The words that I've heard on the other line, I don't know if I'll believe it or not but I've been waiting for this to happen, Jihoon finally woke up.

"Hey, you—" before he finished his sentence I've already run outside of the cafe, I didn't cared the cold weather, running and running like my life is depended on it, Bumping to some random people and didn't bother to say sorry to them, I don't care Jihoon is awake right now that's definitely a good reason for this.

I can't wait to see him, I'm going to finally see Jihoon again.

When I saw the familiar stores around the hospital it makes my heartbeat faster, maybe because I'm running too fast or I'm excited because of Jihoon, but let's set aside those feeling, just a bit push then I'll be seeing Jihoon again. 

As I've set foot on the hospital I didn't waste time greeting the faces I've known straightly going to Jihoon's room, my breathing isn't matching my stamina anymore, it's like i overexert myself from running,  and finally I stopped when I saw Jihoon's room door.

I can hear my heartbeat, only my heartbeat, I placed my palm on my chest making myself comfortable after all the running I've done, when I creep closer tot he door the more nervous I'm feeling, reaching it but with hesitation, questions keeps invading my mind.

Does he really have amnesia? Is he really awake? Or not? What is it? 

My mind is gonna explode from all of this thoughts, but I need to open this door so that I can find the answers. I clenched my hand and sigh heavily taking all the courage I have left within me, when I opened the door...

I saw Jihoon looking outside.

There's one things in my mind right now.

He's truly awake, Jihoon is awake.

My world stops stops for a minute, I loosened the grip of my hands slowly, this isn't a dream this is the reality I've been waiting for. The tears suddenly fell down through my cheeks, I'm just standing seeing Jihoon looking so spaced out, he was so beautiful, his hair, hands, or even the angle his in now, once again I've fallen in love with Jihoon.

I courage myself to call him but before I completely called his name he already looked at my direction, looking at me innocently but confused after that.

So he really has...

"Excuse me, but who are you?" The first thing I've heard Jihoon's voice for a long time he's bed ridden, it sounded ears to me yet caused me a painful feeling too, it's definitely true that he has amnesia.

I didn't answer Jihoon's question because I know our conversation will just be more painful for me but instead ran towards his direction giving him a tight hug, I don't care if he doesn't remember, he's still Jihoon that I love though the difference is his memories are gone now.

As I hug him more tightly he began to push me away but I didn't budge in any of his attempts, he keep saying 'Mr. Who are you?', 'please stop I can't breathe.' but he stopped when I was so stubborn to let go from the hug, I'm contented with this hug now, I'm just really happy to see Jihoon again.

Awake, and his eyes aren't close anymore.

——

A random guy suddenly hugged me, it was so tight that I can't breathe anymore, trying to budge him away but I failed, he was crying like a kid in my arms while caressing my back he didn't answer who he is, or not even mentioning his name. 

Why's this guy crying over me, when we just met?

I let him hugged me but didn't hug back, it's not like I hate the hug but it feels warm, it was like the warmth that I've known so long, it feels nostalgic, I can feel his body fits in mine and how I felt secured in his hug. 

Why am I feeling this way for the guy that I just met? I don't know, 

I don't remember...

He then finally let go of the hug, wiping his tears and he's not looking at me in the face, it didn't bother me, maybe he needs time too.

"I'm sorry for that." His husky voice bursted, then it was another nostalgic thing that I can't remember, I heard it somewhere, somewhere but I can't think where and when. 

"N-No it's fine." I replied to him stuttering.

After that the atmosphere covered with awkwardness, this wasn't supposed to be like this, right? But he won't speak too and I don't know what to hold conversation with someone who. i just met few minutes ago, what's worse is even though he hug me without my permission earlier, I didn't hate it at all. Should that be a good thing?

"I'm Lai Guanlin." He suddenly spoke, which made my heart suddenly thump hard, it was painful, I can't explain what's happening to me, who's this guy in front of me and why am I acting like this. I'm scared.

I slowly turn my face up curious of his face, as I've done that I clearly saw little by little the structure of his face, his lips that's very plump, or his nose, his eyes that's very brown, until I saw his face.

"G-G-Guanlin?" My voice trembles as I called his name, not knowing what's the reason behind it, my tears swelling up in the edge of my eyes but I'm trying hard not to make it obvious, why am I even feeling this way?

Just who is this person? He feels like someone I know but it feels like he's not too? Why's my tears coming out? What's the reason? 

As I tried so hard to think all the questions that's coming up to my mind to find the answers within myself, it did not helped me but instead it gave me an headache, I forcefully help my temples curling up my knees to hid my face, This is too much.

The boy in front of me panicked as I