Things You Said That I Wish You Hadn’t.

Youngjae was alone. No surprises there. And it was 3 in the morning. Music was blasting through the speakers. Youngjae was on the living room floor. He wasn’t listening to the music; the music was there just to keep him some kind of company. Plus Youngjae was afraid that being alone in silence, alone with his thoughts would result in something Youngjae would most definitely regret later.

Youngjae was lying on the floor, trying not to think.

“Stop thinking” he demanded himself, slapping his own cheek over and over until there they were hot and it felt as if he had just spilled kerosene on them and set them on fire.

“Stop thinking” Youngjae repeated again.

Jaebum come home to G-Dragon loudly yelling “Bang Bang Bang” over and over again filling the whole apartment with his energetic and edgy voice. But despite the loud song playing there was a somewhat depressing aura in the house.

“Youngjae” Jaebum slurred, and could barely walk to the living room. He was heavily drunk and reeked of all types of alcohol.

“Are you drunk?” Jaebum’s drunken state upset Youngjae even more.

“One could say that” Jaebum smiled in the most heart wrenching way possible. It hurt just to look at his sloppy actions.

“You can’t even stand straight” Youngjae said, taking a few steps back just in case.

“Awh, come on baby, I only had a few drinks” Jaebum tried to get closer to Youngjae but tripped over his own legs.

“WHO THE HELL JUST TRIPPED ME? I’M ASKING YOU WHO TRIED TO TRIP ME” Jaebum started to shout, scaring Youngjae more.

“You tripped over yourself” Youngjae timidly answered.

“I’m stupid! I would know not to. Are you calling me stupid” Jaebum yelled.

“Hyung stop yelling, please” Youngjae was especially afraid of loud noises and people raising their voices as him.

“Wait, are you scared of me? Of ME? I’m your husband, if you forgot!” Jaebum continued to yell.

“Hyung, please, please for the sake of everything stop” Youngjae pleaded, getting more and more anxious. All he wanted to do now was to hide somewhere and cover his ears and cry to himself.

“Choi Young Jae, I’m your legal husband!” Jaebum declared out of nowhere, still speaking louder than needed.

“YOU DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE AFRAID OF YOUR OWN HUSBAND! WHY DID YOU EVEN ING AGREE TO GET MARRIED IF YOU COULDN’T EVEN HANDLE MY YELLING” Jaebum yelled louder. But that ticked off Youngjae. He no longer was afraid.

“Wait, what? You have no right to tell me my rights! And to be honest, it’s not like you’ve been acting like a proper husband these past few months!” Youngjae said looking at Jaebum.

“What did you just say! This er…” Jaebum cursed and tried to possibly hit Youngjae but was too drunk, so instead just hopelessly fell into the ground.

“Don’t you dare curse at me” Youngjae hissed, glaring at Jaebum.

“I’m your hyung, you son of a ! No matter what happens, I’m still your ing hyung!” Jaebum yelled trying to get up.

“Stop cursing at me” Youngjae couldn’t take it and tried to escape all of his mess by going to his bedroom and blocking out his drunken husband for the rest of the night. But as soon as Youngjae tried to leave the living room, Jaebum grabbed his arm and pinned him against the wall.

“You don’t have the right to talk to your husband and hyung like that, you er” Jaebum whispered and all Youngjae wanted to do was die.

Tears slowly started to roll down Youngjae. He was scared.

“Then start acting like my husband” Youngjae’s voice shook in fear. He didn’t know what else to do other than to fight back.

“Why don’t we just get divorced then” Jaebum whispered with his head down and in a completely sober voice. His drunken self has disappeared into a dark void for a split second and it was the old sober but tired Jaebum back and whispering almost complete nonsense.

Youngjae’s heart has fallen to his feet and all he wanted to do now was to die. He couldn’t handle this.

“Are you being serious now, Jaebum? Are you sure?” Youngjae wanted to make sure Jaebum wouldn’t come back to Youngjae the next day begging for forgiveness and telling him ‘he was too drunk to think straight’.

“I don’t even know anymore” Jaebum whispered, all sobered up.