what do you do when you like love someone you can’t have? What do you say, how do you act? Do you try and forget? Or do you act on impulse and remember? Do you live with it or do you run away? If you stay can you cope? Can you walk around seeing this person, acting like you’re okay, like you’re not dying every second, every hour, like you’re not harboring these feelings? like you’re not contemplating life or death trying to remember that it's wrong that its forbbidn.do you tell them you like love them? Or will they ever know?

That you created a monster?

what if you didn't intend to it just happened? 

it happening because of your own insecurities......

the oh sehun you used to know disappeared because of you.it wasn't his fault...so why are you so upset?

you left him alone. 

you let them take him, the demons inside him taking away his personality, his smile, and his purpose in life.

but now he was breaking down.  

and his good side had walked away. 

he was self destructing every time you pushed him away.

trying to run away from you, everyone, and himself.

 only because you were breaking down didn't mean he wasn't going to too.

you were the only one he had and you dissapeard...

for what though?

for him to become like this?

no smile,

 no light in his eyes.

 just lifeless...

just forbidden...