Tears Are Falling
Once Love, Twice Lie'What is this? Is he asking for a breakup?' her inner voice whispered as her eyes went red and watery. She never expect those words coming out from Ji Hoon since in her opinion, they were such a happy couple. Unlike her relationship with Jong Kook, Ji Hyo felt a deeper connection with the man she was supposed to marry in about 3 month from that day. However, seemed like her fiance was not on the same page with her. It made her sad. Her mind refused to believe what she just heard, "I want to ask if you are drunk.. but that's impossible since you've told me that you're at work. So what's with this crazy talk? Cause if this is some kind of a joke.. it is not funny. Not funny at all."
"I can understand if you're mad. I totally deserve it. But I wouldn't ask for this if it's not for the best of us.."
She interjected his speech, "The best? How can you walking out from this relationship is the best for both of us? Please explain cause I really can't relate that."
At this point, Ji Hoon was trying hard to hold his tears, "I wish I can.. mianhae. But it's important for you to know that I will always.. love you."
"Then don't leave. Jaebal. I.. I need you. Just tell me what should I do to keep you from leaving," she held his hands firmly to beg him to change his mind, but to her surprise he gently removed hers instead. There was sadness in his eyes when he said, "Maybe you should confirm how you feel about Jong Kook hyung.. so you can be sure of how you really feel about me." Ji Hoon then stood up and continued, "Right now it would be selfish of me if I proceed with our marriage, Ji Hyo. I know Jong Kook still loves you.. but I don't know what it means to you. I don't know if your heart is truly mine in the first place.. so I'm not convinced. I'm not convinced of our relationship. So yes.. I want you to help me to find the answer before we say I do."
Ji Hoon knew he has hurt her feeling, so he apologized again and again before leaving the house. Once getting into his vehicle, he no longer able to hold his manly tears from falling. It took a while for Ji Hoon to find his strength to start the engine and drove away from Ji Hyo's place without ever looking back. Adding to his pain, the song titled "Severely" by FT Island was playing on the radio:
Letting you go without any expression
I practiced doing that every day but it's still awkward
I also practiced how to secretly cry without smiling but
I feel like my trembling voice will give it away quickly
Loving is probably hundreds and thousands of times more difficult than breaking up
But I'm a fool that can't live without you
What do you want me to do?
Severely, I guess I loved you too severely
I don't even breath and I look around for you
I don't know when I'll be able to stop
Severely, I guess I loved you too severely
I think letting you go is more severe than dying.
The next morning, Jong Kook woke up excitedly as he looked forward to the night at the carnival. There were musics in everything he did - humming a song while showering, eating food, exercising or even when watching his favourite show on TV. Every now and then, his eyes glared at the clock. He f
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