CHAPTER 3

 

 

Song jong ki desperately try his best to get her attention,with the hope that she can see him.She walked inside the house and calmly put her bag on the table then walked towards the kitchen.

 

 

"please song hye kyo! help me,i need your help!" he desperately try to block her stopping in front of her,but he was a ghost and ghosts don't have a body and this mean that they can't touch a living person anymore,song hye kyo on the other hand,didn't even stop and just walked trough him.Song jong ki was astonished,his mouth slightly open, fear in his eyes,he looked around to look at song hye kyo's back.

 

 

"could it be...that you really can't see me?..."he looked at her hopless finally looking downs.The next days passed by normally,she tried her best not to let him notice that she can actually see him.No matter what, she was sure at most in 3 days and she will be free from him,usually ghosts are clingy but maybe she had the hope he will go away,but later she realized it wasn't his case. It was difficult at first,because no matter what, she was living with a man,it was embarrassing when she wanted to take a shower,the first time she stopped in front of the door.She was holding in her hands all the necessities for the bath but she was afraid he will disregard every common sense and just stay and look at her bathing,she already went trought this in the past years and it wasn't a good expirience.That's why she almost made herself discivered,because she wanted to tell him not to ente the bath,but then she decided to endure,it's not like he could do something he is not a human anyway,so she just opened the bathroom door and went inside.She closed the door and stopped again,then with an unsettled expression she walked inside the glass like door and opened the tub to shower.But she was so focused on the ghost entering that she forgot to take off her clothes,so in the end she was drenched.

 

 

"damn it"she looked annoyed down to her wet shirt,she quicly take off her wet pants and shirt,when she was finally she realized she have forgotten about song jong ki.Song hye kyo looked around covering her chest and lower parts,but then she saw no one and finally relaxed and washed herself. Song hye kyo was surprised and couldn't help but think about his strange behaviour.Other ghosts wouldn't mind coming inside but he didn't, so at least for this reason she was able to see him in a better light compared to other ghosts. After she washed,she went in the living room with her wet hair and then sat on the couch,song jong ki was staring at her,his tone gentle and a little hopless.

 

 

"you will catch a cold...dry your hair before watching the tv" she was startled,who could ever think that a ghost and a stranger at that would worry if she would get a cold,not even her parents worried that much for her,but why did this person...in the end she walk in the bathroom and take the phon and quicly blow her hair,but not completly because she had a call so she rushed in the living room after stopping drying her hair.

 

 

"hello?"

 

 

"song hye kyo,you do know that in a few days it's the dead line right?"

 

 

"of course i know.Listen can you please let me be? i know what to do"

 

 

"i know but i need to remind you it's part of my job anyway"she scratch her head and sigh.

 

 

"arasso"she close he call and get her glasses.

 

 

"so no tv today too"she take her computer and start it.

 

 

"your hair aren't completly dry"he say again and then he look at her computer,before going closer to look at the screen,curious of what she was doing.She could see his handsome face near her chest,she almost forgot how to breath and stopped.

 

 

"hu?what is this?she stopped?"he turn around to look at her but she already looked away. After awhile he remained silent,only sitting beside her,this was even more annerving than when he talk,so in the end she gave in.She took off her glasses and turned to song jong ki and calmly looked him in the eyes.He was startled for a few moments,doubting if he was misundertanding her again.

 

 

"i am looking at you"he heard her soft and pleasant voice talking to him.

 

 

"are you...to me?..."he directed his index finger to his direction.

 

 

"yes,now,tell me what do you want from me?"she started to talk quite fast not giving him the chance to say anything.

 

 

"let me make this clear, i am not a charitable person so i won't go make trouble for myself for some kind purpose,i am not a detective,so why don't you go to a better place already,waiting for reincarnation?"

 

 

"wait,i need just a favor"she frowened.

 

 

"listen,i am not a ghost,i am still alive!"she look at him with a calm expression and hopleness.He undertood her well so he tried to convince her.

 

 

"belive me!"

 

 

"...ok so,since when..."

 

 

"one year ago"she smirked.

 

 

"Sure.Listen,if you are not a ghost then i am a normal human being that can't see ghosts"

 

 

"really!look here i have proof!"he take out his arm,it seemed his vein was palpitating and it's color seemed to give the feeling of warmth,this shouldn't happen in ghosts.Yes that was a truly strange sight for her,even so she collected herself soon,then she finally made her tought clear.

 

 

"then,do you know where is your body? ghosts knows where their bodies are,either they dies peacefully or not.What about you?do you know?"she asked seriously and song jong ki looked down and tought,that's right he really have no idea where it could be.

 

 

"i...don't know"she nod her head.

 

 

"as i expected"

 

 

"what do you mean?" he look at her with a questioning amd painful look.

 

 

"this is another proof of you being a ghost."song jong ki frown in sorrow and she noticed it.She don't know why,but seeing this expression on him disturb her more than a bloody ghost running at her.Maybe it's because he feel different from the others? like peaceful and kind of pure? But she soon regain her toughts and put this feeling in the back of her head and start to explain.

 

 

"listen,even if you look at me like that the truth about you being dead won't change."

 

 

"But i am sure! i can feel it?!"

 

 

"from your arm?Ok,what i am about to say can be cruel but after this i am sure you will understand.When humans die,they usually rememeber where their bodies are located and so even tought bad things must have happened at least they had that piece of them still in their sight and so they finally ascend to a better life and then reincarnate.The problem tought come when they don't remember"

 

 

"what it means...when a ghosts can't remember?"he ask a bit uncertain and afraid of the answer.She look at him with hesitant eyes but she conciled them prettly in her usual sarcastic way of dealing with things before going back to her serious side.

 

 

"trauma"

 

 

"trauma?"she nod.

 

 

"think of it as a person had been in a coma for years,for an accident or what not.When they wake up realize they lost their memories.it's the same for ghosts, they loose their memories also...because they refuse to remember"

 

 

"painful memories...a trauma"he say slowly as if he suddenly understood her meaning.Seeing him understanding she nod lihtly.

 

 

"you are saying i am that kind?"

 

 

"sight,that's right.Maybe you had some kind of really bad memories you wanted to forget and so you sealed everything...so,why don't you just move on now? on that table in the living room there are few stones,ghosts can touch it.Take as much as the persons you want to say goodbye to and then go to a better place."she said lazly.

 

 

"..."not giving any response she look at him.

 

 

"what?if there are too much then it's ok,i have methods to take them back,the important thing is for you to leave."she smile but he only stare at her.

 

 

"...how many people?"he shake his head but song hye kyo didn't understand what he meant.

 

 

"parents?"

 

 

"i am an orphan,i have no one"she slightly close a little bit her eyes,she didn't expect it.

 

 

"friends?you had it a year ago right?"

 

 

"they are collegues only"she nod her head.

 

 

"no?you seemed so friendly in university"she think and ask again.

 

 

"...girlfriend?"

 

 

"i have none"she smirk.

 

 

"what do you mean? you had an harem back then"he frown.

 

 

"what do you mean?"

 

 

"the girls at that time,in the university"

 

 

He finally remembered"they where only collegues.

 

 

"...only collegues?"

 

 

"yes"she look at him and then sneer in her heart,thinking to herself...yea as if i can belive you?O well it's not an of my buisness.

 

 

"ok then,just let go and give up in finding you memories,i am being really cooperative and gentle here to explain all this to you, i am usually really a bad character with ghosts so just appreciate my action and leave"

 

 

"...why should i give up?"she became serious.

 

 

"because it's better not to remember,sometimes forgetting,is the best thing that could happen to us...so just start all over"she said it in a way that is so serious yet as an advice with a lonley feeling that song jong ki clearly felt.She keep on talking and looking at the window as if to search for something that she can't seem to find,that's what song jong ki felt when looking at her,even tought what she is telling him is something not pleasant. Finally she turn to gaze back at him.

 

 

"...i understand what you mean,but i am sure i am still alive,so please help me"she look at him,her eyes,turn cold.

 

 

"how do you plan on finding him?"she is unsure and have no idea why.Maybe because she saw him when he was alive,or maybe because she appreciated that he respected her space,but for once she want to see what is answer will be.

 

 

"...you knew from the beginning i could see you right?" he look at her,pretending won't do any good.He lower his gaze for a moment before looking back at her,his eyes feel a little sad,she didn't say anything and just look at him,waiting for his answer.

 

 

"yes i knew.If you ask me why i pretended,it was because i didn't want to force you"she click her tongue and smile sarcastically.

 

 

"you didn't want to force me?but you stayed here,waiting till i would give in and hear what you have to say right?" he smile playfully,with a bit of guilt on his face.

 

 

"i was found out.Aigo,sorry.Well,yea,that's kind of me forcing you,but i wouldn't have done anything anyway"

 

 

"yea,sure.i wonder about that..."then she looked back at him again and in a serious voice she didn't beat around the bush

 

 

"you heard about me from other ghosts right?"

 

 

"yea...that's right"

 

 

"..."song jong ki looked back at her in a serious and sincere way,he understood that she wanted to know everything"

 

 

"yea,i heard it from them.When i was wandering around,one year ago,after finding out about the situation i was in i started to search a way to talk to people but again i am a ghost,there was no way for me to ask for help.Then one day i heard a ghost coming my way all angry looking at his wrist,he stopped right beside me who was curious about that tatoo,he fiercly looked at me and said.

 

 

"listen don't you even try to ask for her help,she is heartless and mean,listen to me,when i was a new brand ghost someone gave m the same advice but i didn't follow his words and now i am so angry and i can't event vent my anger" when i looked at the direction he came from i saw a girl and knew right away who you where.I don't know why, but i was happy,maybe because you where someone who could see ghosts and someone who saw me when i was a human.Anyway,at first i wanted to ask for your help but i decided to follow you and not come into the open with you"

 

 

She frown.

 

 

"wow,aigo i have a stalker ghost"she take the cup of water that was on the table and bring it to her lips then she look at him with the corner of her eyes.

 

 

"...so?that's not what i wanted to know,you didn't approach me only because of that,ghosts keep on coming to me even tought i am such a character because of something else right?"

 

 

"..."he look at her directly in the eyes,she put down the cup and look back at him.

 

 

"you must have sensed it too.You came to me because my body can be possessed and not because you tought i was someone who seemed to you closer to your past life."

 

 

Song jong ki was a little startled.

 

 

"yea.I know it,that ghosts can posses your body"she nod and and curve up into a deep smile that didn't reach her eyes.

 

 

"that's right,i knew it,sigh,well.Iam sorry but you can't take my body,Why? Because i won't let you...instead,i am going to send you to someone who can help you so this is our last meeting-"

 

 

"DRRRRRRRRRRRRRR" she look at the phone, smile a little.

 

 

"aigo!look who is it,my good any kind priest!hey listen i was exactly talking about you,you know i am going to sent you t-"

 

 

"i have no time right now,the ghost is your responsability"

 

 

"aigo,please be good i really need-"she tried to convince him in her usual way but things change after she ear his next words.

 

 

"i have to leave for awhile,so even if you sent me ghosts i wont be there."

 

 

"sigh...it's just one!in one year i was a good girl and didn't bother you at all,can't you just help me with this ghost before linving?"

 

 

"i can't, i am already in the train" she went into a panick.

 

 

"when are you coming back?"

 

 

"i don't know"she have a bad feeling,lately he left his house frequently"

 

 

"ok,call me when you arrive there"

 

 

"arasso,bye"the conversation ended and she was sadly looking at the phone,suddenly she hear a voice talking near her ear.

 

 

"your boyfriend?"she snap out of it suddenly and was about to end on the floor, song jong that wanted to help her,appear in front of her and with his arms tryed to catch her but he forgot an important thing,he is a "ghost"so she fell anyway.Song jong ki look at her worried.

 

 

"are you okay?"he ask worried as he kneel to her side.

 

 

"ouch,ouch,ouch,it hurts,my "she look up to him and her face has a complicated expression,she get up and run into her room.

 

 

"it's your fault!"he remained there looking at his trasparent hand,with a painful expression on his face he close that same hand into a fist.

 

 

"damn it"he say to himself.

 

 

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Song hye kyo was in her room,the pain she felt from the fall didn't stop her from thinking of what he just did.

 

 

"Tsk.First he he scare me making me fall and then he try to make it so that i won't reach the ground...what kind of logic is that?he can't do anything anyway what teh hell it's going on with him?"she sit on her bed and slowly lay on it.She knit her forehead in confusion.

 

 

"he is only a ghost"she sigh and turn around.

 

 

"song hye kyo"

 

 

"OMO!CAMJAHYA!,ya,what the hell are you doing?"she look all startled and scared beside her bed.

 

 

"you-you actually came out from the ground?" he nod.

 

 

"yea"in disbelif and in a desperate tone she ask.

 

 

"why?!can't you see i want to stay alone?"

 

 

"i just wanted to apologize...it seems like i already got used to these kind of things like-ghost...sorry,i seem to behave exactly like a ghost"he look down.

 

 

"of course you are a ghost"his face is full of sadness and a hopless and with a sad smile he look at her,it's as if he gave up on hope,this ghost,it was the first time for her to see someone like him.

 

 

"damn it!" he finally look up at her and sincerly apologize.

 

 

"i am sorry,i am telling the truth"

 

 

"...arasso,i understand so please stop it!"she scratch her head,and remain silent for at least ten minutes.He wanted to ask her what she was doing,but stopped,because he didn't want to make her more upset.

 

 

"listen"finally she spoke and he was surprised.

 

 

"i want to make things clear first"

 

 

"ok"he nod and easternly listen to her.

 

 

"from today i agree to us living together"

 

 

"what?seriously?"he smile from the bottom of his heart,he is so grateful and his eyes shine tought instantly his eyes got teary.

 

 

"ya,why are you crying?..."

 

 

"i am just too happy!sob"she cover her face with her hand.

 

 

"i should cry right now..."she tell herself.

 

 

"i will live with you and help you find you body but i have a few conditions"he of course nod and she kept on explaining.

 

 

"no matter what i find and in what state you are in,you must not pursue violent actions and directly go to the afterlife,also,never and i mean never disturb my real life"

 

 

Song jong ki was over the moon from happiness.

 

 

"of course!thanks,thanks,sob many thanks!"he start to cry and song hye kyo felt somewhat irritated,why did it seem like she was bullying him instead of helping him? she sigh and turn again to her computer.

 

 

"now go away from here,i need some space"

 

 

"can't i stay here with you? i won't do anything to disturb you"he made puppy eyes but song hye kyo looked back at him with a real displeased expression.

 

 

"please...i feel really lonely"he look down and she feel even more irritated.

 

 

"just what do you want? i am not even giving you pressure to leave anymore,so can't you give me some time for myself?!"she point her finger toward the computer,time and time again.

 

 

"this thing is what feed me! if i do something wrong here how would you take responsability?"her words,shake him quite a lot.

 

 

"get out!"she shout at him,he made a painful expression and then finally disappeared.Song hye kyo felt a little bad but then thought again.

 

 

"i did the right thing,he is only a ghost anyway"she turned around and worked her head off.Finally after getting tired she wnt straight to bed.Her head kept on thinking about song jong ki,but then again she have her reason,either way alive or not she would still be the one to suffer.

 

 

"should i just...i am hugny"she get up and walk towards the kitchen and then she turned around to see the handsome ghost leaving with her,looking outsede the window,every creature that was passing by made him look more depressed as time passed.She felt uncomfortable about it but didn't saya word and walked back to her room after getting an apple. After she eat it she closed her eyes for a bit.

 

 

".....why don't you help me?you are alive while i am not!"

 

 

"NG!"

 

 

"i am hurt so badly...am i not your friend?...if i am like this it's your fault!"

 

 

"NOOOOO"she wake up,her entire being soaking wet as if she took a bath and went straight to bed.

 

 

"pant,pant,pant"

 

 

"WHAT HAPPENED?!" song jong ki heard her scream and appeared right by her side,he was already worried and seeing her in that state made him even more worried.

 

 

"what happened? why are you-"she cut him off and with her hoarse voice she finally speak.

 

 

"i am ok,it's nothing you can go"

 

 

"but-"he wanted to ask but she said.

 

 

"I need to change" he nodded and went outside,still he couldn't help but get worried.song hye kyo get back into the bed after changing a little scared of going to sleep,either way it was like this from time to time,she took a sleeping pill that she would usually use when she couldn't sleep.Her healt was always like this,since she became able to see ghosts and as she grew up understanding just what was going on within her and how people saw her,she startet to get scared.Since she was still a child they tought she was crazy or possessed,her life became a mess. she almost went crazy and only after obtaining a cold heart she was able to live,still she was a human,she would get scared and hurt and what could hurt her most afetr all these years was just one thing.

 

 

 

 

The memory of that time...she frown and open her eyes in discomfort.

 

 

"song hye kyo,are you unable to sleep?"she heard a familiar voice and it reminded her of painful fate.In a low yet firm tone she finally opened ,tought they weren't nice words.

 

 

"get out of my room"

 

 

"i am just worried,i won't disturb you at all,i promise"she was still sweating from the nightmare from before.She didn't turn around to face the way the voice came from and lightly answered back.

 

 

"promise? i don't need anything fake song song ki,promise are only empty wprds" he looked at her back,it seemed as if it was lonely and in pain,as if even while sleeping she was on guard.Song jong ki couldn't help but frown,how is it possible for a person like her,who is well and alive, have this kind of attitude? why was she on guard even at this time with him? he really have no ill intention towards her,could it be?-He looked back at her body.

 

 

"are you worried about me taking over your body? i have no intention i never tought of doing something like that,so don't worry,i just came because i worried for you" song hye kyo who had her eyes closed,slowly open them and frown lightly.How can it be? ghost in the end are human,they would do anything to live again,no matter how nice they seem in the end they are not humans,nor friends to talk about your problems,like the tv dramas usually shows.The reality is completly different.Former,egoists humans even after dead are the same,she know it well,song hye kyo already expirienced it,in most painful way.

 

 

"i already said i will search for your body,even tought i am sure you are just a ghost,i am crazy enough to willingly gave up my precious time for you,so there is no need to fake things like this"

 

 

"what do you mean by fake?"he have suspected what she meant,even he don't like her way of toughts.

 

 

"are you saying that i am faking my worries for you?"he started to get a bit angry.

 

 

"that's right,isn't it like that?"she still didn't turn to face him and her acting this way made him even more pissed.

 

 

"do you really think i am that kind of person?"his voice was giving his feelings away so she clearly heard it.

 

 

"i have no idea what you where.Even if you where a saint back when you where alive-"she couldn't finish when she eard song jong ki raise his voice

 

 

"i CLEARLY TOLD YOU I AM ALIVE! WHY ARE YOU BEING SO CRUEL?DO YOU THINK I LIKE TO BE LIKE THIS? EVEN TOUGHT I AM A SPIRIT NOW I AM NOT SOMEONE WHO WILL DO SUCH DESPICABLE THINGS!" she was startled most of all,because he suddenly came in front of her and said those words.

 

 

"i was clearly only wprried for you,so why my being sincere,from your mouth came as if i was doing something i should be ashamed of?"he kept to loudly say all his toughts to her,a pang of guilt came from her heart,he was right he was different from the others,even so she couldn't help it.After he said what he wanted he left in a hurry.For the next few days he seemed like he disappeared.That day he told her he would be the one to look around for his bodymhe won't ask her anything.