CHAPTER 6


I am at jong ki's house right now, the truth is out no more lies just the truth,exactly like the truth he just told me. He said that he love me, and that he regretted what he did to me in the past and asked for a chance again,but i can't just say yes and pretend like nothing happened,jong ki fainted after telling me all that. I am looking at him speachless,i don't know what to say,no i know it,but...he is like this now,sigh,first let's take care of him,after that the medicine and i will go away.While i was thinking about what happened and about what to do next,i feel my hand being touched and then grabbed gently,i look down on the bed,jong ki seemed awake


"...don't go,pant" he ask me with pleading eyes


"...jong ki i am going to cook something,you have to eat to take the medicine,so i can go hom-" but jong ki never had any intention of letting me go,instead he let me loose balance making me fall on top of him


"aaaaaaaaaa,i am falling i am-TUD"


"don't scream...my head hurts" he say wispering,my heart is beating fast...no,not again...you must stop it,hye kyo are you still in love with him? no, i already ereased my feelings for him a long time ago.


"aish,ya,then why did you do that?" i said annoyed


"wae?does it bother you?" he look at me with his tired face and i am looking at him too,seriously i answer his question


"dae,it bothers me.What if i cought a cold because of you? what will you do?"


"...take responsability and take care of you" he say seriously


"...responsability..." those words are just enought to melt me,but...i won't do that i won't let myself become like before,so i just get up


"ok mister responability,i have to give you something to eat and then give you the medicine,after that, i will have to leave"


"song hye kyo,tell me...do you still feel something for me?"


"...stop with that"


"but i want to know" ask in his weak state,it hurt mee seeing him like that but i don't plan on making myself be hopless again


"..."i don't give him any answer and just walk towards the kitchen,as i take my time to cook,i often check on jong ki,that isn't really in a good state,his throat started to hurt too. After i finished cooking i went to him.


"here eat something"


"cough,cough,i don't feel like eating,cough" his throat hurt a lot that's why he doesn't want to eat


"listen,you must eat something, i know it hurts but you can't take the medicine without having eaten" i am starting to get really worried


"no,it's ok..." he turn the other way


"jong ki,eat something please"


"no,you can go if you want,cough" damn it


"ya!stop being supid and eat!"


"will you feed me then?"


"...yes i will,just eat" he smile weakly


"here" i gave him a spoon of the porridge and after some time,fortunately he finished everything and was able to take the medicine. Later the medicine started to work and jong ki was finally able to sleep,but only after a damn long night...


"gosh i am tired"


THE NEXT DAY


I woke up thanks to the sunlight


"aigo,how did i came home?" i don't remember how i came back home,but i am sure that i am on a bed that's why it must be my house.But there is something wrong,i feel some kind of pressure on me,when i look at the place,i notice a hand


"gasp!boya...no,please" i turn slowly around praying every existing god


"GASP!" but,i don't think they heard me,because that hand,the hand that is around me,is that of song jong ki,damn it,what do i do now?


"damn it!" i say in a lower voice hoping not to wake him up,thing is there is just a problem,this guy sleeping face...i missed it a lot and even if only for a few seconds being in his arms,laying next to him,i missed everything,so just for a few seconds i just stayed there watching him.


"let's see if he still running a fever" i touch his fore head and fortunately he has no more fever,i am happy that he is finally well. I smile and then i say wispering


"good" then i look at my watch and it's time for me to go,so slowly i try to get up


"slowly,slowly,slowly,hye kyo,please-" suddenly i am pulled on the bed again


"KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA TUD" IT WAS HIM AGAIN!


"where are ou going" he say while smiling


"pant,pant,pant,ya! i have to go to work!"


"work?it's too soon"


"i start soon because i am a trainee,now let me get u-"


"wait a little,i like having you in my arms" so this time he hug me for real,gosh,how much time passed since he hugged me like this,as if he didn't want to let me go


"jong ki,w-w-what are you doing?" i try to collect my toughts without being able to do it, then jong ki say something that really shocked me


"what a good feeling,holding you like this,it seems so normal,i missed it so much" he said while smiling,but i was in total confusion,he missed it?


"you...missed it?" i asked


"dae"


"wait,did you r-"


"just a feeling,my body just,does this alone and my heart,feel happy...this is not the first time i hold you like this right?" i could only answer as i was asked,in his embrace because i missed this too


"dae" i could only say this


"...hye kyo...give me a change again" i looked at him surprised while he kept on talking


"just,let's give it a try,i won't hurt you anymore i promise" ...i want to belive him,i do,but...my body remember all those tiring night i spent waiting for you to wake up,for you to call me,for you...to say i love you,but instead,i only got a call where you told me you found a girl...your promises, scare me.


"jong ki,it's all in the past,i have no intention of giving you a chance or anything like that,i have work to do" in a decisive way i tell him this


"don't force me into this jong ki" he looked pained and then he let me go after he understood what i meant. After i finally get up i take my bag,but before going away i make sure he knows what to do next


"here,this are the medication you have to take,also rest is important to recover sooner"


"i can't i have work to do" he say


"you should do what i say if you want to get better" he look me in the eyes and for a moment i really wanted to look away,but i can't show my weakness


"why are you looking at me?"


" are you saying this as a doctor or as yourself?...as a song hye kyo worried for me?"


"...sigh,i am a doctor so-"


"answer me,i need to know" damn it,why the hell am i in this situation again?what did i do wrong?...what should i tell him? if i say i was worried he will keep on hoping and if i say i don't...


"i am worried" he smile at me


"as a doctor of course" his smile then fade away and i just walk out of the door like that...


IN THE HOSPITAL


Damn it! aish,why did i go there why?! i am a stupid idiot,i really am...what should i do? his touch...i can still feel his hand touching me and his lips...his kiss...


"ya! song hye kyo! are you listening?" say my friend


"hu? what? what happened?"


"ya,are you stupid?...what's with you? why are you so red?"


"red? me?"


"who else?"


damn it,could it be because i was thinking about his kiss?no that's not the case for sure


"maybe it's just because it's hot today,ahahah"


"ya,it's not hot, we are almost in the rainy season you know?" aish just,let it be please!


"so? where did you go in a rush yesterday?"


"....well" i told her everything that happened


"what?! you told him everything?gosh,ya,and now? what are you going to do?"


"i don't know-a.acciu!"


"hu? ya,could you have cought his cold?aish,he only make your life miserable that bastard"


"aish,no don't worry i don't think i-a-a-acciu!"


"look here what do you mean no?,sigh,listen,i will take some of your patients,since i don't have a lot to do anyway,just take something before you run a fever arasso?"


"dae" aigo,this too.Either way i tryed my best to work till i could feel like it


"aish,i better sit down i really don't feel good" i went to the cafeteria of the hospital and sat down


"doctor kang,you don't feel good,what should i bring you?"


"something warm,just that will do..."


"dae,poor thing"


"cough...aigo,i feel like a rag" i close my eyes,and in the end the only thing i keep on thinking is his touch,his kiss and at his words


"damn it,jong ki,what do you want from me,you are messing me up again"i say while buring my face in myhands when suddenly i hear a voice


"doctor kang!" i look up and it's my patient friend, lee jung seok,he smile at me and i try to smile too,i then get up and try to walk toward him,but i couldn't do even a step because i felt weak.


"doctor kang,doctor kang!,wake up! doctor kang" everything went blank


END OF HYE KYO POV


Jong ki came to the hospital and just in that moment and saw what happened,hye kyo smiling to a guy he doesn't know and then fainting in his arms.