Notes: i am still so happy! thank you for reading and i love you guys a lot!! 

(Yongguk’s POV)

I wondered if Jiae is done with the boys. She sure seemed so happy meeting them. Everyone will know how she stared intensely at those boys when we were doing the meeting. The fact that she was so small added the reason why she was cute. That small sofa that I can’t even even sit comfortably, she could literally became a ball on the chair. Ahh.. she’s so cute. Maybe I’m not use seeing to cute girls like her because my sister is so fierce ahaha.. 

I went back to JYP building and when I entered the lobby, one of the staffs there called me. “Yongguk ssi?” she called. I turned around and bowed a little, flustered and was slightly feeling worried. “Are you searching for you friend?” she asked as if she was reading my mind. “Ah, yes.. she was with the GOT7 members just now.” I told her. She bit her lips as worrisome covered her bright face just now. “She just left in a rush. I heard she was looking for you.. I think she was crying..”

I scowled. “She what?”

I thanked her and quickly ran out from the building. I wanted to reach out for my phone but I realized we didn’t exchange our numbers. , why am I so stupid?I i scolded myself. I knew that she’s very, very fragile yet I am still unaware of and being all so careless. Ever since I knew her, I actually made some researches about this mental illness and I honestly, I do know a lot about it by heart. I wasn’t so sure why.

After running, I saw her standing there, holding to her phone. She looked devastated but she wasn’t crying. Though, her eyes were watery. I couldn’t help but to smile a little. I told you she’s cute. No matter if she was crying or smiling, she’s still very cute. Moon Jongup, you’re one lucky son of a gun.. when I was about to approach her, she turned around and for a moment there, I thought the earth stopped spinning because it seemed as if the time stopped and I could only see her.

Maybe because of all the previous broken relationships had taught me not to fall in love so easily and whatsoever, I was actually wondering, what is this feeling I am feeling if it’s not love? Why do I feel like I am responsible if she gets hurt? I can always blame on Jongup because they are best friend and I am practically still a stranger to her.

She jogged towards me and I smiled softly to her. “Where did you go?” she asked as if she was a child asking where did her mom go. I patted her head. “I thought you need some energizer after fangirling over those boys,” I told her and showed her the drinks that I bought. Her eyes were very teary and I felt bad. “You could’ve tell me,” she said and looked away, hastily wiping her eyes with the back of her hands. When she turned to look at me again, there, the expression that could’ve deceive others but not me.

Jiae smiled and took the drinks from my hand. “Thank you for bringing me here! I had a great time with them!” she said excitedly as we walked to somewhere, waiting for the taxi to come. I chuckled. “What did you guys do?” I asked her. I like seeing her all smiley like this. She hyperly told me how they took pictures together and how ridiculously handsome JB was. She also exchanged numbers with them. She’s one of the luckiest fan ever.

We took the taxi and headed home. It was almost way past noon and I was thinking of inviting her for lunch. Hesitating, I poked her shoulder as we ascending the stairs. “Jiae, do you want to eat lunch with me today?” I asked her. Out of the blue, she gasped. Not knowing the reasons, I was somehow gasping too. “Why are we gasping? Oh my god,” I blinked a couple of times, confused.

“Gukkie.. I have to go to my parents’ today! I’m sorry but I will call you later okay?” she patted my shoulder and quickly descended the stairs. I blinked again. Did she say she will call me? Huhu.. wait! Holdup everyone.. we didn’t even exchange our numbers!!! I frantically trying to call her but she was gone. Sighing, I walked to my apartment. I guess, the only thing I can do is wait.

I unlocked the door and entered my dungeon. As I threw the drink away, I heard someone was playing with my guitar. I curiously opened the door and saw my brother and sister was playing around. When they saw me, they called me out. “Ya.. our Gukkie~” my noona sang as she went up to me and ruffled my hair. “Uh~ looks like someone is so in loved~” Yongnam teased me. I glared at him. “Hyung, I am not.” I insisted.

The three of us hang out as usual and told each other stories about our current lives. Tasha noona was thinking about having babies now since she already reached her 30s whereas Yongnam now had continued on his hobby again, which was working out and he currently like someone as well. I wasn’t so sure what to tell them so I only told them about making music with GOT7. however, my lovely most ‘caring’ siblings on the earth didn’t buy that kind of . They gave me that look the whole time I was telling them about the meeting.

Fed up, I pouted. “Why are you two looking at me like that? I didn’t do anything okay!” I told them sternly. Yongnam chuckled and just nodded. Even Tasha did the same. Later that night, we went out for some drinking and discussing about our career and such. True that I am quite worried that I am involving myself into this industry. I did received a couple of calls from some company, wanting me to do some auditions and join the company but no, I don’t want to join any since their music isn’t my kind of music.

The thing was, during this whole conversation that we were having, my mind seemed to be rebellious. It doesnt want to focus and the only thing I cant think about was Jiae. I want to know where she is,, what she is doing, is she doing fine or is she having some sort of panic attacks again or is she thinking about me just like how I am thinking of her right now.

I had never feel this kind of impact from someone before and it felt surprisingly very nice. True, I did had a number of bad relationships, including hooking ups with some girls and I don’t want to fall in love again but eventually I will still want my own mini Bangs. There’s no harm knowing new people right?

After sending my sister and brother away, I went to the convenience store that was near our house to get myself some cigarettes and beers. No matter how noisy I am about others’ lives, I still have to finish all the songs that I promised to make. Since GOT7 was going to have their comeback around this year, I have to make sure their main song finish in one week and the rest in approximate of one month. I do admire them though. Jaebum did contact me a couple of times asking me about the songs and he’s willing to help. I told him that he should come by soon and listen to the song when it’s half done. Guess what, it’s no where to be done right now.  

I walked back to my house. It was almost 3 am and I wondered if she was home. She must’ve been at him right. Why would she be at her parents? She hated them.. right? Woah, nice Bang Yongguk. Now you’re making as if she’s the bad daughter and whatnot. Shaking my head, I entered my house and the light.

My eyes looked around. The house had never feel bright. It had always seemed so dull and I looked like a ing loner. I am still wondering why because of broken relationships, these things happened? Why can’t people love me the same way I love them? Why is it always me who gets dump for being too caring? It’s not like I don’t give them personal space to hang out with their friends and what not but when I did ask because they just became too much, they got mad and bombarded me with accuses such as I don’t take care of them properly. I am not going to say phrases like ‘girls are all the same’ but this is making me so mad.

I went inside my studio and listened to the songs I’m making. GOT7’s style of music is more upbeat than my kind of music but it doesn’t mean I can say that I can’t make music like that. I still prefer dark and underground music but these types are nice too and it’s very catchy.

The total songs in the album will be 13 and I am working on 6 of them. For the next few songs I will have to work with them in a different studio so I wont be in my house very often which made me worried about that neighbor of mine. I know that of course she wouldn’t mind following me to see the boys but she needed to be studying and ace all her tests because for an older brother, I want to see her attending prestigious colleges.

Smiling, I stared at the picture frame where it hold the picture of me, my older brother and my grandparents. Maybe this was what my grandparents were feelings when I was a student. They must had worried about me a lot back then. Thanks to them, I am quite successful and I also attend one of the best university in town. I guess, I can say that I pretty much love my life right now.

As I was busy listening and trying to mix and match here and there, my phone aggressively vibrated on the table. I picked up and saw few messages from her. Hara. I opened her messages and read it.

Yongguk oppa… where are you..

Oppa, cant you come? I miss you..

Why did you leave me here? don’t you love me anymore?

Where are all those soft kisses on my face? No flowers?

I cringed at all of her texts. For your basic knowledge on this woman, she’s the one who dumped me and cheated on me with 4 different guys in the span on 8 months. I can’t believe I actually fell for her pretends. All she cared was about my money and mostly about es. She just can’t have enough of it. I only did with a few times because I strongly believe that it’s better to have when you’re married. It’s not like I don’t have urge to have one but it’s more beautiful and meaningful to make love with your wife. Am I right? Or am I the only one who thinks that way?

I the silent mode and continued my work. Is it me or… I actually have totally moved on from Hara? 

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I grabbed my bag and exited the class. I can’t believe we finished our class so early today. I have so much time to work on the songs but luckily, someone texted me and asked me out to hang out. It’s been quite sometimes since I see this kiddo too.

Since I don’t have my driving license, I only bring my motorbike around. Well, it’s not even mine. It’s actually Natasha’s. she loves all these badass stuffs and honestly, I started smoking when I saw her that day. She told me not to follow her bad habits but I say, I am a man and I do what I want. Then later, she would smack me on my head for saying such things. I love her.

I arrived at Dal.kom cafe and saw that Jongup was already sitting there, sipping on his drinks while laughing at something on his phone. Most probably that dude was reading some manga. I entered the cafe and quickly took a seat in front of him. “Oi, long time no see you kiddo!” Jongup was so surprised, his phone dropped into his plate of cake. He groaned. “Hyung!” pouting, he picked up his phone. I couldn’t help but to help at his cute reaction.

“Fine… Fine..” I grabbed the phone and wiped it using the tissue. He still used the phone that I bought for him last year and it was still in a great condition. “You know I love that phone,” he mumbled. I raised an eyebrow at him, mockingly. “Aye, I can always buy you a new one. In fact! We should buy it today. You do know Iphone released a new model right?” Jongup gave me the look and took his phone back.

“It’s okay, hyung. I feel bad. I mean, my parents can always buy me-” “Haish! Come on,” I stood up and dragged him with me. Jongup had always helped me back then and I owed him a lot. He had always been a nice kid, always helping people here and there. I still remember the first time we met. I was walking back home, starving and having no money because my parents suddenly have money crisis and my sister had to work so hard to take care of all us. I saw Jongup who was only 12 that time and he was giving money to this one grandmother and helped her with her grocery.

I followed him out of curiosity and he caught me. It was kinda obvious that I haven’t eaten for few days that time because I literally fainted when I wanted to walk away from him. He helped me went through the clinic check-ups and even paid the bills. He brought me home and treated my whole family jajangmyeon since his money was only enough to buy that at the moment. We were so thankful to him and we ended became friends.

Later, I found out that Jongup does all these deeds without his parents knowing since he used his allowance money. He also have his own butler which literally proved that he’s a rich kid but he never boost about his wealthiness. I bet not even 10% of students know that he came from a ing rich family. He’s just too nice. Our Moon Angel.

I dragged Jongup to the nearest Apple store and let him looked around. He still looked fascinated with everything. He may be rich but he lived in such humble life. Yes, his parents did told him to wear branded stuffs and he does wear it but he told people that everything he wore was fake. Please shoot me because no one can be as nice as this kid.

“Find anything that capture your heart?” Jongup looked at me weirdly. “Shouldn’t it be ‘capture your eyes’ and not ‘capture your heart’?” I blinked and looked at him. I burst out in laughter and he smiled. “Hyung, this is so you when you’re dating. Are you dating anyone?” he asked, poking my side. I slapped his hand away and wrapped my arms around his neck. “Aniyo! I am still heartbroken. Why would I be in love right away? This kid,” I shook my head and looked around.

I should buy myself a new phone case too.. 

Jongup went around, looking for his phone and I looked at the phone accessories. There were lots of cute phone charms and I need to owe one. Grinning, I took this one Tigger phone charm and squish it. “ahh.. I should get one..” I mumbled to myself. I looked around and my eyes caught on this one hamster charms. It reminded me of Jiae. I took it and by the time my skin made contact with that furball, I know it belonged to Jiae.

I went to Jongup and saw that he he was fascinated with the space gray Iphone 6s plus. I put my hand on his head and ruffled his hair. “Arrasseo, we will take that one,” I told the salesgirl to take it out. Jongup was speechless but seeing his body language, which was a little jumpy and all shaking, he was happy and excited. Haih, whoever have Moon Angel as their life partner is just amazing.

After finished getting everything, Jongup just cant get his hand off his new baby. “you better keep that or else I’m taking it away from you,” I . He scoffed and kept it in his blazer’s pocket. “Oh, hyung,” he called and I looked at him. “Wae?” he continued to look in front as he continued talking. “You and Jiae are friends right? Is she okay around you?” he asked.

“Hm, I also have a question for you, Jongup ssi,” he didn’t look at me but he nodded. “Why do you care so much about Jiae? Do you like her or something?” I asked him. I know it was a straightforward question but I just need to know. “Wae? Do you like her now?” he fired back the question at me. I was taken off-guard I actually stuttered. “I…I-I what? Psht.. no I don’t,” I denied. It was true, right?

He chuckled. “Jiae is just lovable. I can’t just unlove her. It’s impossible.” he said and that simple statement had gave a hard punch in the chest. Yeah, Jongup does like Jiae. Or else why would he treats Jiae like this, right?

To be continued.