we were at the watch shop. I wanted to buy her a Rolex but she refused. She mentioned about company that my thoughts flew towards her friends. She didn’t have any here as far as I knew and it was my fault, I also knew.

Suddenly, I thought of her dog that was always with her. Where was it? I tried to recall back our visit to her home a few months ago and now that I thought about it, there was no sign of that Golden Retriever anywhere. Did it die? Or did it run away? Whatever happened, all I knew was I wanted to make Jihyun happy.

Tomorrow as for start, I would buy her a friend. Maybe that would make up to everything that I had done including sneaking up to her room earlier.

***

I waited until someone picked up the call.

‘Kibumie? Hey, you’re busy?’

‘Oh, Woohyun-ah. A bit, but I think I can squish in my time.’ He paused for a while but I could hear faint voices, like he’s telling people to leave the room.

‘Good thing you called. I just intended to just now. So, here’s the date. It’s Christmas Eve. 10 pm at my house in Gangnam. Are you okay with that? You know that house, right?’ He spoke when I didn’t have the chance to ask.

‘Yeah, sure. But I didn’t call you to ask about that actually…’ I said and let out a soft chuckle.

‘Really? What is it about, chingu? Matters about girls? Your wife? Man, we have lots to talk about regarding your life as a husband.’ This time, he was the one who laughed out loud.

‘Nah, I just wanna tell you about the company’s annual gathering this New Year’s Eve. You’re one of my important shareholders, so I’m inviting you myself. Bring along your date, okay?’

‘No problem. Hey, I love parties and that’s the joy of December, don’t you agree?’

The conversation then went on about Hyorin, his long-life girlfriend. I wondered when they would get married since they’re inseparable since high school. Well, Kibum played a little while he’s with her but in the end, they kept running into each other’s arms. I couldn’t help but to feel a little curious about what kind of relationship that they’re having now.

But when I was busy talking with Kibum, I finally cou