CHAPTER 5




I am now in the dormitory or the hospital because when we doctors aren't able to go home, we just remain in the hospital so that in any emergencies we are on stand by. I layed on the bed,thinking back of what happened the day before,fortunately i asked my parents to help me in keeping the fakade even if at first they didn't agree with it. I know it's wrong and they confirmed the fact that he isn't married and that he isn't seeing anyone,but even if i know i shouldn't do it,in the end i just felt like faking the fact that i am married was the right thing. I don't know why,what i know is just that it felt like he was trying to confess?...no it can't be and even if it is,i am not going to go back with him,because ,it terrify me the only tought of stay with him again...even if jong ki really wanted to tell me something like that,i can't forgive him for being such a selfish person and also...i can't forget...he forgot but i didn't and even if- TD"


"hu?a message?" i was interrupted by a message,that's right,while i was in Huston my friends introduced me to this live game,meaning that every person in the game in reality is guided by a person. This game it's like a quest,adventure and so on,i tryed it for curiosity and in the end i started to enjoy it. We usually play as a pair or as a group,but right now i am not playing with the group but just as a pair. It's been 3 month and we always played together,in the end we even became good friends,i think she is a woman because in the online game the character i am pairing with is a girl,i had doubt for at least an year because sometimes what she says it's more like the words of a man,i never asked tought,because as a online game people can fake who they are as much as they want,but we became close,she told me a lot about her and i did too,anyway,right now my friend sent me a message.


I am going to answer


TEXT


SHK: hi phoenix(PH), how are you?still having a cold?


PH: hi Sherry,a little better thanks to you,i did as you told me,what about you? sorry that i didn't reply to your messages,i had something to do.


SHK:it's ok,don't worry i had things to do too


PH: by the way is everything ok at your work place? did the director do something bad to you?


SHK: no...well...he make me come back to korea...so now well i am in korea


PH:what?! are you in korea?seriously?


SHK: yes,i am in korea


PH: I am in korea too,so you are from korea or are you just working there


SHK: what really?! so you are from korea or are you here for other reason?. Also,have i not told you? i am korean,i just had the opportunity to go and work in huston five years ago,but now i had to come back here are you korean too?...


PH: you don't seem happy to be back home and yes i am korean


SHK: well...that's because i have some problems right now.


PH: by the way why don't we see each other for real?


"...what should i say? i don't think it's really a good idea,what if in reality this person is someone else?or if i make a mistake?...but she already know a lot about me?...still...


SHK: sorry dear i don't think i can go out for the time being,i am full of work till up my head,sorry


PH: it's ok don't worry,but i really want to know you


SHK: we will one day


PH: i hope so


SHK POV: i have to go back to work, time is up,bye


PH: bye


I close my PC and then go back to work


END OF SHK POV




LJS POV


"lee jung seok,what are you doing with the computer again?it's almost our turn" say to me my friend beom seok


"i finished"


"still the person online?"


"dae" i smile at him suddenly the nurse call us


"Are you lee jung seok?"


"dae"


"you can come in, your friend can receive visits now"


"thanks,let's go" then while we walk following the nurse i see a really beautiful girl,i was speachless,black hair and flawles pale skin. I wonder who it is.We finally arrive in the room of my friend


"here,this is the room,the doctor will come here soon,she will tell you everything"


"ok"i am of course worried for my friend but i also am really curious about the girl since i am sure i will not be able to see her again i just at least want to get to see her more,but strangely i see her coming this way,she is so small but cute,maybe she will have to go this way.


"good,i will get to see her better if she come this way"i say wispering,while i was looking at her our eyes met,i was startled,never happened before that i felt shy looking a girl in the eyes. She comes closer and closer and still look at me, soon after i see her smiling...to me.


The beautiful girl now stand right before my eyes


"good morning" she tell me,why?i mean does she want my number? yes that must be it, girls always ask me that,but this is seriosuly something.


"good morning" i answer with my best smile


"dae,now can you please let me pass?" at that i started to get confused,i mean what about my number?doesn't she want it? i remain speachless for a few seconds


"mmm,can you please let me,pass?" she ask again


"o doctor song"


"o! nurse a jae" i turn around to the nurse


"d-doctor?"


"dae,she is the doctor...cndae,doctor song where is your gown?" she ask and i turn to the small girl


"my gown?" she look at herself


"gasp!omo,i forgot it in my room" she say aloud making us laugh


"...so you are the doctr,sorry,come in" i say to her and smiling she come inside the room,my friend is still laughing


"glad you are finally laughing,see you where scared,but as i told you everything was fine "she said to my friend


"thanks doctor song..."


"she is the doctor?" ask beom seok


"dae,she was the one that did my surgery"


"seriously?! you are so young!"


"ahahah,thanks,but i can only do up to here,i have a long way to go" her voice sure is cute,her laugh is so tender


"you seem fine for now...nurse choi the medicine? are you giving him the one i told you?"


"dae"


"good,later my superior will come too, just to get a better look"


"what about you doctor will you come back?"


"sure,if you want of course"


"sure i do!"


"good,now i will go since you have some friends that came to visit you"


"o right, the guy with glass is beom seok and the tall one is lee jung seok" he introduced us and the pretty doctor looked at me and beon seok. I can't waste this opportunity


"doctor what's your name? can i know it?"


"here we go again,always fliring,doctor song,don't tell him,it's only going to hurt"


"rest,please my dear friend sleep,i didn't do anything wrong it's only asking for her name" i look at her with my charming smile,she is smiling too


"it's okay,there is no problem,my name is song hye kyo,nice to meet you lee jung seok"


"song hye kyo...really a beautiful name"she just smile,suddely her phone ring


"sorry" she take her phone and answer


"yeobuseyo?" her smile all of a sudden,disappear


"what do you want?...i don't have time now,if you aren't feeling well come to the hospital...aish...fine wait there till i come back,i don't know when i will be able to get out tought...no wait-" she then look at her phone


"i can't belive it,this person make no sense" i wonder who it was


"sorry, everyone i have to go,nurse a jae,if there is any problem please call doctor lee jin"


"sure"


"ok, bye everyone,by the way,if you feel any pain,a lot i mean call us immediately arasso?


"dae,i will"


"good,bye" then she is going away but i really want to know her more, maybe it's appropriate right?...it's ok,i will see her again


END OF LJS POV




SHK POV


I am now visiting the patient i did my last surgery on, i was happy that he was fine even tought of course he would feel some pain he didn't say anything,he has good endurance,there was a really tall and pretty guy too,everything was good till i got a call.



"yeobuseyo?"


"...it's me,jong ki"i was surprised to no end,i never tought he would be calling me,i changed my phone number,he wouldn't be able to h-o damn,my mother,she was the culprit


"what do you want?..."


"i want to talk to you,can't we see each other now?" of course not,i don't want to talk to you,if i do it's going to be hard to forget you


"i don't have time now"


"but i am not feeling well"


"if you aren't feeling well come to the hospital-"


"i can't i really can't,i am home now" damn it what the hell, should i worry too now?


"...aish...fine wait there,till i come,but i don't know when i will be able to go out tought..."


"it's ok just come to me"


"no wait- gosh this person make no sense" damn it...after i get out of the room of my patient i start to do all my round,i finished working at midnight


"should i go or not?...should i call him?...no a text is ok,maybe he won't even read it and won't answer so i won't have to go...in the end i am sure he is faking it" i sent him a text where i ask him his adress,because i heard from my parents that he is living alone now. Soon after my phone start to ring,it's him.


"yeobuseyo?"


"song hye kyo...cough, the address i sent it to you already,so,cough,cough,please come soon" he doesn't seems to be faking it,i think the fever got worse


"ok,wait there i will come soon"


"dae,cough,i will wait for you"


"damn,i am trying to avoid him,but here i am running to him,aish,this is so not good"i get inside the hospital and take some medicine and what i need then i run to my car and then get inside. I start the car and drive to his house.


"the number is...o!it's this one" i ring his door bell and the door slowly open up


"o, you finally came" he is in a really bad shape,i can tell his fever has risen up


"sigh,what happened to you? how come you are in this state?"


"cough,cough,cough-" he almost fainted


"ya! where is your bedroom?"


"to the right side"


"arasso" i walk together with him to his room and then help him to get to his bed


"here, lay down... you are sweating way too much,you should change first"


"change? are you going to undress me?"


"..don't joke around i could tell right away that you have at least 40 degree of fever,change,i will not help if you can do it alone...can you do it?"


"...i can,cough"


"...where are clean clothes?"


"left side"


"ok"i  run to take clean clothes and and then give them to him


"here change your clothes,i will go and take some tepid water,later i will prepare something to eat i brought some medication"


"ok,cough,cough,cough" i take the water and then go back to his room,he was trying to take off his shirt but didn't have enough enegrgy


"stop,wait for me,i will help you" i put down the container with the water and then go to him. I take the clean shirt of the pajama and put it beside him,then i walk in front of jong ki,his face is all red and hot,he must be feeling really bad.


"i couldn't take it off" i look at him in the eyes


"i know,i will take it off for you so just do as i say" i slowly take the bottom of his shirt and pull it off,it's been six years that i didn't do this? i forgot how his body was like,it was a bless but now here i am,undressing the man i tryed hard to forget.


"i am going to wipe your sweat off" i take the a wet cloth, then look at his face for a few seconds,gosh if it's embarrassing.When i am about to start jong ki say in a lower voice


"what about your husband? what will he think if he saw you undressing another man?" what's with you seriously


"he won't say anything because he know i am a doctor and you are just another patient" i say while wiping his chest


"i am not just another patient and you know it"


" you aren't? then what are you? aaa,just a human being who needs to be taken care of,i am doing a good deed"


"i am the person you were in love" i then stopped what i was doing and slowly looked at him.I became serious


"that's right...someone i loved, now stop talking we have to finish fast" jong ki didn't answer but just grabbed my hand


"gasp,w-what are you doing?" i ask surprised,really surprised,jonki still not answer me and just pull me closer


"jong ki,what are you doing now?" we look at each other for a few seconds,while i was all nervous he was just normal and serious,his eyes suddenly went to look at something else,to the hand with the ring,then he raise his other hand and touch my gold ring.


"this ring..."


"what about it?" i say annoyed


" i don't like it" and then he slowly take it off of my hand, letting it fall on the ground"


"ya!what are you doing? did your brain stop functioning?!" i try to get down to search for it but he pull me up again,bring me so close that now i am in his warm arms,he is so hot because of the fever,he really is hot.


"let me go,let me g-"


"i don't want to" he say in a lower voice caused my the cold


"i need to find my ring!"


"i know it's just a fake" what? he know it? how is that possible? did my parents told him the truth?no that's not possible,i must be strong and stick to my lie


"wha-tsk,fake? it's pure gold,if you don't belive me that's your buisness"


"when i said it's a fake one,i mean that your marriage is just a lie" gosh he knew it!?


"o-omo,you sure talk a lot for someone who has a fever,good it seems like you are better,i better go-"


"you faked to be married,why? is that because of me?" damn it!


"ya,let me go it's not like that and i really am married!"


"you are not,i am sure" what do i do? still this is not right,i have to escape,so i try to breack free from him but to no use


"even if i am sick i still have the strengh to hold onto you" then with one hand he take my face in his and with the other he hold my back


"w-what do you want to do jong ki" he come closer


"...what i wanted to do for the past five years"  what does he mean?


"no,stop it jonki,stop-" but in the end he kissed me...five years ago,i would have been happy,it would have been different,but now,i am too scared,he is not someone,i can stay with,i realized it back then. When he finally stopped kissing me i asked


"...so...what does this mean?"


"it means that your lies won't affect me at all" fine since we are at it,let's just say the truth.


"tsk...dae,i am not married,but don't be mistaken,you are not so important to me that i would fake it,i had other reason"


"then why did you keep on telling lies to me?"


"because i wanted to do that,so what?"


"you...still love me right?cough,cough,cough" love? what's up with him?


"jong ki,first put something on,i think you have enought energy and then...let's talk once and for all" i have to make things clear,i did something stupid i just had to talk it out from the start.


"dae,we should,cough" he finally dress up and then we start to talk


"you,what's your purpose?what do you want from me jong ki?"


"...i want to start all over again,with you" he was serious,my heart skipped a beat,but maybe it's too late.


"mpfff,i will be clear with you...i have no intention of going back with you?what for? you forgot and those memories won't come back, so emotions like love...can't come out of your mouth,you said so yourself,you didn't feel anything right?"


"i know i hurt you and i am sorry-"


"yes,you did, you ripped my heart a part" he became silent and guilty together with sadness all over his face


"you,needed me,so i decided to put up with everything,i even said i would be your friend...hoping you would remember me or at least to fall for me again.But instead you started dating someone else right in front my eyes when you knew well what my feelings where"


"...i am sorry i was a jerk,saying i tought you have stopped those feelings would seem like a lie,so i won't say that"


"the day i decided to leave,i was hoping for a miracle,for you to stop me and maybe i would have wavered,but you didn't...you tought i would confess to you right?" his face didn't lie


"and you where ready to reject me. But now  what? you want to get back with me? for what?"


"because i love you!" he said letting me speachless i never expected this from him


"yes,i was a jerk.i was someone really stupid,but that day i understood just how much important you where for me,that time i broke up with her and for five years i never dated,because of you...i couldn't forget you song hye kyo,it wasn't love at first just guilt but later i found out just how much i was in love with you. All this time i waited for you to come back,hoping for a chance to make it right,for a secong chance"


"but you forgot!-"


"yes,i did! but i want to built new memories with you,song hye kyo...only you-"after that he fainted



Ok here i am with a new chapter,i wanted to write a chapter ofwill you recognize me,but in the end i just did this.