Part 1 - Chapter 4

I Wanna Love
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4

Niel stood at his tiny folding table, a box stood open in front of him. With tears standing in his eyes he took down the photo of Jilly and lay it in the box. Beneath the frame were movie ticket stubs, a handwritten letter, and a folded tank top Jilly had given him. With a sigh he pulled the ring from his finger and laid it in the box too.

Their last phone conversation had not gone well. After thinking it over all weekend Niel had called to talk. It wasn’t until Tuesday that he found his nerve. The conversation had been short and painful – like pulling off a band-aid.

“Why are you calling me?” She had answered in a neutral voice.

“I just wanted to know you were ok? I was wondering… maybe you wanted to come over and talk about this.”

“We’re finished talking Daniel, it’s all done.”

“Jilly, come on, please, it’s us.”

“No Niel, it’s not. Not anymore, ok? I’m finished talking, it’s over. It’s time to move on.”

“Jilly…”

“Goodbye Daniel.” There was nothing but resigned sadness in her voice. Niel was finally able to accept the truth.

“Bye Jilly. Please… be happy.”

Now, a day later, he was packing away all their memories. It hurt too much to look at them anymore. With a tear sliding down his cheek he sealed the box and put it by the door.

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Changhyun stood by the edge of the bustling markets, waiting for Jonghyun to arrive. His palms were sweating uncontrollably and he couldn’t stand still for too long. As he paced back to the grimy wall of the building he spotted his date winding his way through the crowds easily.

Damn, he thought in admiration. Wearing a long, fashionable trench coat over an all-black outfit, Jonghyun looked even better than he remembered.

His eyes lit up as he spotted Changhyun, a smile split his face and he came to a stop in front of the smaller man.

“Hello.” Changhyun said, unable to hide the happiness in his voice.

“Hello.” Jonghyun smiled down in reply. “This place is awesome.”

“Yeah, shall we have a look around and then go to dinner?” Changhyun suggested, gesturing towards the markets.

“Sure.” Jonghyun nodded.

They meandered through the stalls casually.

“So how long have you been in Hong Kong?” Jonghyun asked as they wandered, pausing by a store that sold pirated DVD’s and models from videogames and animes.

“About 7 years. My family all moved over when I was in high school.” Changhyun replied, examining a miniature Bulbasaur. “What about you?”

“Uhh about 6 days.” Jonghyun admitted.

“Really?” Changhyun asked, looking up at him in surprise. “Did you move over for work?”

“Uh, no. I don’t actually have a job yet.” Jonghyun admitted, blushing furiously.

“Oh. Ok.” Their conversation lapsed a little before Changhyun decided he didn’t care, it just meant Jonghyun really was the Anti-Evan. “So, what do you do for fun?” He continued.

They paused at a stall selling tea pots and kitschy tableware. Without thinking Changhyun held a pig-shaped teapot in front of his face and snorted at Jonghyun. Jonghyun laughed in reply. He smiled as he set the teapot down again; Jonghyun had a great laugh, it sent butterflies through his chest.

“I like to work out. I used to play games when I was in Korea. And I dance, or I used to.” Jonghyun replied, showing off the disgustingly fluorescent art-deco candy jar he had found. Changhyun giggled, he was relieved that they seemed to share a sense of humour at least.

“Nice.” Changhyun replied to Jonghyun’s comment.

“What about you?”

“Hmm, I game a fair bit too. I used to go out a bit as well, dancing and stuff.” They continued through the stalls.

“Maybe we should go dancing together sometime.” Jonghyun pointed a toy gun at Changhyun, mouthing “pow” as he pretended to shoot. Changhyun pretended to die before taking up his own gun and shooting Jonghyun in reply. They chuckled and continued walking. It was surprising how natural they felt together, more than anything Changhyun wanted to take Jonghyun’s hand and lean into him. His heart thudded loudly as he considered slipping his fingers into Jonghyun’s. He didn’t want to come on too strong though and left his arms swinging freely by his sides.

“That would be fun, by the way. Going out dancing.” Changhyun realised he hadn’t really answered. Turning and grinning toothily at the taller man he led the way off the street towards a restaurant.

So far, so good. He thought to himself, fighting down a blush.

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Byunghun stood awkwardly on the sidewalk waiting for the employees of the supermarket to change shifts. He had decided he needed to talk to Jilly; Chanhee was on nightshift and wouldn’t be home wondering where he was.

Jilly emerged from the store, enthralled in her phone as she pulled on her jacket. Byunghun followed her a few steps before calling out. Jilly turned, surprised.

“Hello Byunghun.” She said politely, clearly confused by his presence.

“Hey Jilly.” He smiled at her, “How are you?”

“Good.” She paused, “Do you need something Byunghun?”

“Um. Yeah, can we talk?”

“Uh… Sure. Walk with me?” She offered.

Byunghun fell into step beside her as they walked towards the ferry station. There was an awkward silence as Byunghun found his nerve.

“Can I ask you something?” He said quietly.

“Yeah.”

“What happened with you and Niel?

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JooHunnit
#1
Chapter 27: This...this was one of the best things i have ever read
Really amazing writing, superb plot- placement and everything was perfect. I loved every character and....it was really spectacular.
IHaveRuinedMyLife
#2
Chapter 27: WOW! Just wow! It's been so long since I read a great, chaptered Teen Top fic, that I almost forgot that this is what I'm living for ㅋㅋ it's just that people don't seem to write them anymore... which is too sad ㅠㅠ
But it also means that I'm incredibly thankful you wrote this story!! I loved it so so so so much!! I'd even go so far, saying it is the best Teen Top fic I've read in... probably two years. I loved your way of describing the characters and the dynamics of each couple. ChangRick was SO ADORABLE in here~~ and ChunJoe were so bittersweet at first and perfect towards the end ♡ as for N.A.P.... it actually drove me crazy ㅋㅋ the moment Minsoo stood Niel up I was literally screaming at my phone ㅋㅋ but it also turned out to be so cute and fluffy and just the right amount of sap xD
so yeah... thumbs up for this!!! thank you so much for sharing~~ (and please continue writing Teen Top fics!! I sometimes feel like I'm the only person with an ongoing Teen Top fic that nobody even reads... it's sad... we need more Teen Top again~~)
chunjixbyungie
#3
Chapter 27: Do i have one ? Rofl . Byunghun can be hilarious sometimes ! I really liked the staring part and the whole what are you staring at.. Why ..because i like them .
Byunghun blushing and playing with the carpet too . very natural ~ he actually confessed first ! How surprising ! It was funny when chanhee said bec you are my best friend lol i bet Byunghun felt his stomach drop . That aside though , I get why he got angry the first time . i mean .. I may too with chanhee laughing in such situation . but the second time i was like .. does he have split personality ?
What angered him in " you better get used to it "?
The part where chanhee thought the doubts would come back but he'd be there to chase them off was so sweet and perfect as a closure ! Really liked it .
And of course we can't forget niel's part . so enjoyable and so funny * thumbs up *
chunjixbyungie
#4
Chapter 26: your brain is fantastically bad at sticking to one project and mine is that way with procrastination , which explains why I just got to read this NOW . I have no word to describe how fluffy and adorable ( Chanhee calling Byung a marshmallow is seriously the best thing ever ) this was ( realistic too ) Byunghun's thoughts about niel having everything he himself lacks and still being scared , unsure of himself .
it's ironic how someone may seem to lead a happy life when they are in fact being bullied .
I'll see you in about four months when i stop being lazy and finally read the next ch .
Dotoriji
#5
Chapter 27: My hearttttt is melting!!! This confession honestly explains so much more why Byunghun was the way that he was throughout the story... his doubts and insecurities. I love how Byunghun was the first to confess and say “I love you” but chanhee was the one to reassure him and really be there to chase Byunghun’s doubts away. Ahhh they’re just perfect for each other <3
Dotoriji
#6
Chapter 26: This is so sweet!!! Ahhhh I love this friendship T^T
Papoufruits
#7
Chapter 25: It felt a little sad that it's completed, though I'm really GLAD it is in a way too, haha. Unfinished fanfics are the worst sometimes... anyway, I love the theme of this story and how you wanted to include everyone's point of view. It kept the interest going.

As a suggestion, I'd love to read more about Byunghun and Chanhee's story when they were younger and how their relationship developed (maybe that's what you meant with "Byunghun's confession story"?). Thank you for this lovely story and can't wait to read more from you! <3
chunjixbyungie
#8
Chapter 25: Waah... Such a sweet ,satisfying ending ~
I enjoyed every moment of it !
Happiness was practically radiating from everyone . Minsoo's thoughts were so heartwarming along with Niel's of course whereas Jonghyun and Changhyun were so cute ~
Byunghun and chanhee ... Well the part when bh thought 11 years hadn't changed anything and not an even eternity will . * squeals *
It's awesome how you managed in just 25 chapters to write a story that's not rushed and not slow-paced either . It was perfect .
Thank you for sharing it with us !
<3
Dotoriji
#9
Chapter 25: I am so emotional omg I can't believe it's finished ㅜㅜ
The ending is perfect they're all together and happy...
I don't even know where to begin how to describe how much I enjoyed reading this story and just looking forward to the updates every week ahh I'm going to miss it
Thank you for making the ending so wonderful ㅜㅜ
Chanhee & byunghuns long strong relationship... it's like I can feel the love through the screen;; it's just so precious;; I definitely would love to read about byunghun's confession! (oh and if you're taking requests maybe about their first time?? askfkskdk)
Okay and Changhyun and Jonghyun can they be anymore cute?!? Throughout the whole story they were just so into each other and ugh the best. Now they both have rings to propose to each other! I wonder how that'll turn out lol
Niel being so happy for his best friends and minsu being happy for his new younger brothers made me so emotional ㅜㅜ those two are the perfect match and just so attached to each other seeing them so in love is so heartwarming like they finally found the one they've been looking for their whole lives~

Thank you again for writing this wonderful story!
I enjoyed it so much and I'll definitely be coming back to re-read it~!! <3
lazyfaceu #10
Chapter 25: i'm crying oh my god i screamed when i saw the "completed" status on this book