there is a noise behind us... we turned our head.... Amber...

"w..w..what do u all talking about?.... who s dying?   why u said he is dying..? he cannot die..! i just met him... < hyung u are lying right?... "

"amber..... " her face is pale.... she is sobbing.... she run... as fast as she can..... and we just can watch from a far....

that is the first time i saw my little sis crying... usually if not because of terrible pain,,, she will not cry.... she hate crying because she said that it will make girl seemed so weak.... and she doesnt like the idea that girls are weak and a crybaby...... that day she didnt return to the waterfall and when i went back home, she already sleeping... i dont want to wake her up.... may be she will feel better after sleeping....

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"yah!!!!! hyung u are  late again!!!!"

"ah,... 5 more minutes..."

"yah!!!... "

i woke up..... she wake me up like always, so this means that she is ok.... she look normally abnormal.... with her voice and act... i felt relief... i really afraid that it will effect her... mmmm...... may be she actually more matured than me....

at the school, we ate our lunch and chit chatting like always.... all thing seemed normal... the issue was never been discussed again, not me, hyun joong or amber.... it seemed like we didnt know anything.... i think... it easier to act like this because the adult never ask u about it... our parents or families will never ask if yoochun is ok or not... because they dont want us to know.... that he is dying.... eventhough we already know......

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amber POV

i heard everything they said that day... there is no way he will die... i like him very much.. he is the first boy who treat me nicely eventhough i m really harsh at first..... no... no.... he will get better if he stay here... the air is fresh... and there is no pollution here... that is why they came here at the first place......

now i know that lying is a lot better than facing the truth... mom always said to me that i cannot lie... it will come back to u... but what can i do.... i m lying to myself that he will be cured again.... dying... that term is too cruel for a boy.....

i met him everyday... tried not to reveal my sadness... trying not to show that i know.... how can he act like this... laughing and playing with us when he know he will die???   i m really worried about him... but there s nothing i can do.......

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 "mom.... "

"yes yoochun...."

"mom... are u afraid of death...?"

"mmm..may be a little.... but not so much.... "

"why??"

"i believe that when a person die...... their soul... will go and live around a living person, usually the person that they love...it doesnt particularly drift too far away....since they care about the person..... why do you ask?...

"mom... if i die.....can i come and hang around u and hyun joong? it will be a little bit lonely with out u two and may be cold too.... "

"yes dear...... yes....... u can hang around as long as u want..."

"mom.... then i ll hang around until hyun joong can take care of himself..... he really worried about me.... and he always careless... "

"yes dear.... u have to take care of ur little brother"

"ok mom... i promise... "

"mom.... why u are crying.... ?"

hyun joong is standing behind the door... listening to his hyung talking....

hyung...... cant u... just dont die.....

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"mom... what u are doing?"

"ah.. hyun joong... tonight ur brother want us all  the 2 families to go there... at the waterfall... we will camping there..."

"is it so??/"

"yes.."

"yea!!!! this is good.... we will having bbq mom? "

"yes, jae and amber will be there with their parents too.."

"i m happy... i m getting my things"

that night... the two families gather and having a great camping.....

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midnight at the waterfall

we are enjoying the moonlight... around sit around  the fire..... while drinking some juice...

"mmm  hyung joong.... jae...'

"what... hyung...?"

"mmm someday... when u two are old enough... you should get married..."

"hyung?!... what are u saying.../"

"it would be perfect it happened..is it mom..?"

"yes... it will be nice... if someone can look over him.."

"mmm we think like that too yoochun... "

"me too... i will decorate the wedding for u two"

"Hyung.. stop joking... "

"i m not joking.... i m serious.... will u promise me that... "

"this is my last request tonight... please say u will... jae?"

"mmm i will..."

"hyun joong?"

"mmm"

"u hate it?"

"no... i m ok with it.... "

"u two promised me... u must do it ok, since it had been decided... now i am my heart will not feel so heavy..."

all - "congratulation... " while clapping their hand

hyun joong - "why  i m being congratulated?"

yoochun "tonight is so fun....i ll never forget it... forever "

amber "yea... we will come again... together... here... in the future..."

yoochun turn his head and look at her... he grab her hand... and say silently...  - its ok... i love u too... dont be sad...

that night .... seemed  like yoochun had known will be his last night....

the next morning... when everyone getting out from the tent..... his mom is standing... silently cry...

"he left us all last night... in his sleep... last night... was his farewell ... for all of us...  "

we all cannot stop ourself from crying.... it really hurt to loose someone we love...... even amber is sobbing non stop......

and.... looking down... yoochun soul is smiling.... - dont cry little brother.. i ll be always hang around you....just dont forget the promises u made... i ll always love u.....