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I felt like I dreamt about her last night because the second I woke up I noticed I had been crying for some time now. Why was I crying? Did I miss her that much even though I knew she was recovering just fine? I wiped the tears away and looked around my bare room and sighed. This place would never feel like home to me, the walls were empty and only a few of my most important things littered the ground and desk on my side of the room. Byunghun had hung up pictures of his favorite and top idol on his side who happened to be G-Dragon from Big Bang, I wondered when he put them up but I just now started to notice them hanging there above his desk where his laptop and other things sat. I could hear snoring from up top and I knew Byunghun was still sleeping in on this fine Sunday morning. Usually he is up before me and already gone from the room so it felt weird to hear him above me. I sat up and looked around some more before finally standing up and looking at the top bunk to see that same usual smile on Byunghun’s lips—I bet he always has such good dreams.

I then walked to the closet and picked out something to wear for the day and left to take a shower while Byunghun slept. When I was done he was wide awake, still on his bed and looking at his phone with a different kind of smile, a more warm and happy smile this time. Whoever he was texting must be important to him in one way or another. “Who are you texting, your girlfriend?” I teased and stuck my tongue out at him when he blushed in response.

“N-No!” He answered and looked at his phone once more, “but I wish she was.” He sighed and closed his phone to avoid being distracted by it. I wondered who it was but I didn’t ask any further since he seemed slightly down after admitting that he wished this girl was his girlfriend and not just a friend.

I wondered if I was like that with Soo Young before we got together, but then again my friends didn’t care about who I texted and who I hung out with. They only cared that I could get any girl I wanted and when I was done with them my friends got their chances as well. Just thinking about how bad I was before her just makes me feel sick to my stomach.

“Well keep trying; I’m sure any girl would want to be with you.” I said the only thing I could think of and turned to look at my bed and directly at my pillow—more precisely what was under my pillow. How was I supposed to read the next entry if Byunghun is already awake and ready to get started for the day. Was I sure I could read it all before his shower was over, and what if I ended up crying again, how would I explain that to him?

“Yeah yeah, she’s who I’ve been seeing almost every morning.” He spoke again and I looked to see him smiling that happy smile again. “I buy her breakfast and we hang out and just talk. I want to be her friend first then ask her out, but I just don’t know how to go about it without seeming too desperate or clingy.” His smile slowly disappeared as he continued to talk and by the time he was finished his frown was once again back on his face.

I wanted to chuckle and smile at his distress, not because I found it funny but because I felt the same way when I first started liking Soo Young. I remember how distant I wanted to be not to seem clingy and how closed I wanted to be to show how much I cared for her. “Just continue as you are and I’m sure you’ll find a good time to tell her your feelings and in the meantime really confirm your feelings before telling them to her. I think any relationship should be based on confirmed feelings and not just ‘maybe I like that person’ since you won’t go far with that.”

“It seems like you know a lot about this sort of topic, care to tell me why?” Byunghun asked and I immediately froze up. Oh no! This isn’t good, I don’t think I’m ready to tell him, or maybe I am. I sighed and gave him one last look before getting comfortable on my desk chair and looked away from him and towards the ground.

“I-well…” I thought of how I should go about this and how I should introduce the best thing that has ever happened to me, but it was hard to describe someone so great in just a short time. “I have a girlfriend.” There’s a start. I waited a little while before continuing, not for Byunghun but to ready myself. “I’ve been with her since the second half of my freshmen year of high school. Her name is Lee Soo Young and she has been the best thing that has ever happened to me.” I could feel a tear trying to escape but I stopped to gather my thoughts and emotions. “She’s currently in the hospital.”

Byunghun gasped and I heard the bed shaking some but I did not dare look up at him. “She is in a different country right now recovering from it; it was a disease she didn’t discover until just this summer when she had to go to the hospital. The doctors didn’t know what to do and sent her off to a place where she could be treated.” I could feel the tears and at this point I didn’t care anymore. Byunghun wasn’t all too close to me and he has barely known me for ten days now but yet telling him all of this felt like a huge stone was lifted from my heart. Could I really consider him my best friend? Could Byunghun be the one person I should confide in?

My questions were answered when I felt two strong but gentle arms circle my body and bring me into a tight hug. I didn’t dare look at his face, I didn’t even try to speak as he hugged me for a bit until he finally decided to let go and force me to look at him by kneeling down in front of me. “Chanhee, while we haven’t known each other for as long as I’ve known everyone else and sure they have more memories with me than you, but I want to say that I think of you as a really close friend maybe even best friend. Everyone had someone, Minsoo with Daniel, Changhyun with Jonghyun I always felt left out when it came to groups. I felt like the fifth wheel so many times but now I don’t need to feel like that because I found a best friend in you. Thank you for sharing something so meaningful to you and I promise I’ll share everything with you too. Now let’s get our minds off of this and on to some English before we forget.” He flashed me a smile, a smile so bright and caring that I couldn’t help but smile back just to try to match his happiness.

The rest of the morning we did nothing but speak in English to practice my skills, he went over everything we did in class and even helped me on pronouncing certain words that would seem hard but were actually really easy. I would glance at my pillow from time to time thinking about whether I should go to it or not since Byunghun hadn’t left my side since I told him what happened. He didn’t ask about anything else and I was glad for it since I knew me crying too much in one day was not something I wanted to do. Boys aren’t supposed to cry, or at least that’s what they say, but when it comes to Soo Young nothing else mattered to me.

It wasn’t until around noon that we decided that our stomachs were not going to handle not being fed for much longer and headed over to the cafeteria to get something to eat. It was a good chance to catch up with my other classes since I had zoned out in pretty much all of them except for Short Stories since I got the main topic of that class I didn’t need to go over anything.

And of course by the time we got to our table it was full of laughter and chatting with four boys already there and already eating with two spots reserved just for us.

“Finally L. Joe and Chunji make it.” Jonghyun commented when we sat down next to each other, with Daniel on my other side and Changhyun on Byunghun’s opposite side.

“Yeah I was helping Chunji here with English in our room since he zoned out pretty badly on Friday.” Byunghun said then took a big bite of his meal and proceeded to not talk much while he devoured his food. I, on the other hand, wanted to make sure to make it known that I still need help in the other subjects so I decided not to eat right away but instead look towards the other members and ask them to help me.

“Of course.” Minsoo agreed and the two younger boys nodded as well with smiles on their faces. I smiled back and then started to eat my food knowing that today might be full of homework and studying, but at least it’ll be full of friends as well.

The table then went silent as we all continued to eat until finally Jonghyun and Changhyun finished first and told us to drop by their room on the second floor whenever I was ready to tackle some history. Byunghun finished next and headed off as well patting my back before leaving with a warm smile. Daniel then left to go to his job for the day and left me with Minsoo at the table.

“Looks like you’ll be doing algebra first.” He laughed and picked up his plate while gesturing for me to get up as well. Might as well get this over with since I was already pretty good at Math so I knew this was not going to take long.

I followed him back to our dorms and down the first floor and realized that we all were on different floors, him being on the first, the younger two being on the second, and me being on the third with Byunghun. It didn’t take long for us to find the room with his name on the side and Daniel’s on the other and for him to let me inside.

The room’s layout was exactly identical to my own but I figured that much since we’re all from the same dorm. The bunk bed was on the same side but with different bed sheets on them and the desks were littered with all of the belongings of Daniel and Minsoo’s. Rooming with someone they already knew was probably a lot easier and the whole room gave off a very home-like feel with posters on the walls and personal things around the room.

“Here is my side.” Minsoo walked towards the cleaner part of the room and grabbed his chair to sit as his desk, pointing for me to use Daniel’s while he was gone. “Now let us get down to business since you still have to work on more than just this today.” He brought out his algebra book and started right where the teacher had started on Friday. It really didn’t take long for me to get everything he was saying but it did take a while to get all of the homework done for the assignment and checked to make sure we had the same answers. I thanked him greatly before leaving his room an hour later and heading towards the stairs to get up to the second floor to find Jonghyun’s room. Following the pattern of everyone having their names on the sides of the door helped since I found his room after seeing his and Changhyun’s name right where they were supposed to be.

I knocked three times on the door and waited for an answer which I got a whole minute later when I heard Changhyun running towards the door and opening it in a hurry before running back into his room and when I peeked in he was running for the controller before he lost the match he was playing.

Compared to my room and Minsoo’s room this room was completely different. The desks were all moved to different areas and filled with random books along with any game device one could think of. Their bed was pulled apart and stuck next to each other instead giving them no problems with climbing up and down, but instead gave them a little less space in the middle of the room but was made up with an easier access to the TV to play video games. Currently Jonghyun was on the bed with controller in hand with a serious expression without even looking up to notice my presence while Changhyun obviously knew I was there but continued to wear that same serious expression until finally he threw his hands up in the air in defeat yelling, “Damnit I lost again!”

“I told you I was going to win; you really need to listen to me more often.” Jonghyun scoffed and finally looked up to acknowledge my presence. At this point I wondered how these two boys could be the smartest in the group when all they did on the free time was play video games.

“Yeah well I was sure I was going to win, but then Chunji came in and ruined my concentration.” Changhyun commented using me as a complete excuse as to why he lost, but from the look of Jonghyun’s face this wasn’t the first time Changhyun lost.

I coughed slightly to make my presence a bit more known and allowed the two boys to turn their attention towards me. “Uh, is this a bad time?” I asked nervously when the two pairs of eyes were just staring at me without a single other word spoken.

“Oh no we were just done, just give us a second to actually find our History book and we’ll help you, what did we learn Friday again?” Changhyun was first to speak up but also seemed to not remember what we had done in class.

“Idiot.” Jonghyun scoffed and Changhyun pouted at him. How could Jonghyun be the youngest in this group when Changhyun obviously looked and acted like the youngest. “We were going over the Ming Dynasty in China and how they were destroyed by the Manchu and gave way for the Qing Dynasty. I believe we were studying the Kangxi Emperor on Friday.” Jonghyun explained and I was sure both Changhyun and I had lost interest by the time he said China.

While we were studying the chapter we went over on Friday I couldn’t help but notice that Changhyun, even though him being a History major, just did not seem interested in anything that Jonghyun had to say. It was actually hard to concentrate after discovering this since most of my attention fell on Changhyun wondering if he was catching any of this or if he was only pretending to care as Jonghyun explained in massive detail about the Qing Dynasty and the Emperor we were supposed to learn about.

“Did you get all of that?” Jonghyun asked after about almost 40 minutes straight of him talking about the summary of the chapter. No wonder this boy was going to be a History major he was far too good at it to do anything else.

“Of course.” Changhyun chirped with a smile and went straight to his controller afterwards to play another round before having to do anything else. Jonghyun seemed to sigh and motion for me to follow him outside leaving Changhyun alone in the room.

“What was up with him?” I asked the second I had the chance when the door was shut and I was sure we were far enough for him not to hear us. “He’s a History major and yet he looked completely bored the whole time.”

“That’s the problem, see Changhyun doesn’t really care for any of this.” He crossed his arms and leaned against the wall.

“Then why is that his major?” I asked glancing at the door to their room hoping that Changhyun didn’t burst out of it randomly.

“He only wanted to do this because he didn’t want to be alone first of all and second he wants to follow me everywhere. He is like a lost puppy and for some reason it looked like I adopted him.” Jonghyun explained also glancing at the door with a serious expression on his face.

“Well you two always seem to be together and he always wants to be around you. That might not be such a bad thing but I understand that he shouldn’t follow you into your major as well.” I replied, there wasn’t much else to say about this topic besides to help Jonghyun find a way to switch Changhyun’s major to something he actually wants to do. But there was no way to find out if Changhyun is persistent to stay by Jonghyun’s side.

“Yeah. We’re best friends and always will be best friends, but I don’t think he understands that by being best friends we can follow completely different paths and always stay together.” Jonghyun sighed and stood up straight. “Well he’s going to miss me if I’m gone this long, I’ll talk to you later Chanhee.” He bowed slightly towards me and went straight back to his room without another word. I just watched and wondered if there really was anything I could do, but then again all of the decisions are up to Changhyun, not me.

The rest of the day I spent in my room just lying there staring at my pillow but unable to do a single thing since above me was Byunghun playing some game on the TV and having a blast. I didn’t dare to try read it for fear of having a big crying fit again and I already had to burden Byunghun enough with my problems. Luckily for me Daniel had a short shift at the karaoke today and was able to get out by around four instead of his usual seven and he was the last person to talk to in order to catch up completely on all of my classes.

Though I really didn’t need to listen too much since I mostly paid attention in Biology it would still be a good idea to catch everything and copy his notes from Friday. By the time I got to his room and knocked only he seemed to be in it and after glancing around to make sure I asked, “Where’s Minsoo?” He stared at me for a second in confusion before realizing who I was talking about and chuckled.

“Oh, C.A.P.? He went off somewhere not too long ago, whoa I can’t believe I almost forgot his name was Minsoo and we’re roommates.”

“Oh, okay well let’s get started then.” I smiled and got myself comfortable though this time I was in Minsoo’s chair and not Daniel’s.

“Well you really didn’t miss much, but you can write out all of my notes for the class since I noticed that you spaced out and barely wrote a thing.” Daniel explained handing me his Biology notebook with a grin and I happily took it just to get this over with.

“Thank you so much for this, I can’t believe I spaced out so badly that day.” I sighed and flipped to the last page with writing on it and tracked down where the notes started and got out some paper to write on and a pencil to write with.

“It’s fine,” He smiled. “But I do have to wonder, what were you thinking about?”

“Soo Young.” I answered faster than my mind could register and I loudly cursed myself out in my head for even mentioning her name to him. He did know I had a girlfriend but nothing else, but it was still a touchy topic to me.

He seemed confused by my random answer but then he pieced the two together and knew what I was talking about, luckily for me he just nodded and didn’t say anything else about the topic. “Can you keep a secret?”

“Do you really trust me that much to be telling me secrets?” I asked, not meaning to sound rude but we still had only known each other for ten days.

“Well yeah, we’re best friends right?” He asked and I had to smile at his question thinking back to this morning when Byunghun pretty much called me his best friend. I didn’t know I was such a fun and friendly person to get along with. “Well there is someone I like, but I don’t know how to go about telling her.”

“Really? You like someone? Do I know her?” I didn’t mean to sound so interested but I didn’t expect Daniel to be the one to like someone.

“Yeah actually you do.” Daniel blushed and scratched the back of his head; the biology notebook completely forgotten about.

“Who is it?”

“Ji Young.” I could barely hear him but the second he said her name I instantly stood up and stared at him.

“You do?!” I seriously didn’t mean to shout but from the day we met her he always expressed how much he did not like her and suddenly he does?!

“Shhh don’t tell anyone!” He shushed me and made me sit back down. “Look when she started flirting with you instead of getting mad at you I got mad at her since I knew you didn’t like her back, well I have her in one of my classes as well and I started to like her okay? I wish I could actually talk to her like you do, but I’m too scared to.” He explained and sighed slouching down in his chair.

Suddenly it made sense why he’d always get touchy about whenever I talked about her, but whoa he did not know how to show his feelings if that was what he looked like when he liked someone. “Well I’ll see what she thinks about you, actually the other day she asked about you.” I smiled when I remembered her asking about Byunghun and Daniel. Maybe she liked him back but didn’t want to say anything to me about it.

“Really?” Daniel sat back up even straighter than before and had the dorkiest smile on his huge lips. I didn’t want to get his hopes up but she did ask about him so maybe there really was something. “You are amazing!”

After that I decided that Biology, though not as important as friends, had to be done and I knew if I didn’t get this done now I’d never have the chance to read my diary entry for the day. I ended up leaving Daniel’s room shortly before Minsoo came back and got back to my room in time for Byunghun to leave for dinner. He asked if I wanted to join him but I said I was not hungry yet and was going to do a thing or two before joining him.

Finally all alone in my room I jumped for the diary under my pillow and hastily turned it to the tenth diary entry and got comfortable on my bed with a smile on my lips.

Dear Diary,

                School was boring, or at least I thought it would be but yet again my Math class just keeps getting better and better as the time goes by. It’s been a while since I updated this thing and I really should update it more often but every time I think about doing that I always get sidetracked by homework or hanging out with Song, we’re practically best friends now and we’re always around each other helping with homework and anything sociable. In other news I am finally courageous enough to tell you who my crush is. His name is Lee Chanhee and he is the best guy I have ever seen. Even if we just stay friends I would be completely fine with it, but nowadays I feel like something is going to happen soon. Valentine’s day is coming up so maybe I’ll surprise him with chocolate! Wish me luck! Fighting!

--Soo Young