"Do you still remember the first time that we met?" Jimin's voice echoes around the empty rooftop of the university library. 

"How could I ever forget?" The girl sitting beside her answers with a smile on her face making her eyes crinkle a little bit. It was her last night at the university since the classes are officially over. She's graduating next week and until now it still feels surreal.
 

Aeri looks back at Jimin and sighs at the breathtaking view just inches away from her. So close yet so far away. She once tried to reach for her but Jimin didn't meet her halfway. She understands, and she didn't resent Jimin for her decision. It was never her obligation to reciprocate Aeri's feelings for her in the first place.

"We were fifteen at that time. The coffee shop beside the old mall downtown. You were wearing a blue plaided skirt paired with a white shirt, your sleeves were rolled up until your elbows." Jimin states one by one as she remembers every detail of that day, the day that Aeri came to her life.

Jimin smiles to herself as she look at the night sky in front of her. "I remembered you were in a dilemma back then, I could see it in your face that you wanted to share a table with since I'm the only one in your age range that time on a full house coffee shop. You were about to leave and give up on finding a seat since you aren't that good back then in start up conversations but I finally found my voice and offered you to share my table since you looked harmless enough in my eyes." The captain continues earning a laugh from the president.

Jimin clears and takes a deep sigh before resuming her words, "You had a chocolate chip cupcake with a steaming hot choco on an autumn afternoon. There was this huge tree just outside the window and the seat that we had back then gave me the perfect view of the falling leaves as they descend to the ground behind you."

"You remember all of that?" Aeri asks the captain who was now staring at her with those adoring eyes. It's been like what? Five or six years ever since they met? And here comes Jimin talking so casually about it while Aeri was trying her best not to let her heart jump out of her chest from this new found information.

Jimin's lips slowly lifts up forming a smile as she her head to one side. "How could I forget the day that I met my first love?" She says unabashed to the girl beside her.

Jimin remembers it. She remembers every minute detail of that day.

"First? First love? Me?" Aeri says pointing to herself trying to make sense of what Jimin was saying.

"Yes. You are my first love, Aeri. I can say that out loud now." Jimin says after letting out a loud sigh, a breath of relief.

The heart is now beating in contentment as it have finally released pent up feelings from the past while the other was beating in confusion as it take in the words of affirmation that it has been longing to hear years ago.

"I...uh—" Aeri tries to form any coherent word but it slips up every time from her tongue. For the first time that they have known each other, Aeri has no words to say.

Jimin grabs the president's hand to calm her down a little. "Let me finish first this time, Aeri." She says after taking a deep sigh. Aeri nodded in understanding. She could see the pleading eyes that Jimin holds. She wants this moment, she needs to finish her words this time.

"I remember back then that she shade of your hair was similar to the color of the fallen leaves on the ground. And the way that the sun hit your hair made you even more beautiful. You were beautiful back then, Aeri. More so now, very beautiful." Tears are now forming on Aeri's eyes as she hears Jimin's confession. Oh how long she have wished to hear this from her. How long she yearned for this moment. And now she have it. She have it in a form of another heartbreak from the same person.

"Do you remember my sixteenth birthday? You gave me a hand written letter as a present. There wasn't anything life changing written in the letter but something in me shifted that day. Because that was the day I realized that I was in love with you, Aeri. I can still remember that feeling whenever I see you smile. I was in love with you for years, Aeri." And with this the Japanese can't hold back anymore. She let herself feel all of Jimin's words making her heart break even more as her tears join the sorrow of her chest.

Jimin sat there as she listen to her best friend sob. What can she do if she's the reason of the pain that her friend is going through? A sorry is useless. The damage has been done. The only thing to do was to tell it all now so the wound could finally heal.

"But why didn't you tell me that when I told you how I feel back then?" Tears now flooded Aeri's face as each streak finds its way to the ground beneath her.

Jimin grabs Aeri's face trying to wipe away the tears with her hands but more and more fell out from the latter's eyes making it impossible to dry her face.

"I met you at my lowest point. We're still human, Aeri. As much as we know about each other there are still things that we purposely hide from each other too. You were pretty much the one of the few things that held me up whenever I am at my lowest. I didn't want to stain you with my problems. I can't have my sunshine get even a single drop of gloomy rain on her. I was a mess, Aeri. I still am. Please don't ask further questions about it because I'm not going to burden you anymore."

"You are not a burden, Jimin." Aeri mutters with her hands on her lap.

"I don't want you to get entangled with me. With my issues. I loved you the way I can. The way I know how years ago. I loved you wholeheartedly in silence, Aeri." Jimin says before putting a soft kiss on Aeri's forehead. A k