I sighed when I woke up, the first thing that I'm doing early in the morning is staring at the ceiling of my room, but what a disgusting premonition I can smell how I stink for not having a bath/shower last night and just go to sleep, shame on me, shame on me. (It sounds shape of me lol

The events yesterday was such an uproar, Guanlin being my co-part timer at the Cafe, Guanlin take me home and Guanlin being in a rumor which the rumor is about him getting a perfect girlfriend who came from in an elite school, well great then I won't assume that I can have a chance to him from now on because he's in a relationship, and it's amazing how this kid is experiencing his first official heartbreak, won't someone plan a party for me?

For a fee minutes I stayed like that, watching the blank ceiling continuously like there's no tomorrow while reminiscing all the scenery last day, until my inner instinct has gotten into me to get up to wash my face and brush my teeth.

Self hygiene is more better that first heartbreak but food is way more better than all of this. (deonie 2017)

After I freshened up myself I cooked to satisfy my grumbling stomach craving for food like it's been decades since I last ate. Since my shift is on the afternoon I thought I need some fresh air.

To think all of this through, about stuffs like college, what course should I get, or maybe how to come out as "Gay" to my parents, oh and Lai Guanlin. I sighed again remembering that person's name, I don't want to see him though that's impossible because I will see him later. 

I'm in front of my apartment now, thinking where to go, I fished my phone in my pants pocket planning to text Woojin my greatest best friend but all we do is bickering well whatever, I clicked our message and starting to type a message for him.

Me:
Yah

Wake up dip

Wake up

Wake up

Wake up

As I continuously spammed my best friend.

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