CHAPTER 4


SHK POV


Damn,it,damn it,damn it!...why the heck is he here?. I can't help but hope that he belived me,anyway i have to take care of a patient.


"nurse choi,what's wrong?"


"o! doctor song,this person" i look at the man in front of me,he is a good looking man,but he seem fine,i wonder what is wrong with him


"is he the patient?"i look at him


"no i am not,doctor,the patient is-" the man look to his right side and then shout


" idiot! why are you up? you should be in bed!" he run and my eyes follow him,gosh if i was shocked


"don't scream,my head hurt" jong ki say,my gosh it can't be please someone tell me what i am thinking is wrong


"i better leave while while i can" i try to turn away when the man from before shout at me


"doctor! this idiot is the patient! please scold him for me!" i really don't want to


"doctor!"


"damn it"i wisper then turn around and look their way,jong ki's eyes never left me,he was always looking at me. I want to run,but i am a doctor and i can't let personal feelings be in my way,so i just smile and look at jong ki.


"so,he is the patient?"i ask his frined


"dae,this idiot is the patient" i look at him again


"lay down please"


"...fine" he then does as i asked him


"how do you feel?"


"bad...really bad" he says,what is he feeling?only that, won't make me understand anything,i take his chart and read it


"fever,head ache...meaning a cold"


"a cold?really? ya see,that's why a told you to rest" i take my stethoscope


"still since you fainted i want to make sure,please raise your shirt" he look at me then say


"are you sure?"


of course it's ok...of course it's not! ya,it's been almost 6 years now that i didn't...see you shirtless! i wanted to say, but instead i tried to see him as any other of my patients and i made it seem as if i didn't care


"i am a doctor and i am doing my job,so i am okay...are you the one uncomfortable? should i call someone else?" please let me call someone else!.


..."no,i am-sigh,nothing,i will raise my shirt" fortunately he belived me. I looked at his body,he became even more handsome i can't help but stare at him, then i start by touching his abdomen i could feel him trembling a bit


"cough"come back to heart hye kyo! it's not the time to touch his well built body,remember who he is and everything will go back to normal


"i am going to put pressure on some points tell me if you feel pain"


"ok" i put some pressure on some parts but he never say anything,instead i feel him becoming a little warm


"i think your fever is rising again,but i almost finished to look at you i will just use the stethoscope and then you can put down the shirt"


"ok" i then start to use the stethoscope and found nothing wrong


"ok,you can put down the shirt" he did as i told him


"so what's wrong doctor?"


"you have a bad cold that's for sure,let's mesure your temperature" i take the thermometer and mesure his temperature


"only 36 degree? strange. Still you need rest and i think you must stay here for the night,the fever might come back"


"but doctor...i have to go now i can't stay here all night"


"i see" i look at jong ki and then say


"i will tell your parents but i don't know the number of your wife,she should come to you now"


"wife?" say confused jong ki "what wife are you talking about?" what does he mean? is he for real?


"sigh,jong ki your wife,tell me her number"i say with a stern face


"d-doctor do you know each other?"


"dae" me and jong ki answered together


"woa,really? how?"


"we were just childood friends-"


"she was my girlfriend" i was shocked when he sayd that and he didn't stop there!


"we wanted to get married too" he kept on answering


"what?!seriously?! wow!" but this doesn't seem right to me,the words girlfriend and marriage coming out of his mounth, feel like a damn joke he is pulling to me and i hate it.


"no that's incorrect,we never dated or talked about marriage.If you don't want to call her that's your buisness" i get up but jong ki take my wrist and stop me, i turn around surprised


"...ok...i think i better be going" say his friend and we are left alone


"...would you please let my hand go?"


"i don't want to"


"mpfff...ya,let me go,what if your wife see this? she will misunderstand" i say with a sarcastic tone


"why? are you gealous?" what a bastard,i become serious and take his hand with the one i had left and look at his ring. Our two hands are both wearing a ring


"we are both married, my husband wouldn't like me being touched by another man" and then i push his hand away


"i will call your parents,so they will come at least, the rest i don't i don't care i  turn around to walk away again but his voice stopped me


"why are you so cold?" do you have the courage to ask? i really want to say that to his face but unfortunately...i can't. I look at him


"what do you mean?"


"you,talk to me as i am a stranger" you treated me as a stranger before


"i only said the truth"


"you didn't, you left out the fact that we where a couple before and that we wanted to get married" ...look at this,i really want to know just what he is thinking,what does all that matter when he has a wife.


I cross my arms and the ask "i don't understand,what's up with you? what does it matter if i told that to him?"


"because it matter to me..." he look at me serioulsy and for a moment i became silent. It's important for him,wae?did he regain his memory?


"...did you...remember something?" he looked at me and for a split second my heart started to beat faster as if to wait for something,even tougth i shouldn't, even when i had already put an end to him in the past five years,becase hope was a bastard to me.


"...i didn't" i knew it, but i kept on listening "the doctor said the loss memory is permanent i would never be alble toregain my memories again"


"sigh...so,once again,what's the problem?" he look at his hand and take off the ring to my surprise


"w-what are you doing?" i asked


"this is a fake" he say plainly,tsk does he really think i am stupid


"...put that back on,i don't know what you want to do,but this is rude towards your wife..."


"but i don't have a wife" he answer seriously


"sure...you don't have a wife,of course,wow you became even more bastard than before jong ki...call your parents by yourself, i don't want to look at your face for a minute longer" he made a really sad and angry face too, then pull me to him


"a bastard? i am a company owner now,still people keep on wanting me to get married, but i don't want to,that's why jin goo, the person from before gave me this,to make it seem real he brought an expensive one,i have to pay him back too later.
Do you still think i am a bastard?" he look at me in the eyes again. He isn't lying,at least that's as if he didn't became a damn actor in these five years.


"you didn't need to explain because i-" then i was suddenly stopped


"what about you?"


"what?" i asked confused


"are you really married?" his answer made me feel like i was cought in my own lies


"...dae" i said in a decisive way


"i don't belive you"


"...jong ki that's not my buisness,if you don't belive me...it doesn't change the fact that i am married"


"you are here while your husband is still there,do you think it's belivable?"


"i will stay here for a few month,if they need me, i will remain no more than 1 year...i will go back to him" he became serious


"so you...ren't here to stay?"


"...no,i will go back" he slowly let me go...as i get up and then turn around i hear something that made feel strange


"song hye kyo...i missed you..." i stopped walking and i was unsure if i should ask him more,if it's true,that he missed me,if it's true hat he isn't married,but now...even if he isn't...i sayd such a stupid thing,me being married!


"w-what are you saying now?"


"doctor shouldn't ypu turn around? and look at me? also,i am left here all alone i need someone with me,i am bored"


"i am a doctor i am not your baby sitter"


"but you are my friend" friend...that word,is something that...i don't want to hear from him,i am done with being his friend. I became resolute and then i look at him in the face


"i am not your friend jong ki,i am just a doctor" i walk away and leave him behind. Still i feel a little unconfortable leaving him all alone,so i ask to one of the nurse


"nurse choi,can you please stay with that patient till his family arrive? if you have anything to do i will ask someone else to take care of him"


"no it's ok,i will go to him doctor kang" i smile at the sweet middle age woman


"thanks"


"you welcome" she answer




Next day


SJK POV


My gosh i can still feel her hands on me,i felt hot all over but she mistook it for fever,should i have told her hey,it's your fault that i am like this...of course not...sigh. After she went away a female nurse came and stayed with me till my parents arrived,she told me that hye kyo asked her to stay with me,tsk she seem not to care for me but in the end,she does care.


I am out of the hospital now,but i really want to know something,so i asked a friend of mine


"jung-soon,noona"


"what is it?what are you doing here? if my boyfriend see you he will misunderstand again!"


"aigo,he won't belive me,anyway to be sure i will ask soon"


"what?be fast!"


"Ok,listen,there is this this friend of mine-" i stop talking because she look me in a strange way


"it's not me i am serious!"


"sure,sure go on"


"really i-ok,so this friend of mine,had a girfriend but they breack up because unintentionally he hurt the girl really bad and then she left. Five years later she is back and has a ring on,do you think she is telling the truth or not?by the way,she treated him really bad,but when he was in the hospital she made sure he wouldn't be left alone till his family arrived,o!she is a doctor by the way" i am waiting her answer like a little kid who is curious about the world.


"so when you where in the hospital you met her again,but she treated you badly and you found out she is married,correct?"


"correct-no i mean it's not me!"


"ok,ok,so your friend want to know if she is saying the truth or not?"


"bingo!"


"well,usually people tend to hate a lot a person,even more if that was someone they loved dearly"


"so she really hate me?!"


"so it's you?ahahah"


"ya!noona!"


"anyway,tell me what did you do to her?so i can understand the situation"i was unsure if to tell her or not but in the end,i told her everything and her answer was


"what?!biccinnum!ya! of course she hate you,if it was me i would despise you to no end"


"ya, don't be so cruel,i felt bad all these years ok?so just tell me could it be true? that she doesn't care?that she is married?"


"...sigh,listen,i can tell for sure that she loved you a lot from what you told me,after you forgot her she stayed by your side for a year before finally going abroad, that mean that she had a lot of affection for you.About the marriage,i think it's impossible that she married withouth even telling her parents,that's for sure,so if you never heard anything either she can't be married,also you can be sure of it asking to your parents or hers,if they will say that they new,when in the past five years they never said a words that means..."


"that means?"i was sitting like an idiot waiting for an answer


"it means it's a lie and that she just asked her parents to help in keeping up the lie,her friends of course will say the truth,but for this you have to be fast,if she has good friendsthey will even help her in faking pictures,but then you won't be able to know if it's true or not"


"arasso,thanks noona!" but then noona stopped me and became serious


"what is it noona?"i asked confused


"tell me the truth before you go,do you love her? or yours it's just guilt?"in the past i would be confused and doubted my choice but not now


"it's not guilt and, i don't have any memories of her as a girlfriend,i know i can't recover those times"


"then what do you want to do?she remembers but you don't"


"create new memories and make her forgive me,that's...i want to be by her side,that's what i want to do" my friend let me go and then smiled


"good,to tell you the truth i felt really bad for the girl,i don't know her,but i think she deserve to be happy,so you better be good...wait,is that girl the reason you walways refused blind dates?" she asked and i could only smile in response then i left to gather informations. Everything was just like he said,that mean that hye kyo is single.


"YESSSSSSSSSSSS!...hye kyo no more running away,prepare yourself,ahahah-"


"are you an idiot" plainly said my friend jin goo runing this fantastic moment