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Bond

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“May I?”

Kai asked me for a dance, and after he took my hands from my husband, he looked into my face with smug smile decorated his face. It made me laughed, cause then he whispered huskily at me, “So…” he chuckled, “I’ve never now you’re a devil, Shorty…” he said in a fake disappointment, “I thought we are friends.”

“We are friends.” I took a glance at Luhan, and I know Kai was doing the same as we watched the beauty danced happily with my nephew, mother, aunty, even Grandma. “But love isn’t enough, Kai…” I repeated his words as I turned back staring into Kai eyes and my heart just beating violently, wondering how Luhan could stand looking into Kai dark orbs all the time and didn’t just melted in embarrassment. Even right now, after wearing the best make-up and designer’s bridal gown, I felt like compared to Kai. “So as your friend, I had obligation to be the force and opportunity for Luhan and you, and your love shall blossom again."

He said nothing as we kept moving into the rhythm, and I let him drowned in thought until I heard him whispered, “I don’t know, Shorty…” his solemn voice made me looked up just to see his sad smile which never changed since the day Luhan and him broke up. However, today, instead feeling hurt along with him, my heart fluttered cause I swear I saw the fire lit in his eyes again, filling him with a fighting spirit and I know, soon, he would stop mourning about his broken heart. Soon, he would bravely take a step forward to his future and into Luhan’s heart again.

“This time, if it won’t work I know who to blame.” He wrapped everything with sly comment and dirty wink addressed to me, my mind was torn apart in between smacking his face or just hugged him tightly.

“Fine.” I decided to hug him, “just… thank you for coming here…”

“Hmm…” He hummed playfully as he hugged me back and patted my back reassuringly.

“And thank you for still loving Luhan…” I said it from my heart right after the hug loosened. He teased me why I looked so serious, but somehow I knew he understand what I meant. Their love story was important to me. They taught me so many things from their moments. Most importantly, the way Kai and Luhan engaged themselves into an invisible yet inseparable bond made me realized that love has no boundary, no ethic or restriction. When love attacked, one can only surrender and gave up. 

So I can’t accept it if they didn’t end together.

“Can you promise me?” It’s weird, I was so strong during my ceremony, but now tears began pooled under my eyes just because reminiscence of my friends’ love life kept playing in my head. "Please... No matter how hard it is... Please treasure Luhan and never ever let him go again..." I didn't even care if everything I saw turned into blur. I only realized I was sobbing into his chest when he caught my shoulder with a hand and wiped away my tears with his rough thumb,

“It’s okay, I already promised it to myself so don’t cry, Dee..."

I choked another sob, and cursed under my breath for him to call me by name when I’m this emotional. you, Kim Kai.

"What's wrong?" Luhan approached us with worry clouding in his angelic face, "why are you crying, Dee? What he did to you?" And I couldn't help but crying more. This stupid couple. This is not about me, damn it! I cried for both of you, for the preciousness and purity of your love. "Why are you looked so pissed at me? Am I doing something bad?" Luhan kept asking me to feed his curiosity and it was too cute, the pain in me healed by itself and drying my tears,

“I’m scared of first night…” I lied.
 

"Heeeh?!" While Kai burst into laugh, Luhan yelped in embarrassment, "what are you afraid of?!" The pretty man whispered at me as we moved outside the dance floor, "just lie and let it happen. You'll love it! Well, it's hurt but as the time goes, the pleasure..."

"Pretty..." Kai tapped Luhan shoulder, "stop saying anything you spoil the fun."

"But she’s a . As her friend we should explain it to her correctly."

“Relax, she’s not dumb. She’s living under my bed, obviously she learn a thing or two from us.”

Great, now I sounded like a creepy boogeyman. Thanks, Kai.

“Kim Kai!” Luhan shouted with red face, “You’re really never changed! I’m disappointed with you!”

“I told you I’m a big dog now. My -…”

“Sorry I don’t want to hear anything about your .”

“Really? Cause tonight I’ll show you the whole size!”

“No thanks, I stopped riding men seven years ago.”

“Great then you must be impossibly tight now!”

Despite their dirty conversation, it seemed that happiness kept pouring into me today as I witnessed again Kai arguing with Luhan. Even when my father took me back into the middle of crowds, I snatched a gaze at them, still standing close near the dance floor, catching up with life and treasured every second of their time by sharing simple yet loving affection like caressing cheeks and brushing lips. Though Kai was also pinched Luhan’s (secretly) just to gain squeal from the pretty man.

When I was ended inside my husband arms again, I asked him to look at Kai and Luhan who decided to continue dancing, now by holding each other.

“So that's love?' My husband asked, smiling.

'Yes…' I took one last glance at KaiLu before I hugged my husband tighter, “That is love…”

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‘Do you love me?’

I remembered, during Spring Festival our class participated by making a Haunted House, and while I was checking the decoration, I heard Luhan soft whisper to Kai. I looked around, searching where the voice came and found ‘Wolfman’ Kai cuddled the ‘China Doll’ Luhan in the dark corner, with their lips stayed close to lips.

Kai chuckled lightly, ‘What is this about? You know my love for you had no doubt…’

I know I’m not supposed to be here and listening to their private conversation. But I’m so itchy to know everything about them no matter how creepy it looked. So I revealed myself and sat in front of them, with blush covering my face I fixed the fake organs on my lap. I said nothing and they seemed understand my reason to interfere. Don’t mind me, my body language said, do whatever you want, I’m just gonna enjoy watching… wait… wait… I mean, I’m watching but I’ll try hard not to enjoy it.

‘If this is my heart…’ Kai snatched the ‘bloody’ heart in my hand and showed it to Luhan, ‘you can keep it and locked in a chest, so you don’t have to question my love anymore…’

Luhan smiled in annoyance, ‘you’re not Davy Jones, Kai…’

‘Then why?’ Kai titled his head and ghosting butterfly kisses around Luhan face. Oh, my stomach also filled with butterflies at the sight but I kept my gaze focused on painting blood at the organs.

‘Why you looked so troubled? Something wrong happened?’ Kai asked Luhan softly.

I can hear Luhan gasped a breath, before the pretty boy leaned into Kai neck and whispered, ‘A girl confessed to you…’ I furrowed my eyebrows at the hint of jealousy in his tone and felt weird with myself cause I’m suddenly burning hot and angry too, maybe it’s because Kai only laughed airily in response.

‘And I said to her, I’m already taken. What’s the problem?’ Kai asked Luhan cluelessly, I really wanted to paint his face in red. Luhan is worried you know, because no matter what, girl was what suitable for boy. If Kai didn’t love Luhan enough and Luhan can’t be better than any girl in the world, Luhan wouldn’t stop worrying that Kai would leave him for a  girl.

‘But she said, she will keep love you and waited until you can accept her love.’ Okay, that sounded so desperate. I know Kai was smoking hot but Kai belongs to Luhan, trust me. She shouldn’t waste her time waiting for someone who had regular with his boyfriend on the bunk bed while I’m living beneath. ‘I don’t like her.’ Luhan shook his head, ‘I don’t want her near you again. I’m scared with that kind of people. They gave me nightmares.’

‘Ssshh…’ Kai tucked Luhan into his chest, ‘It’s okay, I already forget her the time I looked into your eyes and you should forget her too. Just remember me, focus on me, cause I’m your lover and I will only take you as mine…’

It’s either a true love, or a brain wash, what Kai said to Luhan that day. I sincerely hoped it’s not brainwash, cause since that day, Luhan stopped the hesitation and became ignorant towards the world. All in his eyes was only Kai and Kai and Kai and everytime he talked to me, it’ll be about Kai. I’m happy that he found solace in Kai but I’m also worried if he gave too much to Kai, he’ll be crushed into pieces if bad things happened.

Like when they broke up, Luhan disappeared to Beijing for two years, no calls, no texts, like his life in here will only bring memories about Kai, so he cut every connection with his friends, his acquaintance, everyone. Meanwhile, Kai dropped from university and became nothing but a cocoon in bed. If his sister didn’t come to my house to seriously ask the cause of his ‘eternal slumber’ I will think his zombification was very cute. Maybe he waited for Luhan to come back and gave him a true love kiss. But I didn’t say that to Kai’s sister. I didn’t dare exposing his secret about his relationship with Luhan to his family in case he didn’t want to tell them yet. I’m not that kind of friend.

“Kyaaah…!”

Why I’m recalled the past again? Oh, wait, I’m standing on the stage with my back facing the audience. It’s the time to throw the bouquet to the bachelorette, although I assumed there are some boys too trying to get bouquet for their girlfriend.

“Ready?” I took a peek and watched my cousins, my friends, even Luhan (why I’m not surprised?) struggling with each other while reaching their hands to catch. “okay, 1…. 2…” I throw the flower bouquet in the air, “3!”

Everyone jumped and everyone squealed, I hoped the cameraman who recorded my wedding caught the moment cause when I turned to see who’s the lucky one, Kai was standing in the middle of crowds, my bouquet was firm in his palm while he kissed Luhan deeply. Nobody paused nor was disgusted at them. Everyone cheered, even after they kissed, no one really cared if they both men and they were blessed for the next wedding.

Kai tucked the blushing Luhan into his chest and waved the bouquet at me with ‘thank you’ mouthing on his lips, so I waved back at them and laughed cause finally, they were really together.

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Kai

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'Are you, Luhan, taking me as your legal husband?’

I always loved wedding ceremony. Every time there’s a wedding in our neighborhood Chapel, I’ll rush there with Luhan and seated together at the very back chair. There’s something magical in wedding that made my heart beat thumped so fast and my face swelled in excitement. Even though Luhan and me usually watched in silence, once I dared myself to mimic the wedding vow while exchanged our gaze and entwined our fingers.

‘Come on…’ when he only blushed darkly in response, I leaned my forehead to meet his while chuckling softly, ‘what’s your answer, Pretty?’

Luhan inhaled a deep breath, 'I...' He paused, 'If you became my husband, even death won't do us part.' He said firmly and I’d never thank enough for him to make me so lucky to be loved like this. It’s a dangerous love, since we’re both losing everything. However, we’re both men, so we were blessed with strength to protect each other from the reality.

'Then it's a deal.' I leaned closer to him, let our nose and the tip of our lips grazed, 'Let's love each other forever...'

The sound of people clapping startling me back to reality and so I clapped along, congratulated Dee with only my smile cause I still had grudge over her tricking me into meeting Luhan again. What a devil. My heart grunted. But I can't also deny I'm happy for her effort. I knew Luhan felt the same with me, cause when we moved into Reception Hall and I grabbed his arm, he didn't let go. We only shuddered at the electricity streaming in our veins, boiling the blood, raising the heartbeat and suffocated us with harsh breathing. He wanted me, I can see it his cloudy gaze and I’m craving for him, that we nearly lost our sanity as we pulled each other into a needy kiss.

‘I miss you…’

‘I need you…’

‘I love you…’

He whined into my mouth and I grunted in return, answering his incoherent protest. This is what we are, two men who knew each other too much that we didn’t need proper sitting or beating one another into pulp to understand. I palmed his shirt and bow tie, he grasped my hair and our lips glued, our tongues danced, our saliva mixed, and I never felt this aroused before. This kiss awakening my every cell, giving strength at my limbs that I’m suddenly turned so strong, so firm. I could lift him and let him wrapped both his legs at my hip. I could hug him so tight, we’re both gonna burst out into pieces.

“Attention!”

But our friend saved us from staining the purity of wedding day. We might lose years from satisfying each other thirst but a love making needed proper time and better place than a stuffy corner behind thick curtains.

One thing I'm sure about and making a sheepish smile eternally crafted on my face.

Luhan still loved me.

We're still in love with each other.

"Today, we gathered here to celebrate wedding of my best friend." As a Best Man, my duty was giving a simple speech and a toast to the newlywed, “Truthfully this is my first time to be a Best man...” I said while smiling at Dee's husband, “I don't even know you, but...” My eyes trailed to see Luhan who looked back at me with giddy squeal decorating his pretty face, “but I believe in love, any form of it.” As I said it, I watched Luhan’s smile changed into a small and sweet ones. It made my heart thumped so hard, I winced, “Cause love was an easy answer for everything.”

“Love was the one to blame when you're hurt and love was the reason why you can sit here,” I returned to see the happy couple, “entangling into sacred bond of marriage”

“So please, my friends, treasure your love, you'll treasure your life.” I said it while eyeing Luhan, making sure my pretty boy knew this love for him would never change until this very second and didn’t have intention to dissipate or disappeared from my heart.

'Nice words, Puppy...' He cringed at me and I gave him a wide grin in return, answering his tease by gesturing that I’m just stating the truth. Even if I was dead and reborn into this world, I will seek Luhan and love him with all my might.

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“You’re really a jerk.” Luhan shook his head the time Shorty left us to dance with her dad, “I’ve never seen Dee crying before and you make her mourned like baby…”

I do see her crying a few times. When she missed home, or when exam is nearing, since she’s also a human being and she had feelings. So I just shrugged.

“In her wedding day.” Luhan added.

“Sorry.” I murmured, if that’s what Luhan wanted to hear. “But I agree with her.” I remembered again her words. Unconsciously, my hands rose to touch Luhan lips and when Luhan flinched slightly, my own lips twisted into a creepy smile, “if it’s only you and I, we might be too stubborn to fight destiny. Third hands need to help pulling us up from the abyss so we could find each other again and decided if we wanted to waste this second chance or just take it and be together…”

Luhan bit his bottom lip, his expression hardened. I could help him cleared the hesitation in his eyes by nudging his bitten flesh and caressed his face to show him, I’m still the same man from his past and I wished I could also be the only man in his future. But I did nothing aside dropping my hand to his shoulders, waited him to give a clear answer while my eyes never stop gazing over his beauty, hoping this is not our last time standing so close to each other.

“I don’t know, Kai…” he sighed heavily, “It’s too… how should I say this… soon, maybe? I’m barely managed to gather back my life in a piece and suddenly we met again.” He gasped, “Don’t get me wrong, ok? I love you. I’m still so in love with you… but seven years…” his voice trembled in horror so I grasped his shoulder, tried to infuse some strength into him so he didn’t have to crack into tears, cause he was close to, “seven years is a long time… what if we failed again?”

My hands slowly ran down his arms until I found his palms and brought them close to my mouth, “No, we won’t.” I kissed his hand and then smiled at him, “I promised, now it’s just you and me, Luhan. No annoying parents, no cold gaze from society, even no death can do us part…”

He trembled again, now I can see hazy bliss in his eyes. He wanted me, I convinced myself, of course, he wanted this relationship to work again, “and no matter how many times we failed,” I asked him to look at the dance floor, where our friend finally found her place in her husband’s embrace, “she would make sure we’ll start over and fight again for our love…”

Now I can make a warm smile reappeared on Luhan face, which easily turned into a cute squeal, “damn right!” Luhan grasped my hold on his hand, and I suddenly had idea, of leading him back to the dance floor, turning his doe eyes widened as he realized my intention, “wait, no, this is a bad idea.”

“It’s not.” I laughed as we blended in with the crowds, placed his hands around my neck as I held his waist and moved our bodies into a slow dance. His face fumed in red so I leaned in and give him a light peck on the lips, whispering ‘it’s okay…’ and ‘we’re good’ and ‘I love you’ repeatedly into his skin until he stopped being so stiff and relaxed into the rhythm. We passed Shorty who gave me a too enthusiastic thumb, and so I returned a thumb to her, gesturing that she did a great job, breaking the thick wall in between Luhan and me, and giving us a chance to start it all over again.

“Hhh…” I heard Luhan sighed and my never ending smile only turned wider as my Pretty Princess tucked his face into my chest, “I missed holding you like this, Kai…”

“Yeah.” I kissed the tip of his head, “I missed you too, Luhan…”

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“Thank you for coming…”

Luhan and I sat on a couch, after the last guests finaly went home. I turned at Luhan, who opened his tux and bowtie, “what are you going tonight?” I asked.

He scooted into my arm and let me cuddled him, “I stayed awake for the last couple days in fear this wedding will go into chaos. I’ll go into deep slumber tonight.” He sighed when I ruffled his hair, “how about you?”

“Well, I was about to invite you to my bed, see how our special role in this wedding ended…” he hit my chest playfully and I couldn’t help but chuckling lightly at how cute he looked right now, with red blush smearing on his face and ears, “I’m serious. “

Luhan placed his head on my lap, laughing while facing me, “I just want to sleep, ok? I’m tired…”

“I stayed in suite.” But I won’t stop taunting him, “there’s Jacuzzi and champagne. There’s also free massage from World Class Super Model waiting for you there…”

He blinked and I knew he was considering my offer, cause then he asked, “Is this super model still good in bed?” he asked softly while raising his hand to map my facial features, so I caught his hand and hummed into his wrist.

“Wanna bet?”

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A/N:

This story ended for now

But as KaiLu love still goes on, let's pray they would meet again somewhere in the future since in my culture, if there are more than 40 people prayed together, what their wish for probably would be granted >_<

thank you for reading, here a bonus for everyone!

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P.S: Tonight

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“Goodbye sleep…”

Luhan said annoyingly as we arrived at the suite and make me laughed at cold humor in his tone. We didn’t have intention to do this slowly, romantically. We just undressed silently and get into the Jacuzzi while still filling the water. I settled on a wall with Luhan lowered on my hips, holding my half hard and just stuffed his unprepared tight rear.  We kissed to forget the indulging pain, let the stream became lubricant and gravity pulled him downward, closer to me.

‘So good…’ he never complaint before, and I don’t expect he would now. I’m worried if he enjoyed getting hurt, that’s why I tried hard not to make him tearing apart or worse, bleeding. I moved slowly, hitting the hardening gland inside him and he seemed understand my intention to create friction while minimizing the damage so he respected it by not ing back and only answered me with soft moan. I ghosted my hands on his body, pinching and twisting his s to make his tensed passage relaxed. He came, spoiling the water in between us and with that he kissed me, cursed on my lips at my stupid effort in easily turning his body sensitive.

“My is dead…”

When I’m pulling out from him, Luhan was lying on his chest, breathing heavily as we felt the warmth of sunrise filling the room and hit our glistening bodies. I waited him to say something more, but when I scooted next to him, Luhan was already drifted into sleep. I leaned to kiss his forehead, inhaling as much as his scent from his damp hair cause I still couldn’t believe this is real and if I don’t have his uniqueness to hold onto, I’m afraid to sleep and waking up to an empty side next to me.

My phone rang, and with confused look I got up from bed to reach it which was laid neglected on the floor. Shorty was calling and my eyebrows furrowed. What’s wrong with this girl? I asked myself, isn’t she supposed to have honeymoon??

“What’s up?” I decided to take her call. Who knows, maybe his husband screwed up and she asked me for advice.

“Have you done it with Luhan?” I didn’t know what to react to her question. Should I angry or should I just show off boldly, cause it seemed fit more with myself, “please tell me you’re together now, or at least you promised him for a date later. Please I’m curious to death!”

“What is it?” I chuckled, “if you want to see us that bad, I can always send you our tapes. Maybe you can also learn one or two tricks from that.”

“WHAT?! YOU HAD TAPES?!”

“Of course we had. How do you think I survived seven years without ?” 

“Wait… let me think about it…” When I heard her low murmurs, laugh drilled out of my throat as I returned to bed and hauling the limp Luhan to be my living bolster, “no, wait, I don’t want any of your tapes… it will look good but that’s unfair for Luhan! I’m just calling to confirm your relationship, Kai, nothing more!”

“Really?” I still need guts to , “I keep some on my phone, I can send it to you now.” and my laugh turned into shrill as she shouted a loud ‘NOOOOOOOOOOOO’ right into my ear.

Actually I’m just kidding. Luhan and I made videos to remember our couple events and important moments, but none of them including activity. We're too busy riding each other to do that.

"What the -..." Luhan groaned at the noise, "Shut up, Dee...!" and buried his face deeper into my chest as our friend squealed and congratulated us before she hung up the phone, leaving me snickering at the rush of amazement of this wicked friendship.

"What's she doing here?" Luhan asked again drowsily.

"Dunno." I shrugged, will explain later to him cause now fatigue began hitting my body and so I hugged my lover even tighter as we both drowned into a dreamless sleep.

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