Jaejoong’s POV

Days passed by way too quickly and before I knew it, school has been going on for a few months. In that few months Yunho and I have gotten close… closer than when we were before. Going to his place, cooking a meal and sharing it are just some of the things I’ve gotten used to, things that have become a habit. Something I’ve come accustomed to. A few times YooSuMin will barge in as well out of nowhere. I don’t know how those three knew but well, what can I do. I can’t possibly tell them to go away now, can I? I feel happy with Yunho around, that’s something I can’t deny even to myself but that ends there. I can’t and I don’t want to think things further than that.

Due to my spacing out, I didn’t realize I was already smiling that Yunho started waving his hands in front of me. Smiling at remembering that one time when Yun and I ended up in a flour fight. I was supposed to bake a cake but the guy just had to ruin it!

“Hello to earth, earth to Jaejoong.” I pressed my hands on my cheeks. I’m sure my face just turned red as a ripe tomato.

“Oh, Yunho-ah… How long have you been here?” I asked. Actually, the question should be how long have I spaced out?

Taking the space beside me, he shrugged his shoulder, placing his bag on the table.

We share almost the same class except for two subjects and that includes our last. Having paired up to do a project, we agreed to meet up in the library that afternoon.

“Long enough to see you smiling like a total idiot!” He answered.

Hitting him lightly on his shoulder,” Haha! Really funny.” was my sarcastic remark. Beat that!

Ignoring me, he turned, looks like his getting something from the pocket of his bag then waved to tickets in front of me.

“What’s that?” I know, stupid question. It obviously is a movie tickets.

“Tickets, of course.”

“Stop being a smart , Yunho. I know those are tickets.” Why did I even ask in the first place. “You plan on going to the movies?”

“Junsu gave it to me. I bumped into him on my way here. Looks like Yoochun did something to upset his angel”

I just shrugged my shoulders. What’s new? Yoochun seems to find happiness in making Junsu upset whenever he feels like it. He said the best comes after you just make up with your love one. How erted can he get?!

I flip the pages of the book I borrowed earlier, reading nothing in particular. “So, shall we start?”

I look up to him. He seems to be contemplating on something. “Yunho?”

“Actually, Jae… I was thinking…I don’t want to put these tickets to waste, maybe we can go… and watch some movies for today instead?”

I flung my backpack over my shoulder, leaving Yunho’s side. My action made him think I got angry. “Jae…”

“What are the movies showing on now?” I look back behind me and still Yunho’s rooted to the ground. “We won’t be able to catch the last full show if you’ll only keep on staring Yunho. Let’s go”.

Yunho, oh mighty great Yunho can be slow sometimes. I think my words registered on his mind just now. “Ah, yeah.”

We took my car and after finding a parking, we headed straight to the cinema. I never thought choosing a movie to watch can be hard. Yunho let me do the choosing but he objected when I did, saying the movie I choose, which is Spiderman, is not something I’ll really enjoy watching…

“I’d like that movie, Yunho believe me.”

“No, you won’t. I know how much you want to watch that movie…music and lyrics...yeah...that movie”, he stated.

“And you know, YOU don’t like that kind of movies, too.” I retorted. It amazes me how much I’ve learned about Yunho for the past few months.

We continued to “argue” a little bit more, Yunho not wanting to give in. I didn’t want to either. I don’t want him to not enjoy the movie. Then we finally decided to watch a movie, John Travolta’s “Wild Hog”.

I fetched us some drink and popcorn to munch on throughout the movie as Yunho waited for me by the entrance. Yunho held my elbow, leading me to the dark of the whole cinema. Finding a vacant seat wasn’t hard wasn’t hard, with Yunho’s sharp eyes, he spotted a seat for the both of us.

We made our selves comfortable. Yunho made sure I was comfortable before he took the seat next to me. I gave him his drink and offered him popcorn and so the movie finally started. Laughter will fill the whole cinema at some point; the actors in the movie were doing a great job acting like idiots where it was required. The hearty laughter of the man beside me was like music to my ears, more than anything. I couldn’t even focus on the movie completely. Yunho turned to me. He probably felt me glanced at him…well, more like, stare at him. I’m glad that it was dark my red face wouldn’t be too obvious, but the darkness did little to hide to hide Yunho’s handsome features. I shook my head at the thoughts in my head, and for the nth time, I shove them aside, the thoughts and feelings… towards Yunho.

The movie ended, just as fast as it started. People, including us started getting up on their seats and ready to love the cinema.

“Let’s go.” Yunho held his hand down for me and I gladly took it. We turned,heading towards the exit

Just then, there was a noticeable shaking of the ground and rattling noises can be heard. EARTHQUAKE!

Korea seldom gets earthquake and if it ever does, it’s not a big destructive one. But still, earthquake is an earthquake. As soon as the realization hit me, I was rooted to the ground; my whole body trembled in fear. It lasted only a few seconds, not even half a minute but it scared me to death.

I was 6 that time. My parents took me with them in Japan, for a business meeting. Everything was still perfect then, we we’re still one happy family. Changmin was 3, our parents decided to not take him, instead our grandma instead to take care of him as we enjoyed the trip. It was enjoyable, the trip that is…until one night. Our parents needed to go to a meeting, a rush one so they talk to me and tell me if I can manage by myself for a few hours alone in the hotel we’re checked in. Ultimately, I said yes and so I was left alone. It’s already been an hour since they left when an earthquake hit Tokyo. It was scary for a young boy like me. And the fear never left me up to this moment.

“Jae…” I heard Yunho call me softly. The shaking of the ground finally stopped. Slowly, I opened my eyes. We were already outside of the cinema. Whew! I’m glad. A sigh of relief escaped my mouth.

“Are you okay?” Yunho asked worriedly. I nodded, forcing a smile.

Yunho guided me towards the car, later on insisting to get a drink for me at least. He says I still looked a bit pale.

The drive back home was quiet. Yunho glancing every once in a while, asking me if I truly am okay. I’ve let Yunho drive and he was more than willing to. It didn’t take long before we finally arrived at my house with my sleepy brother opening the door for us.

I think the earthquake had gotten me bad and made me a little clingy. I find myself not letting Yunho leave. And it wasn’t until he promised not to go until I’m asleep that I finally went into my room. As soon as my back hit the soft mattress, I drifted fell asleep.

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Yunho’s POV

It’s already been a few days since that incident in the cinema. And now I’m here at the Park’s HUGE house. Yoochun that crazy guy…together with Junsu decided to throw a little party for “their dad”, our boss, our appa as what he wants us to call him, Mr. Park. And Chun’s old guy was more than happy with his son’s surprise.

Of course, YooSu, Min, Jae and I are on one table with some other friends. Chatting with friends, I can see YooSu all over each other while Min’s on another table talking to a girl who he seems to take a liking off. Mr. Park was doing his little speech on the center of the garden where a stage was out up, thanking his son and his boyfriend for the pleasant surprise. Mr. Park lovea Junsu and isn’t bit ashamed if people know that his oldest son is with a guy.

Once Mr. Park’s “thank you speech” was done a fast music filled the night air. People slowly getting in the center of the garden and started dancing.

Junsu squealed as he pulled Yoochun towards the dance floor. But not until he pulled us up too with his other hand, not giving us enough time to say no. we were dragged to the dance floor. Shy at first, we soon found ourselves enjoying, dancing to the beat of the music. Just when were finally loosening up the music changed. From a fast paced song to a love song. I stopped Dancing and so did Jae. We looked around to find couples already dancing closely against each other, including YooSu.

I meet Junsu’s eyes, his hand making a gesture as he mouthed “What are you guys doing? DANCE.”

I turned to Jaejoong, offering my hand out to him and I felt like floating in the air when he accepted it.

He placed his hands on my shoulder and I placed mine n his waits, pulling him a little closer but still kept a safe distance between us. And there goes my heart again, beating like crazy. I’m almost worried Jae would feel it against my chest.

The song ended quickly, too quickly for my own liking. Reluctantly, I let go of Jaejoong’s.

“Let’s go and sit back on our table. Dancing got me tired”, he said chuckling. I nodded as I watched him turn his back on me.

“What is exactly is this I’m feeling for Jaejoong? Am I...in-love with Jae?”

The same questions have been on my mind all night long, even when I’m already at the comfort of my own room. Then it finally hit me.

“I AM in love with Kim Jaejoong.” I’ve always been. I was just good in hiding it…even to myself. Now, finally admitting it, what should I do? Should I tell Jaejoong? What if he starts avoiding me if I did? Can I take the risk of losing the friendship I’ve build with him?

I muffled a scream that escaped my throat with burying my face on my pillow.

My questions were left unanswered as I finally drifted past asleep. My heart filled with uncertainties...and fears. Fear of what could happen if Jae does find out. I can only hope of another great day when tomorrow comes.