BAEKHYUN'S POV

Kyungsoo took my hand as we were going to the bathroom.

I was still crying a bit also if I hated to do it.
I used to keep everything for myself but with Kyung it was different, he wanted to help me and I trusted him more than anyone else. He was my bestfriend after all.
I didn't want to tell this story but I couldn't handle it anymore, it was too much for me and Kyungsoo was there for put together my pieces if I would collaps.

"Baekhyun it isn't your fault. Your mother tips in your emotions for convince you to leave the group and Yeol"

"She's good at it.."

"Don't let her change your mind"

I nodded

"Give me your hand"
He took pliers, bands and disinfectant

I did it and he started to remove the glass pieces

"Baekhyunnie you didn't do anything wrong"

I didn't believe that but I just nodded again

"Look at me. I'm serious"

"All right.."

"I swear, I'll help you to overcome this bad time"

"You don't have to.."

"Yes I have"

The boys came upstairs and started to make a lot of noise.
Kyungsoo quickly closed the door.
He looked at me and smiled

"Ehi monster, I won't leave you okay?"

"Okay.."
I was so glad to have him

He hugged me and I did the same.

We heard Kai and Sehun talking about what they did during last night (you know what I mean).

Kyung expression changed a bit

"Ya don't listen to them"
I said

"I don't.. "

I went near him and whispered
"Thank you for everything Kyung. Also for the hand"

He whispered too
"Not at all, you're my favourite brother. Oh if you want to go to your mother I'll come with you, or I can talk with her"

"N-no there's no need to do that"

"As you wish"
He made an encouraging smile
"Are you hungry?"

"No thanks"

"Ok~ ya now I wouldn't leave you alone even a moment"

"I'm fine, don't worry"
I smiled a bit

He held my healthy hand
"I'm proud to be your best friend"

My eyes became bright
'Aish I'm so emotional'
"And I'm immensely glad to have someone like you by my side"

"Ya~ you make me cry monster"

I smiled
"Don't you dare"

"Also if I did it I would NEVER let you see~"

"Yaya~"
I looked at my bedroom's door

"Go to him"

"I don't think he would talk to me"

"Ya again? it's not your fault. You both have to understand it. Do you know where to sleep?"

"I don't know.."

"Do you want to come with me and Han?"

"I don't want to disturb you"

"You don't, you just come to sleep"

"I'll stay on the sofa"

"Sure?"

"Yeah.."

"Ya you're not!"
He laughed

"Do you think I should tell him?.."

"I think he deserves to know.. but just when you're ready to do it"

I smiled
"Of course.."

He smiled to me too

"Kyung"

"Yeah?"

"C-can I sleep with you?"

He laughed again
"Yes you can~"

"Thanks"

He went to Luhan and asked if he was agree, then he came back to me
"Okay you can come later. LATER"
He laughed

I started laughing too
"Okay okay got it~"

They went upstairs and I waited on the sofa.

When they finished I went in their bedroom and layed beside them, then we fell asleep.

 

I woke up early and went to my bedroom to tell Chanyeol what happened.
It has been hard but I didn't cry this time.
He didn't know what to say so I just hugged him and told him that I won't let my mother take me away from him.
He told me that it wasn't my fault and we both agreed about the fact that our relationship wasn't stable anymore.

After a few I received a text message from Kyungsoo
/Hey lazybones are you awake?

/Yeah, I'm with Chanyeol now

/Did you talk?

/I told him everything

/And he..?

/He didn't know what to say, so I told him that I won't let her take me away, for console him

/Yeah you won't let her. I'll be your shield little monster

/Thank you really.. I don't know how to thank you..

/You don't have to

/You're the monster anyway~

/Oh right, you're the little ~

We continued like this for some time, then we all went out to practice.
The day was normal, we took lunch and dinner toghether but I wasn't hungry at all so I skipped them.
I acted as normal as I could but I noticed Kyungsoo's gaze on me sometimes.

We came back quite late, I went to my room but no one was there
'He disappeared again..'
I sighed and I layed on my bed until I fell asleep.

 

The next morning I woke up , my hand hurt a lot and I felt like my head was going to explode.

I took my phone and wrote to Kyungsoo, hoping that he was awake
/Kyung when you have time can you help me to change the hand's bends? It hurts a bit

He immediately answered
/Of course Baek, I'm coming

He knocked on my door and I opened it, we went to the bathroom downstairs so that we wouldn't arise anyone.
He closed the door
"Let me see your hand"

I gave it to him

"Are you sure it isn't broken? It's in bad conditions.."

"Sure.."

"Fool, don't do it anymore"
He took some new bands and the disinfectant
"Tell me if it hurts.."
He started to pass it on my hand. It stang.

"I-it hurts.."

He tried to be more soft
"Hold on"
He put on the new bands and looked at me
"Are you okay?"

"Mh.."

"No.. you're not okay.. what's happening?"
He hugged me

"I-I don't feel very well.."
I laid my head on his shoulder

He caressed my hair
"It's for your mother?"

"I have no idea.."

"Vent"

"I feel like . I don't have a family anymore, my mother wants to take me away, my brother ignores my existence and everything that happened to Channy.. I don't know what to do anymore.."

"I'll say it again, it's not your fault but of your parents' presuntion and egoism. If your brother acts like you don't exist he's just an idiot, you should be the one ignoring him. He's mad at you cause he let your mother change his mind? You have to talk with him.
I'm sure Chanyeol knows that it's nobody fault, neither your.
And... I know that it isn't the same thing but we, we are your family and we will never let you go. They'll have to pass on my body"

"I've always been a trouble for him.."

"Do you want me to talk to him?"

"N-no not now.."

"Baekhyunnie"
He hugged me tight
"You're my noisy pest, I can't see you like this. Everything is gonna be allright"
He closed his eyes

I closed my eyes too and laid my head on his shoulder, I started to feel dizzy

He kept holding me and whispered confortly words while I held his t-shirt with a hand.
He softly held it and we went to the sofa.

KYUNGSOO'S POV

Baekhyun was trembling and it sincerely scared me.
Both of us sat on the sofa and I told him again that he didn't deserve what was happening to him and I begged him not to give up.
Suddenly his eyes became different like when you are going to faint so I almost screamed his name and I ran to the kitchen to bring him a glass of water. He took the glass on his hand and he whispered
"I don't have anything to lose..."

"What do you mean?"

"You'll be better without me"

"What are you saying?! Don't think we'll be. We would be lost without you"

He did a bitter laugh
"Yeah.. Surely..."

I noticed he was holding the glass with more force so I took it
"You are our strenght"

He was unwell, I saw his eyes grow dim and I didn't really know what to do so I held him again

"K-kyung... thanks for everything..."
His breath became heavier

'Oh gosh'
"Baekhyun...breath. Keep calm"

"I am"

He wasn't. He was trembling again. I kissed his head and I tried to joke
"Look what I have to do to make you relax!"

His little laugh warmed my heart
"Idiot~... I feel dizzy and I can't even move my hand"

"I think you'd better let a doctor see your hand..."

"Mh..."

"Hey, let's go to the hospital"

He nodded
"I feel so damn dizzy.."

Since he could not stand up I took him to the car and I drove to the hospital.

We went to the first aid and I asked a docter if he could check my friend's hand.

He took Baekhyun with him so I just waited.

At that time I had many thoughts.
My life hadn't been easy and the day before had been a bad day for me because I had quarreled with Sehun after that Jongin had kissed me at SM but he had pretended I was the one who had kissed him but at the moment I didn't care of them, Baekhyun was the center of my worries.
He was the one I really cared about so when the doctor came out I almost ran to him
"How's he?!"

"His hand has a multiple fracture and very deep cuts which caused extensive loss of blood and the resulting dizziness. Furthermore your friend haven't been eating for a long time, at least a week. You have done well to bring him here because he was on the verge of collapse and given his condition I don't think we would be able to save him. I am surprised he is still alive"

I was shocked
"Can I see him?"

"At the moment you can't. As soon as he is better we'll tell you"

I thanked the doctor and I put my hands through my hair.
How couldn't I realize he was so ill?
I cursed myself. I was too caught up in my stupid love story, too busy joking around, too selfish. I had threatened to see my best friend die.
Baekhyun, he had always been there for me since the beginning despite all the bad things that I said, he was always ready to cheer me up or to endure my protests. I realized that Baekhyun was my landmark, the one who understood me just looking into my eyes but was I good enough for him? I thought I wasn't.
Many reproaches and questions filled my head while I was crying hard.

My tears were still falling on the hospital floor when I decided to call Chanyeol to tell him his boyfriend was hospitalized.