KYUNGSOO'S POV

I was waiting outside the room crying.
Why was I so stupid?
Why didn't I keep him calm as I should have done?
When the doctors came I almost jumped on them
"How is he?!"

"He is okay, we gave him a sedative and we attached to the respirator for safety but he won't take it for a long time.
But...be very careful."

I blushed a bit and thanked them then I was going to Baekhyun's when a nurse stopped me
"Yes?" I said cordially

She made me really embarassed for what she said to me but I tried not to show it and I entered the room

"Wren..."

He looked at me and gave me a small smile

"How scary..."
I said and he looked down wiping a tear

"Can I approach you?"
I continued and he just nodded so I sat beside his bed.

He looked at me again and I stared at him uncertanly.

"I'm afraid..."
His voice was a whisper

"No, now you're well. I should have stopped"

"It wasn't your fault"

"Why didn't you told me that I was exaggerating?.."

"B-because I didn't want it"

I was very surprised
"Oh ehm.. Anyway the doctor says you're fine now"

"Yes but I'm afraid..."

"About what?"

"I'm afraid to die..."

"Don't say that, even as a joke. You won't die"

"I'm n-not as s-strong as you..."

"Yes, you're right. You are stronger."

He started crying again
"It's not true..."

I hugged him and he held me tight, very tight so I whispered to him
"Keep clinging to life as you are doing now with me"

Those words made a great effect on him because he plunged his head in the crook of my neck and soon after he broke the embrace.

It was so strange: normally he used to be the one cheering me up and I used to walk away annoyed but at that time it was taking the opposite.

"You can completely rely on me"

"I know... thank you"

"You're welcome, wren"

I didn't want to broke that fluffy moment but I looked at his neck and I couldn't hold back a laugh.

He touched it with the hand
"...damn Kyung"

"Now I understand why the doctor has got it wrong"
I giggled

"The doctor?!"

I nodded
"He told me to be careful and a nurse said to me 'You should be good at doing hickeys' "

"...oh my god"
He blushed and I did it too

"Mh.. Yeah..."

He gazed interrogative

I touched my waist
"About what has happened... I'm s-sorry"

He bit his lip
"You d-don't have to be sorry..."

"I don't know what happened to me... I just know that...I liked it...a lot"

I literally saw Baekhyun becoming all the colors of the rainbow
"I liked it too"
He was stuttering again

"Don't..." I didn't know what I was going to say "Don't...ah nothing"

"Tell me"

"No, you should tell me something..."

"I don't know" his eyes were bright "I'm afraid to lose you"

"What?! No! You won't lose me. Why do you believe it?"

"I don't know it either... I'm just scared it will happen"

"It won't. Baekhyun... I tried to stop but I couldn't..."
I turned my back.

I heard him getting up
'What is he going to do?'
I sighed of relief when he hugged me from behind and I held his hand.

The nurse that had told me of the hickeys entered the room for a check and we held back our laughs but as soon as she went out we laughed in embarrassment.
I pointed at his neck
"Was I good enough?"

"Ya..."

I waited for an answer

"Yes, you were...really good"

I blushed again, damn I had never blushed so much before
"You were good too..."

He laughed
"I didn't do anything"

"You touched me well...and you kissed my neck"

He looked down blushing so I said
"What happened to us?"

"I don't know Kyungie, I don't know"

"It was pleasent, we were playing..."

"Yes, we w-were playing"

"But you should have told me you were unwell. I would have stopped"

"I didn't want to..."

"You didn't want to...stop?"
'I noticed it, he grabbed me by the trouser belt and slammed on him'

He looked away, the situation was becoming too embarassing

"It doesn't matter"

"It doesn't matter"
He repeated and laid the back of his head on my shoulder.

I decided to change topic so I exclaimed
"Stinker!"

"Idiot"
He answered

"Go and wash yourself!"

"Why don't you go first?"

"I do not smell, you do"

"Bah"
He reached the door and I found it funny
"Why are you laughing?"

"Because you are funny and smelly"

He laughed too
"Ungrateful bastard"
Then he left me alone inside the room.

 

BAEKHYUN'S POV

I went to the bathroom to take a shower, I did pretty soon and I dressed again.
I tried to avoid the gaze with the mirror but I ended up looking at the marks on my neck.
I passed a finger on them
"Damn Kyung..."

I smiled a little without noticing as I started to think about what happened but I banished the memory and went out of the bathroom with my hair still wet and tousled.

I went back to the room and Kyung was waiting for me

"Done? Let me smell"

"Ya what are you, a dog?"

"Yeees"

He looked at my hair
"You're y like this"

"Stop making fun of me~"

"I'm not"

I arched an eyebrow
"What have you done while I was away?"

"I ate some cookies"

"Oh now that makes sense"
I laughed and sat beside him

"My neck hurts bastard"
He said

"Your neck hurts?! I can't even feel it!"
I almost screamed

"It's better not to feel it than feel it hurting"
He laughed

I looked badly at him and he looked at my neck
"I can't stop laughing"

"It's your fault"

"I know"
He laughed again
"You know you scratched me"

"Jinjja?"

"Yeah"
He showed me his right side

"Ops.. I'm sorry.."

"Don't worry"

I laughed while looking at him, he asked me why I was doing it and I just said that he was funny like he did with me before.

He was going to freak out
"BYUN BAEKHYUN I'LL KILL YOU"
"I'll make my revenge pt 2"
"Aaaah you're so noisy!"

I was still laughing while he said these thing, it was so fun to like this

"I don't know how I can stay with you, they should make me a saint"

"You know that for be a saint you should be dead?"
I chuckled

He looked at me badly
"D E T T A I L S."

"Bla bla bla~"

We both laid on the bed looking at the ceiling and after a few Kyung has gone in thoughts

"What are you thinking about?"
I asked

"I should stop dating Luhan"

"Are you sure?"

"No, but I don't want to betray Jongin.. Aish I'm so disgusting"

"You're not"

"It's not possible to love two people at the same time"

"Oh yeah it is"

"How do you know that?"

"I just know it"

He nodded

I hugged him
"Kyung you aren't disgusting, you have to understand this. Make mistakes is normal you can't expect for you to be different, don't blame yourself for faults that you don't have"

"I can't break away from him, it's like if I'm chained to his heart"

"You're in love"

"I can't be"

"You don't want to, it's different"

"I don't want to because I can't. Do you see how happy I am when Jongin calls me? I love him"

"I got it.. just one last thing. Who makes you really happy now?"

"...you"

"..m-me?.."

"Yes you"

I didn't know what to say so I thought a little
"Kyung listen.. I can't tell you who you should love and I also can't go into your mind for understand what you're feeling. The only thing I can do is give you my support, whatever you'll decide I'll be by your side, only if you choose what can makes you happy because you really deserve it. Got it?"

"Got it wren~"

We both smiled

"I don't want to think about it now! I just want to stay with you"

I smiled sweetly

"Do you want to sleep wren?~"

"Yeah let's sleep~"

"Do you want me to sleep on another bed or with you?"

"I-I have no problems sleeping w-with you"

"Neither I do, I like it~ cause you're cuddly"

I blushed and smiled

"At least when you sleep you shut up"

"Ya and you aren't annoying"

We both laughed and went under the blankets

"Goodnight poultice~"
He gave me a rocket kiss on the neck

I laughed
"Goodnight wretch~"

KYUNGSOO'S POV

We both laid on the bed and I waited for him to fall asleep.
He did it pretty quickly and when I was sure that he was deeply sleeping I hugged him.
I felt his hand holding mine, this made me smile and I fell asleep happily.