Junsu’s POV

I didn’t get enough sleep last night or the other nights that passed. Or it’s more honest to say that I didn’t get to sleep at all. It was weird to not find Yoochun beside me when I spread my hands on the bed, reaching for someone who isn’t even there.

Ignoring the concern look on Yunho-hyung and Changmin’s face, I tried to act as normal as I can be without being too obvious.

“He’s not here yet, hyung.” Changmin spoke, giving me the answer to my unspoken question. . I obviously wasn’t doing a good job in hiding my searching eyes.

“Who?” Cocking my head up, I asked, feigning a non caring attitude.

Changmin’s eyeball rolled but didn’t make any more remark. I couldn’t be more thankful for his silence. I ‘m afraid I’ll only start crying again if he did. I didn’t see Chun the whole morning. And when he finally made his appearance in the afternoon, he completely ignored me. If I try to talk, he’d only snapped at me. A lot of times, I can feel Jae-hyung watching and wanting to help. I bet his includes of having us locked up in one of the rooms until we finally made up but it’s not that simple. Jaejoong-hyung can feel that too that’s why he never does it. He knows that in time, we’ll settle everything between us. I hope because I don’t think I can last any longer with this. Three days quickly passed with things between Chun and I are getting worst. I’ve had enough of Yoochun ignoring me so I did what I can think I can only do. Talk to him (or should I say, make him talk to me). I stalked out of our shared bedroom and into the living room where he and YunJae-hyung are watching some movie that I don’t even remember the title. Jae-hyung was lying on the sofa with his head on Yunho-hyung’s lap when I came in the living room. Yoochun was on the floor, much of his focus on the moving figures on the screen.

“Chunnie ah, can I… can I talk to you?” Jae-hyung’s head lifted from Yunho-hyung’s lap as he sat straight up. I bit on my lower lip when Yoochun didn’t even bother to turn his head when he answered me.

“Can’t it wait? The movie’s not done yet. Is it important?”

YunJae-hyung exchanged looks before they threw a concerned gaze at me.

“Ah, no. it’s not. I’m sorry.” I immediately made my way back to pour bedroom, the same room I’ve been sleeping in alone for the past couple of days. A few more minutes have passed before I heard soft footsteps from behind the door. The door was pushed slightly open and Yoochun slip himself into our shared room. Looking up from being seated on the edge of our bed, I spoke and ask Yoochun the same question I have been asking him.

“Why are you doing this?”

Yoochun let out a sigh. A sigh that says “this again?!”, “Are we going to talk about this. Again?”

“Yes!” I nearly shouted. “We’ll be talking about this until you tell me why you’re really dong this!”

“There’s no reason, Junsu. I told you, I just…”

“…want me out of your life. You’re pushing me away, want me to go back to my family because you’re so damn tired of me.”

“Junsu, that isn’t…”

I nodded. Why? I don’t know, I just feel my head moving in a nod. “You know they’ll never let me come back if I go back to you. Why else would you want me to go back to them if not for that reason?”

I know if people would hear me, they’ll probably think I’ being, I don’t know, unreasonable but I don’t care. Yoochun IS the one that’s being unreasonable. And I felt like I’m getting angrier by the moment when he kept his mouth shut. Why won’t he tell me something? At least tell me why he suddenly wanted me to go back to my family where I am not welcome anymore.

These past few days have really got me drained, emotionally and all want to do now is just to put an end to this. If Yoochun really doesn’t want me anymore, then who am I to keep pushing myself into him?

“I understand.” Yoochun still finds the floor more interesting, not once bothering to even throw me a quick glance. “I’m sorry if I’ve gotten into your nerves these past few days. I won’t bother you, alright?”

Yoochun’s POV

I closed my eyes when Junsu’s shoulder brushed on mine when he passed by me as he walked towards the door. His motion seemed to have slowed in my eyes that if I would just make a grab of his hands, I would have stopped him from getting out of our room. Sadly, I never did.

Every corner of this room reminds me of Junsu making it so hard to keep my tears from falling when my eyes landed on a familiar dolphin stuffed toy. My body shook when I couldn’t keep the sob from escaping my mouth as I slid down on the floor, my back against the edge of the bed where Junsu was seated just a few seconds ago. If I made the right decision, then why does it hurt so much? Why does it feel so wrong to see Junsu walking away? Away from me?

I shook my head. No! This isn’t what I want. There is nothing else I want than to always have my lover beside me. Wiping the tears from my face, I quickly got up from the floor and made a dash towards the door. Jae-hyung was standing by the door. He was probably going in our room to check on us but was stopped when Junsu came out. He was looking at the door worriedly that I didn’t need to ask where Junsu went.

I pressed on the button of the elevator several times not leaving the button until it opened. The seconds I spent waiting for it to open feels so long. Soon, the lift reached the ground floor and as soon as the door slid open, I run out and tried to search for Junsu. When I didn’t find him anywhere I run out of the building, searching for my lover amidst the people that’s passing by.

I my left. No Junsu.

I my right. Still no Junsu.

Running towards the other side of the building, I felt relief wash over me when I spotted Junsu’s running figure. My voice came out like a whisper when I tried to call him. It was so soft that Junsu didn’t hear me at all.

My eyes widened when I was about to open my mouth again. A car was coming towards Junsu, Junsu who looks lost and unaware of the approaching vehicle continued walking, his head bowed down as he’s about to cross a street. Terror washed over me as I watch Junsu take a step towards the lane, my head shaking off images of Junsu’s body lying on the ground.

“Junsu.” There’s no way I’d get to him and pull him away from the danger. “Junsu! JUNSU!”

Finally, his head turned, searching for the voice that called him. And then sound of a tire screeching made my shut my eyes so tight. I’d die if I’d see what happened. My breath seemed to have stopped at that moment, my heart beating against my chest as I just stood there frozen on my spot. Shocked gasped of people reached my ear making me feel even more scared of what could have happened.

“What do you think you’re doing, Junsu-yah!”

Yunho-hyung? Isn’t that Yunho-hyung’s voice?”

Muttering a prayer, I slowly opened my eyes, still holding my breath.

I found Junsu standing beside Yunho-hyung. His face drained of blood and looking shocked. A man, the driver of the car came out, checking Junsu. I can hear him say he’s fine, bowing in apology towards the other car’s driver. My legs have long been awakened from its temporary numbness that it suddenly felt a while ago and made my way towards them.
“Junsu-yah!” I’ve can feel his body still shaking as I hugged him close to me. “Are you okay?”

He nodded, burying his face in my chest and an arm holding on to me.

“Thanks God.” I placed a soft kiss on the top of his head as we made our way back home.

I didn’t left Junsu’s side that night and there’s no way I would want him to leave my side either.

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Yunho’s POV

Yoochun and Junsu were back to normal after Junsu almost had that accident a few days ago. The two becoming more inseparable than before and I’m happy to see them back together.

“What are you thinking?” Jae asked, sliding himself down to sit against me in the backseat of his car.

“You.”

I laughed at his pout, moving my arms down on his waist and moved him closer. Burying my face on his hair, I sniffed at the scent of the shampoo he’s using then resting my head at the crook of his neck.

We’ve kept the doors of the car open, giving us a better view of the Han River as we just sat there in the back of the car, a soft mellow music playing from the car’s stereo.

“Actually, I was thinking of Yoochun and Junsu. “

“Ah! Those two idiots.”

“Yeah, those two idiots. I just…”

“..never though they had that kind of problem before?”

“Yeah.”

Opposite to Mr. Park, Junsu’s family wasn’t very accepting of their relationship. They’re not as supportive as Yoochun’s dad nor are they happy with the fact that Junsu prefers men than women. I don’t know how they did it but they managed to hide their relationship for more than a year making it look like they’re merely the best of friends. When Junsu’s family found out, he was casted out of the family right away. That’s the time he started living with Yoochun, sometimes staying at their dad’s but most of the time in the home they shared with Jae and Changmin.

The day they had a fight, was the day Yoochun received a call from Junsu’s brother. He’d told Chun that their family’s migrating and will leave Junsu and forget that he ever existed. Yoochun knows how much Junsu loves his family even after all that happened. Though he insist to stay with Chun telling his boyfriend that in time they’ll be able to accept them but Yoochun knew how he’d cry at night when Junsu though his boyfriend’s already asleep. Yoochun even told me that he found Junsu trying to call his family and ended up crying again when no one seemed to have answered. The thought of Junsu would be so broken if he finds out was something that Yoochun didn’t want to happen so he did what he thought was the best for his lover. Push him away until he chose to go back to his family and leave him but of course that never happened. Neither one of them would let go of each other.

“If I didn’t know of their situation before, I probably would never have guessed that Junsu and Yoochun are facing a problem like that. Those two are always acting crazy, laughing at nearly everything like there’s no tomorrow.

“They’re good at keeping their pains behind their smiles.”

“Yoochun still wants Su to go back home…”

I moved my head to look down at Jae. “What did Junsu say?”

“They’ll meet Junsu’s family together. Junsu wouldn’t go without Yoochun. I hope everything goes well for them this time.”

Silence prevailed for a moment before I spoke his name again. “Jaejoong-ah..”

He “hhmmm” against my chest as his fingers played with the button of my shirt.

“Boo, I was thinking that maybe… we can go to Gwang Ju. And visit my parents.”

The little circular motion he’s doing on my chest stopped as his head lifted up and I was meet with a pair of dark brown eyes. “Yunho, I…”

“Don’t tell me you’re feeling nervous? You’ve already spoke to them over the phone.”

“I did… but talking to them on the phone and actually meeting them is a totally different thing. What if they suddenly don’t like me? What will happen to us?”

“Aish! They’ll love you. They already do just by talking with you on the phone. Besides, you’ve let me met your parents… well, one of them… so it’s only fair that you met my family.”

“I don’t know…”

“I want them to meet the person that made me crazy, Boo.”

I chuckled and so did he. “You really know how to make me say yes don’t you.”

“I do, don’t I?” I grinned. “So… yes?”

“Yup. Like I’m good at saying no to you especially if you’re acting like that.” And my face contorted as he pinched my cheeks. A gesture he’d make whenever he felt like killing me but can’t because he loves me too much.

We settled back down on the backseat, my hand clasped loosely on his hips. He’s mood changed from good to better after that that I decided I’d tell him about Heechul later when we get home. Later.

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Jaejoong’s POV

“Yunho wanted us to go to GwangJu during our break.” I hissed out the nervousness I felt again at the mere thought of finally having to come face to face with Yunho’s family, especially of his sister.

“That’s great, hyung.” Junsu squealed happily his voice with a hint of sadness. His eyes revealing more of his emotion that what he’s showing us. And of course, there went my habit of spacing out again. The loud thud that Yoochun and Changmin made as they both fell on the floor snapped me out of my deep thoughts. Junsu and I walked back to the living room and found both of them grabbing, reaching for the television’s remote control. Changmin wanted to watch discovery Channel and Yoochun wanted to watch MTV.

The phone in my pocket vibrated, starling me. Seeing Yunho’s name flashed on the screen, I excused myself, giving Junsu the privilege of taking care of the two kids still tangled on the floor.

“Is that Yoochun that just screamed?” Yunho asked just after I said hello.

“Yep! I’m guessing Changmin just won their little “remote control fight”. I laughed.

“Sometimes it’s hard to remember that Yoochun’s really the older one between the two of them.”

“Well, what can I say…”

“Oh, Boo…. Did I happen to leave a folder in your car?”

I thought for a while then remembered seeing a folder in my car’s backseat. “Uhm, yeah, I think I saw a folder.”

“Ah, thanks God. That’s the paper I’m going to have to submit tomorrow.”

“Let me check it to make sure if it’s really the folder you’re looking for, okay?”

“I’ll drop by there.”

“No. I’ll go there if I do find it…”

“Thanks, Boo.” We talked for a bit more (if you call an hour of talking a bit.) before we argued on who’s to put the down first.

“You hang up first.”

“No. You go first.”

“How about we both hang up at the same time?”

I giggled at our silliness. “That’s fine with me.”

“Okay, in the count of three. One. Two. Three.”

“I love you, Boo.”I heard Yunho say before I heard the dial tone of the phone.

I did found Yunho’s folder just where I thought I saw it. Glad for finding my Yunho’s papers, I grinned thinking that I just found another reason to drive back to Yunho’s place.

Since it was already late, the traffic didn’t give me much problem and I’ve arrived at Yunho’s in less than thirty minutes. Just as I the hallway leading to Yunho’s house, I stopped and my smile turning into a frown.

“Oppa!” a young woman literally flung herself onto Yunho who was standing under the doorframe. Her arms were wrapped tightly around his neck. The young woman looked familiar but before I could even process who she is in my head I saw her leaned forward and KISSED MY YUNHO! And Yunho, after the initial look of shock on his face, he only smiled at the girl in front of him. That’s when I made my presence known.

“Yunho-ah…” I called his name, my voice and eyes both questioning as I meet Yunho’s eyes.

“Boo?”