Confession

I Wanna Love
Please log in to read the full chapter

Red leaves and a chill breeze danced together to make the afternoon light filter softly through the upstairs window. Byunghun was laying on the floor of Chanhee’s bedroom, staring at him absently. He wasn’t thinking anything concrete, just meandering thoughts as his eyes settled on the soft hair of Chanhee’s fringe. Chanhee was staring right back, his eyes tracing the lines of Byunghun’s lips; swooping down along the bottom lip before riding along the rollercoaster of his cupids bow. The sounds of a movie played in the background but no one was watching or listening to it at all.

Byunghun’s lips quirked and a soft smile interrupted Chanhee’s tracing. Chanhee smiled in reply without even knowing it. Byunghun’s mouth spread wider, grinning and showing his teeth a little.

“Yah,” He chuckled quietly, “What are you staring at?”

“Your lips,” Chanhee’s voice was so easy, so calm.

“Why?” Byunghun rolled onto his side, letting his hands flop into the space between them on the carpet.

“Because I like them.” The words fell out before Chanhee could stop them. Byunghun blushed and plucked at the fibres beneath his hands. Chanhee smiled a little more and turned his eyes to Byunghun’s fidgeting fingers. He looked back up to find Byugnhun lost in thought once more, staring at him.

“What are you staring at?” Chanhee asked.

“Your eyes.” The words were a whispered secret.

“Why?”

“Because I like them.” A begrudging admission and Byunghun’s eyes turned away once more. The fingers plucked and agitated the carpet furiously.

Chanhee rolled to his side to stare at Byunghun more fully. His hands fall into the space between them, taking one of Byunghun’s and stilling it’s movements.
Chanhee laced their fingers together naturally, as they always did when they were alone. He brought the hand up to his face and examined it thoroughly.

Bitten nails again, Byunghun always returned from holidays with ruined nails. The more time he spent at school and Chunji’s house the longer they got, until summer holidays came around again and all the work was lost. Chanhee gave a slight tut as he looked over the jagged edges.

Byunghun’s eyes were closed now.

Chanhee unlaced their fingers and turned the palm to face him. There was a small, shiny white scar just below the index finger. Small, maybe half a centimetre in diameter, it pulled the skin around it into a strange shape. Chanhee ran a soft fingertip over the scar and it’s odd edges.

“It was a cigarette.” Byunghun’s eyes didn’t open. “I was 8.”

Chanhee hesitated a moment before bringing the palm to his face and pressing a kiss into the scar.

Byunghun’s eyes flicked open and snapped shut again before Chanhee can notice. Chanhee continued his inspection, turning the hand over awkwardly. Byunghun gave a sigh of laughter but didn’t protest. Along the edge of the index finger was another scar, shiny and white with age. It was long and thin, running from the second knuckle down to the first. Chanhee traced it with his finger as well.

“Kitchen knife. I cut myself by accident.” Byunghun mumbled, wriggling a little to get comfortable again. Chanhee tutted with amusement, Byunghun was hopeless in the kitchen.

He turned the palm to the floor and let his fingers wander the calloused, bony knuckles. There were more scars here; long and thin in the shape of metal chopsticks. Chanhee didn’t want to know where they came from. He linked their fingers together again and let a small sigh escape him.

Byunghun’s eyes opened. Chanhee was still staring at the old scars that lined the back of his hand. Byunghun took Chanhee’s other hand and placed it over the scars, hiding them from view.

“Fixed,” Byunghun’s voice was almost inaudible.

Chanhee’s eyes found his instead.

“Hi,” Byunghun said.

“Hi.”

“Chan?”

“Yeah?”

“I love you.”

The words just dropped out of his mouth, like jewels falling into water.

“I love you too.”

A warm spreading of wine through his body. His toes curled and his heart stuttered like butterfly wings.

“Really?”

Please log in to read the full chapter
Like this story? Give it an Upvote!
Thank you!

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
JooHunnit
#1
Chapter 27: This...this was one of the best things i have ever read
Really amazing writing, superb plot- placement and everything was perfect. I loved every character and....it was really spectacular.
IHaveRuinedMyLife
#2
Chapter 27: WOW! Just wow! It's been so long since I read a great, chaptered Teen Top fic, that I almost forgot that this is what I'm living for ㅋㅋ it's just that people don't seem to write them anymore... which is too sad ㅠㅠ
But it also means that I'm incredibly thankful you wrote this story!! I loved it so so so so much!! I'd even go so far, saying it is the best Teen Top fic I've read in... probably two years. I loved your way of describing the characters and the dynamics of each couple. ChangRick was SO ADORABLE in here~~ and ChunJoe were so bittersweet at first and perfect towards the end ♡ as for N.A.P.... it actually drove me crazy ㅋㅋ the moment Minsoo stood Niel up I was literally screaming at my phone ㅋㅋ but it also turned out to be so cute and fluffy and just the right amount of sap xD
so yeah... thumbs up for this!!! thank you so much for sharing~~ (and please continue writing Teen Top fics!! I sometimes feel like I'm the only person with an ongoing Teen Top fic that nobody even reads... it's sad... we need more Teen Top again~~)
chunjixbyungie
#3
Chapter 27: Do i have one ? Rofl . Byunghun can be hilarious sometimes ! I really liked the staring part and the whole what are you staring at.. Why ..because i like them .
Byunghun blushing and playing with the carpet too . very natural ~ he actually confessed first ! How surprising ! It was funny when chanhee said bec you are my best friend lol i bet Byunghun felt his stomach drop . That aside though , I get why he got angry the first time . i mean .. I may too with chanhee laughing in such situation . but the second time i was like .. does he have split personality ?
What angered him in " you better get used to it "?
The part where chanhee thought the doubts would come back but he'd be there to chase them off was so sweet and perfect as a closure ! Really liked it .
And of course we can't forget niel's part . so enjoyable and so funny * thumbs up *
chunjixbyungie
#4
Chapter 26: your brain is fantastically bad at sticking to one project and mine is that way with procrastination , which explains why I just got to read this NOW . I have no word to describe how fluffy and adorable ( Chanhee calling Byung a marshmallow is seriously the best thing ever ) this was ( realistic too ) Byunghun's thoughts about niel having everything he himself lacks and still being scared , unsure of himself .
it's ironic how someone may seem to lead a happy life when they are in fact being bullied .
I'll see you in about four months when i stop being lazy and finally read the next ch .
Dotoriji
#5
Chapter 27: My hearttttt is melting!!! This confession honestly explains so much more why Byunghun was the way that he was throughout the story... his doubts and insecurities. I love how Byunghun was the first to confess and say “I love you” but chanhee was the one to reassure him and really be there to chase Byunghun’s doubts away. Ahhh they’re just perfect for each other <3
Dotoriji
#6
Chapter 26: This is so sweet!!! Ahhhh I love this friendship T^T
Papoufruits
#7
Chapter 25: It felt a little sad that it's completed, though I'm really GLAD it is in a way too, haha. Unfinished fanfics are the worst sometimes... anyway, I love the theme of this story and how you wanted to include everyone's point of view. It kept the interest going.

As a suggestion, I'd love to read more about Byunghun and Chanhee's story when they were younger and how their relationship developed (maybe that's what you meant with "Byunghun's confession story"?). Thank you for this lovely story and can't wait to read more from you! <3
chunjixbyungie
#8
Chapter 25: Waah... Such a sweet ,satisfying ending ~
I enjoyed every moment of it !
Happiness was practically radiating from everyone . Minsoo's thoughts were so heartwarming along with Niel's of course whereas Jonghyun and Changhyun were so cute ~
Byunghun and chanhee ... Well the part when bh thought 11 years hadn't changed anything and not an even eternity will . * squeals *
It's awesome how you managed in just 25 chapters to write a story that's not rushed and not slow-paced either . It was perfect .
Thank you for sharing it with us !
<3
Dotoriji
#9
Chapter 25: I am so emotional omg I can't believe it's finished ㅜㅜ
The ending is perfect they're all together and happy...
I don't even know where to begin how to describe how much I enjoyed reading this story and just looking forward to the updates every week ahh I'm going to miss it
Thank you for making the ending so wonderful ㅜㅜ
Chanhee & byunghuns long strong relationship... it's like I can feel the love through the screen;; it's just so precious;; I definitely would love to read about byunghun's confession! (oh and if you're taking requests maybe about their first time?? askfkskdk)
Okay and Changhyun and Jonghyun can they be anymore cute?!? Throughout the whole story they were just so into each other and ugh the best. Now they both have rings to propose to each other! I wonder how that'll turn out lol
Niel being so happy for his best friends and minsu being happy for his new younger brothers made me so emotional ㅜㅜ those two are the perfect match and just so attached to each other seeing them so in love is so heartwarming like they finally found the one they've been looking for their whole lives~

Thank you again for writing this wonderful story!
I enjoyed it so much and I'll definitely be coming back to re-read it~!! <3
lazyfaceu #10
Chapter 25: i'm crying oh my god i screamed when i saw the "completed" status on this book